Update ~~ 30
" Bina bag aur phone ke wahan se jana samjhdari nahi thi isliye mene andar hi usi jagah par rehne ka faisla kiya. Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki raat kab khatam hone wali thi, na jane kitni hi der main us jagah par yun hi baithi rahi. Har samay mehsus hota ki wahan koi aur bhi maujud hai. Lavanya itni der tak mere sath yun chupan-chupai kyun khelegi bas yahi samajh nahi aa raha tha. Kuch der baithne ke baad jo sharir ki thakan thi vo sar par havi hone lagi aur meri ankh kab lag gayi malum hi nahi chala. Kuch der ke baad mujhe fir wese hi lakdiyun ke charmane ki ahat hui, nind kachi thi to fauran khul gayi. Awaz theek uppar se aa rahi thi aur us andheri khamoshi mein vo awaz jaise mere dil ki dhadkan badha rahi thi. Koi mano apne sharir ka dabab farsh par daalte hue aage piche ghum raha ho "
" koi tha.. wahan.. " main tapak se boli par aaruhi ne meri baat ansuni kar di.
" Main bahut jada ghabra rahi thi, andhera vaise bhi mere liye sahi nahi hai.. bachpan se hi mujhe andhere se ghabrahat hoti hai ... main isi vichar mein thi ki kya karun tabhi... " aaruhi itne josh se boli ki ek pal ke liye mujhe laga us khandar ki jagah hostel ke apne kamre mein kuch hua hai " tabhi kisi chiz ke girne ki awaz ayi aur mein ghabra kar uth baithi aur anjane mein mere muh se nikal gaya, ' kaun hai? ' Shayad muh se nikalne ke baad is baat ka ehsas hua ki wahan jo koi bhi tha use malum ho chala tha ki uske alawa bhi koi wahan maujud hai isliye lakdi charmane ki awaz bhi band ho gayi thi. Mujhe turant samajh aa gaya ki mene galti kar di hai lekin ab kuch ho nahi sakta tha. Main khud ko samjha rahi thi bar-bar yahi keh rahi thi ki kuch nahi hai, sirf mera weham hai.. par hakikat ye thi nahi.. wahan main akeli nahi thi.. koi aur bhi tha... koi tha.. wahan.... "
" kaun tha? "
" nahi malum... "aaurhi ne jab ye kaha to main samjhne lagi ki vo sirf uska veham tha.. aaruhi ka dar, lavanya ka khel aur us jagah ke haalat ... sab aaruhi ki kahani ke patr banne hue the par abhi aaruhi ko kuch kehna baki reh gaya tha aur mujhe sunne mein koi boriyat nahi ho rahi thi to mene use sunna jari rakha. " koi tha.. wahan... kaun nahi malum.. lekin jab main us ghar ke bheetar dekhti rahi jahan mujhe nazre ghumane par andhera dikhta.. wahan kuch hai.. vo feel to hota lekin kya hai ye samajh nahi ata.. itna bhi dekh pana mere liye mushkil tha ki samne koi chiz rakhi hai koi khada mujhe ghur raha hai.. bar bar jab bhi dimag mein aise khayal atte to samne rakhi table bhi mujhe ghurti hui ankhein lagti. Achanak mujhe aisa laga jaise koi mujhe awaz de raha hai.. uppar se.. mere naam ko pukar raha hai.. ab mujhe aur jada dar lagne laga.. koi mera naam kaise le sakta hai? Dar ne dimag kar kabza karna shuru kiya lekin fir khayal aya ki kya vo lavanya to nahi.. ho sakta hai vo mere sath khel rahi ho.. mazak uska abhi tak khatam na hua ho... isliye mene kisi tarah himmat jutai, man aur dimag ke bich jo jung chhidi thi usme dar ki wajah se vo faisla liya jo sahi nahi tha. ' Lavanya... aap ho.. ' mene awaz lagai aur mere awaz lagate hi jo awaz mere ko sunai padh rahi thi vo shant ho gayi. Mene apne kadam aage badaye.. table ko kas kar pakad rakha tha taki koi ho to khinch na sake... thodi aage jhuk kar mene jab hall ki taraf dekha to ... " aaurhi ne ek pal pause liya.. ye kahani aise suna rahi hi jaise abhi meri utejna badhti jaa rahi thi. " to wahan sirf sanata tha.. pata hi nahi kitna badha hall tha ya kya hi maujud tha bas sidiyan jo theek mujhse thodi dur par hi thi vo dikh rahi thi.. Awaz bhi uppar se hi ayi thi isliye mujhe laga jo bhi koi hai vo uppar hai... Ab mujhe faisla karna tha ki ya to main wahin baithi rahun ya fir uppar jaun dekhun aur man ko tassali dun... Lavanya us waqt agar mujhe jitna marzi pareshan karke dikh jati na to bhi uske galle lag jati lekin aisa nahi ho raha tha. ' Lavanya aap uppar ho... ' mene awaz laga di.. kyun malum nahi akhri umeed ke chalte.. aur fir bina soche apne kadam sidiyun ki taraf badhate hue paidhi par apna paun rakha aur jhuk kar uppar ki taraf dekhne lagi. Aisi ajeeb si vibes aa rahi thi us andhere se ki dil aur sharir mein dar ab tsunami ban chuka tha. Vo kali andheri jagah jaise koi unme se mujhe dekh raha ho.. ya fir koi piche se mujhe pakadna cha raha ho. Dar aur samjhdari mein utna farak hota hai jitna zameen aur asman.. koi mel nahi.. dono hote jarur hai par ek dusre ke as-pas bhi nahi hote.. dono ek dusre ko dekh sakte hain par vo duri tay nahi kar sakte. Mere uppar dar puri tarah se havvi tha. Mene apna dusra kadam uthaya aur pehli paidi par khadi ho gayi.. Pehli ke baad railing pakad kar mene dusre par kadam rakha aur fir tisre par.. behad dhire-dhire aur har paidhi ke sath mujhe aisa lagta jaise main uske changul mein fansti jaa rahi hun tabhi mujhe ehsas hua ki jo lakdi charmane ki awaz mene suni thi vo mere paidhi chadne par bhi ho rahi thi. Mere kadam ruk gaye... agar kisi ko malum na bhi chale ki main wahan hun to is awaz se hi pata lag jane wala tha. Isliye mene apne shoes wahin utare aur nange per uppar chadne lagi "
" par tu uppar jana hi kyun chahti thi? kya chul thi tere andar? " mujhse raha nahi gaya to mene sawal kar diya.
" ajeeb hadson ke waqt koi suj-bhuj nahi hoti.. main bas ye tassali kar lena chahti thi wahan kuch nahi hai.. har khandar mein anhoni ghatnaye nahi ho sakti. Mera dimag bas isi baat ko sabit karne ki hodh mein tha aur main akhir uppar pahunch gayi. Andhere mein kewal khud ko mehsus karte hue mene samne adhe khule darwaje ko dhakka diya aur use khol diya. Kisi ka kamra tha shayad, ek palang samne rakha tha, chand ki roshni halki wahan tak pahunch rahi thi isliye kuch hadh tak andhera kam tha. Usi kamre ke bagal mein ek aur darwaja tha jo ki band pada tha. Band darwaje se dhayan hatate hue jab main andar ghusi to per mein kuch chuba. Kuch garam... Mene turant wahan se per wapis kiya aur niche hath se us chiz ko tatlone lagi.. Utha kar dekha to vo machis ki tilli thi jo ki abhi tak garam thi. Yani kisi ne kuch hi pal pehle ise jalaya tha. Main abhi soch rahi thi ki mujhe aisa laga jaise koi mere piche khada mere balon ko chu raha ho. Ye mehsus karte hi mere pure sharir mein sansani daud gayi. Main chillai aur chillate hue main kamre ke andar ghus gayi aur fauran piche paltti.. lekin wahan kuch nahi tha... Meri sansein itni tez chal rahi thi ki ek pal lene mein dikat bhi hone lagi. Abhi jab samne koi bahar nahi dikha to mene apne kadam aage badaye ye dekhne ke liye ki kaun chup raha hai tabhi mere kano mein awaz padi... koi kisi ka naam pukar raha tha.. Mene awaz ko dhayan se sunne ki kosish kari.. Ek pal laga awaz bahar se hi aa rahi hai lekin jab dhayan se suna to awaz theek mere piche se aa rahi thi.. usi kamre se.. jis kamre ke dehleez par main khadi thi. Mene apni nazre piche ghumai... awaz abhi bhi wahin se aa rahi thi... theek usi tarah jaise main jab niche thi tab mujhe sunai di thi.. vo naam.. "
" kya naam? " ye naam ka jikar bar-bar ho raha tha par naam nahi mil raha tha.
" vandana... yahi naam tha.. jo vo mujhe sunai de rahi thi. Main nahi janti thi ki ye naam ka koi shaks wahan maujud hai jise bulaya jaa raha hai ya uska is jagah se koi taluk hai lekin meri chinta is baat par thi ki kaun hai jo is naam ko pukar raha hai... 'kaun hai? ' mene pucha... jiske baad vo awaz shant ho gayi jaise mere puchne par ghabra rahi ho. Par ab uske shant hone ke baad jigasya aur badh gayi us awaz ko janne ki.. Main dhire-dhire us palang ki taraf badhi jahan se vo awaz aa rahi thi. Dil itni zoron se dhadak raha tha ki vo keh raha ho kuch theek nahi hai.. niche to bilkul theek nahi hai.. Fir bhi niche jhuki, ghutno ko farsh par dala aur niche jhuki, jaise jaise main niche jhuk rahi thi meri ghabrahat apne charam seema tak badh rahi thi. Sansein itni tez thi ki mere kano mein gunjne lagi, mene apni nazre niche ki aur paya palang ke niche koi nahi tha. Aur jaise hi mujhe ye abhas hua main samajh gayi ki kuch bahut galat hai.. bahut bahut galat. Main uth kar wahan se bhag jana chahti thi par tabhi itni zor se darwaja band hone awaz ne mujhe jhinjhod kar rakh diya. Main cheekhi... jitni tez cheekh sakti thi utni tezz chikhi.. jo darwaja band hua tha vo usi kamre ka tha jisme main maujud thi. Main cheekhte hue us bed se tek lagaye baith gayi. Nazar sirf darwaje ki aaur thi... hath paun kanp rahe the... dar ab mere rom-rom mein bas chuka tha. Main janti thi ki main ab jada der zinda nahi rahungi... ye dar mujhe kha jane ko utawla ho chuka tha... Ab bas.. kuch na ho.. kuch na ho... mere muh se yahi nikal raha tha.. ki tabhi... " aaurhi ek pal saans lene ke liye ruki.. meri jigasya ab apne charam seema par thi .. main baithe hue aaruhi ki kahani ka ant janna chahti thi ... jarur wahan kuch gadbad hai... ab ye baat ki pushti dhire-dhire hoti samajh aa rahi thi.
" tabhi... vo kiwad dhire-dhire khula... itna dhire mano koi meri jaan hi lena chahta ho.. na to mujhe darwaje par kisi ka hath dikh raha tha na hi uske khulne par uske piche koi dikhai de raha tha. Mera sharir dar se thar-thar kaanpne laga tha.. Darwaja apne aap khulne laga... aur tabhi mujhe ek hansi sunai di... bas vo hansi hi ki main dar kar cheekh padi.. bahut zor zor se... cheekhne lagi aur cheekhte hue bachne ke liye palang ke niche chup gayi.. na jane kyun.. par mefus to us jagah bhi nahi thi... Thar-thar kampta mera badan jitna piche ho sakta tha palang ke niche utna piche hua aur deewar se sat kar apne aap ko samet liya. Mere ansu nikal kar chehre se fisalte hue farsh par pade aur tabhi mujhe kisi ke andar ane ki ahat hui, main use dekh nahi sakti thi ki vo kaun hai lekin... vo mehsus ho rahe the.. koi andar aa raha hai.. Main kisi tarah apne aap ko chupane ki kosish karne mein datti hui thi par sab bekar hota jaa raha tha kyun ki vo kadam dhire-dhire meri taraf hi badh rahe the... aur fir theek mere samne aa khade hue "
" per sidhe the ya ulte...? " bachpan se lekar abhi tak mumy aur tv/movies mein yahi suna tha, chudailo ke per ulte hote hai... lekin aaurhi jaise apni kahani mein khoi thi, usne mere sawal ko suna hi nahi. Vo apne sharir ko aise samete baithi thi mano vo usi raat ke usi pal mein ho.
" vo.. per... mere samne the.. main dekh sakti thi... mujhe kuch samajh ata usse pehel vo ek dum se jhuki... aur usne apna chehra mere samne kiya jiske baad mein cheekh padi... aur itni zor se cheekhi ki uske baad mujhe hosh hi nahi raha... dar ke marre mein behosh ho chuki thi... aur jab ankh khuli to main us khandar ke bahar thi... zameen par laiti.. Raat abhi bhi ho rahi thi aur main kabhi use dekhti to kabhi us khandar ko.. ek pal ke liye laga jaise kuch hua hi na ho.. Khandar se jab nazar hata kar meri nazar lavanya par gayi jo meri hi suitcase par baithi thi to main use dekh aur dar gayi... " aaruhi ki sansein abhi bhi tez thi.
" tu lavanya ke chehre se kyun dari? "
" kyun ki ... kyun ki wo wahi thi.. jisne mujhe palang ke niche dekha tha "
" tu uske chehre se isliye dar gayi.. ? "
" han.. kyun ki vo uska chehra nahi tha.. vo chehra nahi tha... jo uska hai... "
" chehra hai par tha nahi? kya bol rahi hai tu? " main ab confuse thi.
" vo jisne jhuk kar meri taraf dekha tha vo lavanya hi thi par vo nahi thi.. uska chehra nahi tha "
" to mask laga hua tha? " mene asmanjas mein fir pucha.
" nahi.. mask nahi tha.. balki kuch nahi tha... " main ek pal aaruhi ko yun hi dekhti rahi aur tab samajh aya ki ye pura mamla tha kya. Na jane main kya kya soch baithi thi lekin wahan kuch tha hi nahi. Wo sirf aaruhi ka ek matr bhram tha iske alawa kuch nahi. Us mahol ne use itna dara dia tha ki har chiz jo hui hi nahi use kuch nazar aa rahi thi. Jabki ye sab sirf lavanya ka mazak tha.. asal mein vo us din us mansion ke andar gayi hi nahi... jabki vo tabhi behosh ho gayi jab jhadiyun ke piche se use laga ki koi hai.. baki sab usne sirf ek khwab dekha jise vo itna dar gayi hai aur vo khwab use bar-bar aa rahe hain isi wajah se vo us raat ki tarah aaj bhi palang ke niche padi thi, bas ek chiz samajh nahi ayi vo ye ki aaruhi ne apne kapde kyun utare? Pura romanch jaise bhakk... ho gaya... ek dum se khallas...
" han sahi kaha vo mask nahi tha.. kyun ki vo kuch tha hi nahi.. "
" tu..tu kehna kya chahti hai.. main juth bol rahi hun "
" nahi "
" mene tujhe kaha tha ki mujhe pagal mat samjhio "
" main aisa kaha hi nahi "
" to fir? " aaurhi ke bechaini dekh main ek pal chup hui.
" main to bas ye keh rahi hun ki agar tu daregi to sach nahi samajh payegi aur nahi daregi.. to sach tere samne hoga bas... " main apne bistar par pasarte hue boli.
" tu keh rahi hai ki main dar rahi thi isliye aisa dekha? " aaurhi ek pal chup hui " mujhe malum hai mene kya dekha hai.. main use samjha nahi sakti.. dar to har kisi mein hota hai tu bhi to darti hai.. yani dar ke mare to kuch bhi dekh kar kuch bhi bolegi ? "
" main..? " mene aaruhi ki taraf dekha.. " main darti hun? main kisi se nahi darti "
" jhooth.. jhooth.. abhi dari thi tu.. jab mene tera per pakda tha "
" oo.. behenji... main islye nahi dari thi ki tune mujhse pakda balki main chaunki aur vo isliye kyun ki tere hath baraf jaise thande ho rahe the.. ye dekh per par nishan bhi ban gaya " mene apne takhne ke uppar dikhaya jahan halka nila nishan ban gaya tha. " aur dekh aaruhi.. mene tujhe galat nahi kaha balki tere sath jo kiya gaya vo galat tha... aur isliye main tujhse bas yahi kahungi.. ki tu us sapne ko ek bura din samajh kar bhool aur aage badh.. " mujhe dhayan aya ki mujhe abhi light band karni hai.. isliye main vapis uthi aur light band karke apni jagah par aa laiti.
" agar tujhe lagta hai vo sirf ek sapna tha to vo.. naam vandana.. vo kaun hai.. vo mujhe kaise malum? " aaruhi sone ka naam nahi le rahi thi.
" abe yaar.... naam hi to hai sirf... vandana naam ki shaksiyat thodi na asliyat mein aa gayi tere pas... main sainkdon ladkon ke naam se sapno mein chudti hun.. tu ek naam ki baat kar rahi hai.. itna naam se pareshan mat ho.. vaise bhi kisi vidhwan chodu ne kaha hai... naam mein kya rakha hai.. maal mein dimag lagao.... wahi tumhe degi.. aur wahi tumhari legi.. ab soo jaa.. good night... " sone se pehle mene time dekha.. 1:30 baj chuke the. " so gayi na? " mene ankhein band kiye kiye awaz di to bagal se koi awaz na pakar mene mana ki vo so chuki hai isliye mene bhi ankhein band ki aur so gayi.
" Us raat aaruhi ke sath reh kar nahi laga ki kuch hua hai, jaisa hafta guzra tha use dekh aur samajh kar yahi laga tha ki aaruhi kisi tarah ke depression mein hai lekin us raat uske sath baat karte waqt nahi laga ki aisa kuch bhi hai. Uski baatein sunne ke baad yahi laga ki lavanya ke kiye mazak ka asar use pada hai aur vo usse hi jada jud gayi hai. Mujhe bas uske us bure sapne ko use dur karna tha lekin main nahi janti thi ki sapna dur karne ki jagah main use aur pass le ja rahi hun ya fir main abhi tak uski baton ko samajh hi nahi payi hun. Vo raat abhi khatam nahi hui thi. Agle din college band tha hum hostel mein hi the aur mene kisi tarah freshers party ke liye aaurhi ko mana liya. Mujhe uska dar kam karna tha jisme pehli shuruwat yahi thi ki vo lavanya se darna band kare. Subh se sham ho gayi aur mess ki jung ladne ke baad hum dono bina jada baat kiye so gaye. Uske sone ke baad main bhi vishal se baat karte karte kab so gayi malum hi nahi chala. " shruti bolte hue ek pal ruki aur khidki par girti tez baarish ko dekhne lagi. " Garmiyun ka mausam tha, us raat behad garmi thi, hostel ka pankha chal to raha tha par hawa na ke barabar hi thi aur uska shor jisne meri kachi nind khol di "
Phone sine par rakha hua tha jo vishal se baat karne ke dauran mere sone ki wajah se gir gaya hoga. Mene phone uthaya aur time dekha takreeban 3 baj ke kuch minute the. Phone ki torch jala kar mene pankhe ki taraf phone ko uthaya rakha ye dekhne ke liye ki pankhe ko kya maut ayi hai. Roshni jaise hi pankhe par padi tab malum hua ki vo sach mein apni akhri sanson mein chal raha hai. Kai baar saamjh nahi ata paise diye hai ya liye hai. " inki maiyat mein bhi itni hi garmi hogi tab malum hoga in hostel walon ko.. " pankhe se roshni hatate hue socha aaruhi ko jaga lun vaise bhi ab nind khul gayi hai aur ab ane vali bhi nahi isliye use jaga kar thoda gapiyane ka ranga-rang karya-karam bana le. Sochte hue main apni jagah par baithne lagi aur phone ko aaruhi ki taraf ghuma diya taki roshni se uski nind tod du par jaise hi mene roshni us taraf ki mere hath se phone gir gaya aur jis position mein main us taraf ghumi thi usi tarah baithi reh gayi. Aaruhi bistar par baithi hui thi baal puri tarah se bikhar kar uske chehre ko dhak chuke the, ek pal laga samjhne mein ki vo kis aaur baithi hai. Mujhe pichli sham ke bathroom wala drishye yaad aa gaya aur yakinan ek ajeeb si bechaini man mein daud padi. Mera phone niche zameen par gira tha lekin uski roshni uppar ki taraf aa rahi thi isliye us madhyam roshni mein aaruhi jis tarah baithi thi use dekh kar mere dil mein ek ajeeb si halchal mehsus hone lagi. Kareeb kuch minute mene aise hi bita diye, aaj se pehle kabhi aisa dar mehsus nahi hua tha. Pasina mathe se fisalta hua mere sine ke andar jata hua mujhe saaf mehsus ho raha tha.
" aaruhi.. " himmat karke mene awaz lagai lekin tab samajh aya ki awaz honton se nikli hi nahi vo galle mein hi fans gayi thi. Main itna kyun dar rahi hun? mene apne man se sawal kiya aur is baar jab awaz lagai to awaz bhi hawa ke sath muh se nikal hi gayi. Awaz laga kar main use ek tuk dekhti rahi, dekhti rahi.. umeed lagaye ki ab uske sharir mein halchal hogi lekin uski sidhi pith kiye hue baithne mein ratti bhar ka farak nahi aya. " aaruhi.. " mene dusri awaz lagai aur awaz lagate hi aaruhi ne gardan modi aur jis tarah usne gardan modi meri fatt ke halat aisi ho gayi mano sara ras paan chut se nikal gaya ho meri. " aa..ruhi... " main fauran uth baithi.
" hmm.. " uski shakal nahi dikh rahi thi balon se dhake hone par aur uske bhetar se ati awaz ne mujhe aur dara diya.
" aaruhi.. kya kar rahi hai.. so jaa... " kuch pal pehle karyakaram karne ka man kar raha tha par ab main chahti thi ki vo so jaye. Ab jab usne koi reaction nahi diya to main apni jagah se khadi hui aur switch ki taraf daudi taki light khol sakun. " khul behenki lodi.. khul kyun nahi rahi.. " mene itni tezi se khatke khol band kiye ki shayad usme se kuch ne to dum hi tod diya. " main itni hadbada kyun rahi hun.. phone.. phone.. hai.. na... " jab kuch nahi hua to mene phone ki roshni se kaam chalana sahi samjha. Mene switch ko man hi man gali di par agla sawal tha phone ko aaruhi ke pas se lena, sawal aya to dar bhi lekin fir khayal aya ki main dar kyun rahi hun. Vo aaruhi hai... bas ek aaruhi.. Apne aap ko samjha kar main jaise hi ghumi meri cheekh nikal gayi. Pehli baar is kadar kisi ne daraya tha vo bhi is tarah.
Samne aaruhi khadi thi bahut jada najdeek, matlab mujhe nahi pata tha vo kab se khadi hai kyun ki pata nahi chala vo kab wahan se uth kar yahan ayi. Uske baal horror filmo ki tarah aage the lekin un movies mein chehra ka chota hissa dikhta tha lekin aaruhi ne apne aap ko baalon ke piche chupa liya tha aur uppar se itne lambe baal samajh nahi aa raha tha ki vo sidhi khadi hai ya ulti. " mumy kehti thi chudail/dayanon ke per ulte hote hai.. aaruhi ke per .. " mene nazar niche kari lekin andhere ke chalte dikhai nahi diye. Bechaini ke chalte socha shor macha du lekin usi duaran peron mein roshni padhi. Ek jadu sa hua, kaise hua nahi malum par us roshni se mujhe aaruhi ke per dikhe jo sidhe the yani aaruhi chudail nahi hai? Ya fir mummy galat thi? Ek minute ye roshni kahan se ayi? sabhi sawalon ko khandit karte hue mene jab ispar vichar kiya tab nazar uthai. Hath mein mobile liye aaurhi khadi thi. Ek pal vo bhi wese hi khadi rahi aur main bhi use khadi dekhti rahi fir vo zor-zor se hasne lagi. " chudail aaurhi.. chudail aaruhi... " mene use dhakka diya aur palang ki taraf daudi. Mujhe ghum kar room se bahar jana chahie tha lekin main room ke andar ghus gayi aur jab samne deewar ayi tab samajh aya ki mene galat decision liya hai.
" chudaill... mumy... chudail... chudail.. mene kuch nahi kiya .. main to abhi sukhi hun bilkul.. mujhe le jaa kar kya karogi.. tum to to pilayi hui ladkiyun ko le jati ho na " mene apna chehra chaddar se dhak liya tha taki us taraf na dekh sakun. Bachpan mein mumy kehti thi jab bhi kahin dekh kar dar lage to muh chupa lena chahie dar apne aap gayab ho jata hai " sorry .. pilai nahi.. shadi sudha wali.. main to abhi kachi kali hun.. nahi nahi fir galat word.. kachi kali nahi.. jawan ladki hun.. " meri awaz mein kap-kapi thi. Mere kehne ke baad kuch hua nahi aur chadar dalne ke baad kuch pata nahi chal raha tha ki bahar kya ho raha hai. " lagta hai mumy ka idea kaam aa gaya.. chadar hataun kya.. khayegi thodi mujhe.. chudailein to khusbhu se chunti hai.. aur mujh mein se to night fall ki badbu hogi... han.. dekh hi leti hun.. " mene apni chadar hatai aur samne dekha. " behenchod... na roshni na aaruhi... " dabi awaz mein jab mene nazar samne se hata kar aaruhi ke palang ki taraf dekha to paya vo aram se so rahi thi. Mene thoda uth kar karib se dekha to vo aram se so rahi thi aur uske chehre par koi baal bhi nahi the. Main confused, ye kaise ho sakta hai, kahin mere sath ye koi game to nahi khel rahi vaise bhi mene ise kal hi kaha tha ki main kisi se nahi darti kahin ye uska badla to nahi le rahi. Abhi pata chal jayega.. mera phone isne daba rakha hoga.. kahan hai.. kahan hai.. mene ache se uske aaju baju dekha aur fir uske top ke andar hath dalne lagi aur mera hath uski chatiyun tak pahunch gaya. " isne andar kuch nahi pehna kya.. nahi nahi pehna hai.. kaise so jati hai ye ladki bra mein.. mujhse to adjust hi nahi hoti, abe nahi hai yaar.. " mene jab uski chatiyun par hath mara to malum chala ki vo vahan nahi tha. " niche to nahi dala hoga.. " meri nazar uske mudi hui tangon ke bich mein gayi " nahi nahi.. itni jaldi wahan kaise daal legi.. fir kahan gaya.. kahan chupa diya isne.. " mene idhar udhar dekha " farsh par gira diya hoga isne, chudail jo thi us time iske andar.. use kya pata phone kitna important hai aaj ke time mein.. " phone khojne se pehle mene aaruhi ki taraf dekha. Mene uska pura tan chu dala par uski nind mein halki si shikan tak nahi ayi. " iski ko le jayega aur ye soti reh jayegi.... mera phone.. " main farsh par dekhna shuru kiya lekin vo kahin nahi dikha.. switch board to mene hi toda tha isliye wahan jana bekar tha.. " kahan gaya.. kahan fenk diya isne.. ye pakka mere se badla le rahi hai kal ki raat ka.. ek to men ise darpok kaha aur khud ko bahadur fir lavanya ke sath meet karne ko bhi kaha.. jisme isne na han kiya na hi na.. bas freshers party mein participate karne ko kaha.. behenchod.. mat kar.. par iska badla mujhse kyun? Main phone khoj rahi thi ki tabhi mujhe ek awaz ayi.. main jahan khadi thi wahin khadi rahi.. aur dhayan se sunte hue pata chala ki ye mere phone ki vibration hai jo 'jurr-jurr' kakre baja hai abhi aur baja bhi mere piche se hai. Main fauran mudi to paya ki uske 'jurr-jurr' bajne ki wajah se jo roshni chamki thi vo mere palang se aa rahi thi. Main turant kudi.. matlab palang par ayi.
" ye behenchod yahan kaise kab kisne dala.. ? " main aaruhi ko dekhti to kabhi phone ko.. " ye to sala rape ho gaya mere sath.. " mene phone unock kiya.. jiski wajah se 'jurr-jurr' ho raha tha vo wajah thi vishal ka message.
" already slept? " nahi nahi bhosdeke raat bhar jagungi.. na.. mujhe aisa lagta hai is mechinical walle ko chance dekar mene galti kar di hai. Ye salle calculation se uppar nahi nikal payenge.
" nahi, nahi abhi so kar kya karungi? raat ke 3 baje jaag kar kya karun? " mene reply bheja. Usne read kiya aur bechara fir type karke mitata aur type karta fir uska reply aya.
" 3? but abhi to 1 bajne mein panch minute hai? "
" fuck... " mene ye man mein kaha kyun ki vo sahi keh raha tha time sach mein wahi ho raha tha jo abhi vishal ne kaha tha. Par aisa kaise ho sakta hai.. abhi jab main uthi thi tab to 3 baj rahe the na? right? galat thodi keh rahi hun main... ? aisa kaise ho sakta hai.. Mene phone wahin rakha aur sochte hue aaruhi ki taraf dekhne lagi. Kuch sahi nahi hai.. na hi kuch sahi lag raha tha... bahut se sawal man mein ghum rahe the aur us sawalon ka jawab mene us raat khoj liya.. ab agar mujhe jawab milne wale the to mene jo socha tha vo karna jaruri tha.. lekin mujhe ye nahi malum tha ki apne aap ko sahi sabit karne ki wajah se main aaurhi ko uske andhere mein aur dakhel rahi hun.