“Ha ha!” I laughed.
“Did you breastfeed Neelu for three years?” I asked after Rachna had had a few more spoonful of ice-cream.
“I did. They got much bigger because of that!” she said lifting one of her breasts with one hand, while eating ice-cream with the other.
Now, I am not the one who believes that breastfeeding enlarges breasts. I mean, Kajal and Ma themselves were great examples. They breastfed for a long time, and still had no enlargement effects. Also, you see so many unmarried girls with huge breasts. I think it is more related to unrestricted food intake and genetic makeup. But there was no point arguing over this.
“Did she stop or you?”
“I did. My Saas said not to feed her too much. Otherwise, it would have reduced my chances of getting pregnant again..." she waited and with a bitter expression, she added, "... as if I wanted more of his babies.”
“My Abha was fed only for about one year or so.”
“Hmmm…” Rachna acknowledged. When I did not say anything for a long time, she thought she must add something more, “It is not easy for a young child to live without the love and care of a mother.”
I knew Kajal and Latika took very good care of Abha, as if she were their own! If Abha missed Devy, those occasions must have been few.
“Will you love her?” I asked directly.
“What?” Rachna seemed to get off balance at my question, but she quickly regained it and said, “Well of course I will love her! All children need love to grow. I will look after Abha like I look after Neelu.”
“Being a step-mother is not easy.”
“Never easy.” She accepted, “But at least I can try?”
“Will you breastfeed her?” I fired another salvo.
Rachna’s eyes widened. For a moment she could not say anything.
“I mean, I can try... if you want. But I am not sure. I don’t breastfeed Neelu anymore. I don't produce milk any more.”
That was not the point. It was a test.
“Feed her now?”
“What? No. I am naked.”
“Well, how does it matter? You saw my Ma naked. What is the harm if my daughter sees you naked?”
Rachna thought for a while. It was test, yes, and that she understood well. She thought for a while and then said,
“Okay! I will feed her. Now.”
“Come,” I said.
We then walked back upstairs and entered Latika’s room. Latika herself was Rachna’s age when we started to discover our sexuality. Rachna did not expect to see Latika there. She again got a bit nervous.
“Amar… Latika too is here.”
“So what? She too is a child. Come.” I asked her to climb in the bed.
No. Latika was not a child anymore. But she was, for me! Rachna did with great effort. At one point I felt as if I were exploiting her. But I needed to know whether she can love my girls.
Rachna lay beside Abha. She started to wake up feeling so much movement on her side of the bed.
“Shhhhh… don’t wake up honey… don’t wake up.” She said lightly patting her chest and then added, “Mummy ka dudhoo piyogi (Will you suckle mummy breast)?” she asked Abha with much sweetness.
“Mmm?”
“Mummy ka dudhoo piyogi (Will you suckle mummy breast)?” Rachna repeated.
“Mummy ka dudhoo?”
“Yes honey. It tastes sweet, I promise.” Rachna said mischievously, looking at me. I grinned.
“Hmmm.” Abha was slowly waking up. When you are younger, the sleeps come deep. As you grow older, they become shallower.
“In bottle?” she murmured her question.
“No honey… not in that bottle. I will feed you directly. This bottle is soft. You will love it… come honey… open your mouth…” Rachna cooed in Abha’s ear.
In her half-asleep state, Abha opened her mouth and Rachna guided one of her nipples in her mouth. It had already extended because of the excitement of this act, so Abha found it easy to latch on to.
“Now suckle… yes… like that.”
Abha suckled as she slowly woke up. Latika on the other hand woke up as well. She curiously looked at Rachna and wondered why a fully grown woman was suckling Abha naked. Rachna too knew her audience has grown since she entered this room. But still she tried to maintain a straight face and happily continued to breastfeed Abha.
“Rachna,” Latika too started, “may I also suckle?”
“Of course, honey… come… take the other one.”
It was a beautiful scene for me. although Rachna started with great hesitation, she was now in full motherhood mode. She would kiss both Abha and Latika, who were engrossed in suckling. The feeding went on till about fifteen minutes. Since there was no milk, Abha soon lost interest and fell asleep, but Latika continued.
Finally, Rachna had to say, “Honey, have you suckled enough?”
“Rachna, your breasts are so soft! And your nipples kind of melt in my mouth… I don’t want to stop.”
“Oh honey! It is so nice of you to say this… but I need to sleep.”
“Please sleep here?” Latika requested holding Rachna by her waist.
Rachna looked at me helplessly.
“Amar uncle can also sleep here.” Latika said as she moved making room for me.
“Ha ha! Okay. I am in a good mood. So, your wishes are granted!” Rachna said jovially.
So, the sleeping arrangement on the bed changed: Abha was at the far end, followed by Latika, then Rachna and at the other end, me.
While suckling Latika also touched Rachna on her various body parts and remarked how soft she was all over! When she was finally done with suckling, Latika was visibly pleased.
“Thank you so much, Rachna!”
“You are welcome honey. You are a beautiful girl yourself. I enjoyed feeding you.”
She next noticed her smooth, waxed vulva and got curious to know about it.
“Honey, it is called vulva. It is a wonderful thing. It lets a man’s penis slide inside and takes a little matter from him… and then gives him wonderful children like yourself!”
The way in which Rachna explained the process was very safe and respectful. I was amazed. Suddenly, most of her negative evaluations turned positive in my mind. Rachna was a good woman to have in my life.
Then she looked at me and said, “Her mother should have told her about this by now.”
She held my penis and told Latika, “Honey, and this is a man’s penis.”
“But why are you both naked?”
“Because Amar and I were making love… I just told you about a man sliding his penis inside a woman’s vulva? It is called making love.”
“So, you will give Amar uncle a child?”
“Well, I hope so!” Rachna smiled pleasantly. She looked at me expectantly.
I smiled. Oh, it would be wonderful! Is God that merciful to give me another chance at love?
“Wow! That is wonderful.”
“Honey, did your mother not tell you anything about this?”
“About what?” Latika was confused.
Rachna took a deep breath. It was going to be hard work. She had even taught her daughter, who was much younger than Latika.
“Latika, honey… do you trust me?”
“I guess, I do.”
“Okay then,” she said and slid her night shorts. Latika felt shy being naked in front of me, as she had never been naked in front of me… but I kept a nonchalant demeanor.
Soon, Latika was as naked as Rachna and I. I had not seen her naked in a very long time. It had been years. Latika has small breasts, but her body was shapely. She was into athletics, and her body was strong, lithe, and flexible. But because of high calorie consumption, she was still very slim! Her pussy was small and had a very soft tuft of hair there. Rachna then explained her for a long time about female body, making her own body and Latika’s body as props, females’ processes like menstruation and pregnancy, and about lovemaking and childbirth. Although, Latika knew many things, but the sex education was something new for her. Her education ended with Rachna telling her to take good care of her vulva and vagina.
Latika hugged Rachna. Not only she told her so many new things, but she also let her experience something new! And she was very grateful to Rachna for that.
“Rachna,” Latika hesitated.
“Yes honey?”
“May I suckle some more before you sleep?”
“Oh honey! Why not!” Saying that she let Latika lie in her lap and slipped her nipple in her mouth.
After about ten minutes of suckling Rachna said, “Honey I think it is enough for now. I know your uncle wants to suckle some as well… and also wants to make love to me. So, we must retire for the night. Alright honey? Sleep now.”
She said and kissed her forehead.
