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Update 73 Replies Of Ruhi 2
Mehboob aur mummy ne mujhko bahot sunaya uss raat ko…. Din mein aap se mili aur jitna khush thi utna hi royi uss raat ko mummy ke aane ke baad. Mehboob aur mummy ne milkar mujhko samjhaya ke mujhko ab aap se door rehna chahiye aur Amit ke saath shaadi karke chale jaana chahiye….
Ab aaguey….
Ruhi ne llikhna Jaari rakha….
“Abhi magar ek baat thi jo aap ko unn dinon bilkool samajh mein nahin aya tha, wo yeh ke Mehboob mujhko istemaal kar raha tha aap se apne bus ke kaam niklawaane ke liye.
Yaad hai jiss din aap aur Saeed mein ladaayi hui thi, to Mehboob ne hi mujhe aap ko ek taraf lejaane ko kaha tha aap ko shant karne ke liye? That day was our first kiss day. Main aap ko ghar ke piche wale kone mein legayi thi….. Ussi din ko jab aap ghar wapas chale gaye the to Mehbob aya tha hamare yahan aur maa ke samne uss ne mujhe aap se meethi meethi baat karne ko, aap ko apne pyar mein uljhaane ko kaha tha, maa se bhi ussne kaha mujhko aap ke karib jaane dene ke liye, maa bhi mili hui thi Mehboob ke saath aap ko baandhne rakhne ke liye meri muhabat mein, donon ko pata chal chuka tha ke aap ko mujh se pyar ho gaya hai, Saeed ne shayad mehbob se keh diya tha ke aap aksar absent rehte ho, Mondays ho kaam par nahin aate ho to Mehboob ne kaha tha ke usska kaam delay hoga agar aap absent rahe to, kyunke aap sabse fast kaam karte the, Saeed se bhi ziada kaam karte the aap, to Mehboob ko aap ki zaroorat thi to ussne mujhse help maanga tha ke main aap ko lubhaoon, ke aap se baat karun ke main aap ko rijhaun taake aap har roz kaam par aaye!......... Magar Abhi main weisa kuch karna nahin chaahti thi, buss aap se batein karti thi, aap ke karib aati thi aur jiss din pehli bar aap ne mujhse kaha tha ke aap ke jaane ke waqt main kitchen ke chaukath par rahun uss din ko main ne Mehboob se keh diya tha ke aap ne weisa kaha hai, to wo khush hua tha aur uss ne bhi mujhko wohi karne ko kaha, ussne kaha dekho wo jaate hue tumko mudh kar dekhega, aashik hai to khush kardo, yahan khade rehne se tumhara kia jaata hai….
Abhi aap ko lubhaate lubhaate main khud aap se pyar kar baithi thi, aap mein kuch tha jo yahan kissi mein nahin tha, main Mehboob ke liye aap ko nahin rokti thi, main aap ko apne khud ke liye rokne lagi thi, jiss raat ko aap ko rehne ke liye kaha tha wo meri apni marzi thi, wo main chahti thi halaan ke Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap hamare ghar ruke hue ho aur aap samajh rahe the ke ussko nahin pata tha, ussko aur Rahima donon ko pata tha ke aap uss raat ko hamare yahan ruke ho….
Aap ko yeh bhi nahin pata ke Manoj ghussa hua tha aap ke rukne se jab aap nahane chale gaye the… aur ussi waqt Mehboob ne Manoj ko samjhaya tha ke Aap ko kuch nah kahein yeh uss ke kehne se meri maa ne aap ko rukne ko kaha…. Assal mein main ne aap ko roka tha uss raat ko. Dusre din Mehboob aur manoj mein behez hui thi iss baat ko lekar, manoj Mehboob se oonchi awaaz mein baat kiya tha aur ussko kaha tha ke agar aap ko ghar par rokna hai to wo aap ko apne ghar men rokein hamare yahan nahin.
Abhi aap ne yeh likha hai apne diary mein
{“I am waiting for that day when Ruhi will be here on this bed together with me and I will make her read all this. She will then read and know what I was going through the days I worked in her yard. Those were the most beautiful days of my life which I will never forget. I met love, I met the one I was waiting for, I met my soul mate in that yard. And I am grateful to God and my job. If I was not doing this job I would never have gone there, would have never known her, would have never met her….”}
To answer this Abhi I have to say that I have been the most unfortunate person to have lost you and your true love. You loved me so dearly with all your heart, you longed for me, you wanted me, but my love was fake in the beginning, I was playing with you for the sake of Mehboob, I was retaining you, but when I started liking you and wanted to be with you it seemed to be late, still I did try but they were stronger than me; my mother and Mehboob, they were the ones pulling the string, I was a mere puppet! …. You met love, you met your soul mate you have written but I did not deserve your true love Abhi, because YOUR love was sincere and TRUE whereas mine was fake… that is why the God whom you thanked, did not allow that to happen because the God knew I was fake and did not deserve your love!
Mere papa:
Aap ne pucha tha uss din jab papa ka phone aya tha ke wo kaisa inssaan hai. Main ne aap ko bataya tha ke wo makhan hai…. Sach mein wo weisa hi hai… uss ghar mein papa patni hai aur maa pati hai…..
Mere papa ek aisa insaan hai jo bachpan se jhuka raha hai… bahut khamosh, usski awaaz tak thik se sunaayi nahin dete…. Meri dadi ne bataya tha mujhe ke papa to itna Sharmila tha ke shaadi bhi nahin karna chahta tha…. he was too shy a peron.
Baad mein dada dadi ne usski shaadi karwa diye to maa mil gayi ussko aur jald hi maa ko pata chal gaya ke wo kaisa insaan hai so she started dominating papa and she had always been the head of the family not papa… papa was always too cool, silent, never raised his voice and mummy took advantage of his silence to dominate him….. papa was a person who could never take a decision, so his wife always decided and she ruled over him all her life. He is a very nice person indeed, but too cool and silent for a woman like my mother. My mother should never have been his wife.
Abhi jab maa nani ke yahan se wo news lekar aayi ke Amit 4 mahine baad ane wala hai mujh se shaadi karke mujhe apne saath lejaane ke liye, to sach kahun to mujhe wo chaka chaund, foreign desh, France, Paris, plane se safar karna, amir desh mein rehna yeh sab of course bahot assar kiya tha mujh par… aap ke aane se pehle main ussi sapne mein jine lagi thi ke mujhe France jana hai, koyi Amit hai jo mujhe shaadi karke le jaega apne saath. Mujhe laga tha kudrat ne mere liye wohi decide kiya hai, issi liye mujhse wo ghalati hui thi teenage mein kyunke mujhe uss ghalati ko yahan chorr kar chale jana hai….
Shweta:
Aap se ek baat kahun….. jaise jaise Shweta badi hoti gayi mujhe uss se nafrat hone lagi….. main uss se door rehne lagi thi, iss liye ke usski vajah se mere future mein baadha padne lage the.. mujhe koyi proposal nahin aate the, mujhe kissi adher aadmi se shaadi karni padti sirf Shweta ki existence ki vajah se…. baby thi tab uss se lagao tha, jab wo 2 saal ki hui to main uss se bilkool door hone lagi… Shweta se main ne jaan bujh kar cut off kar liya tha, wo aati to thi magar ziada tar meri maa aur Manoj ya Mahesh ke saath rehti thi, bahot kum mere saath kyunke ussko pata chal chuka tha main ussko passand nahin karti….. Shweta ko mujhse koyi sneh ya pyar nahin mila tha kyunke main uss se nafrat jo karne lagi thi aur wo Shweta ko dikhne laga tha…. kabhi kabhi to wo school vacation mein 2 hafton ke liye rehne aati thi aur unn do hafton mein ek din bhi main ne ussko gale nahin lagaya… do hafton mein ek ya do din uss se baat kiye main ne…. sirf jab aap yahan the tab main uss ke saath thoda khelti thi taake aap ko koyi shak nah ho!! varna Shweta se mai hamesha door rahi…… usski ek vajah aur thi, ke main desh chorr kar door jaane wali thi to uss se bichadne par mujhe dukh nah ho iss liye bhi door rahi thi uss se….. shweta ko bachpan se pata tha ke main ussko passand nahin karti thi…. Yeh wo jaanti thi.
Aur jab Shweta 18 ki hui aur ussko pata chala ke ussko janam dene wali maa main hoon to ussne mujhe wo sab yaad dilaya ke main kiss tarah uss se door rehti aur uss se nafrat karti thi… Shweta ek alag hi bachi thi, ussko bachpan ke saare baat yaad hein aaj bhi… ussko aap bhi yaad ho bahot achi tarah, wo kewal unn dinon 6/7 ki thi magar ussko sab bilkool saaf yaad hai… Shweta ki brain ajeeb hai usski intelligence fast kaam karti hai ussko sab kuch yaad rehta hai…. Wo 3 saal ki thi to kia hua tha ussko saaf yaad hai aur bata deti hai… mere sheher wale chaha heyraan tha ek din ussne bataya tha ke shweta ko wo kissi ke ghar legaya tha kissi kaam se jab Shweta 3 saal ki thi, uss aadmi ke ghar mein ek jhumar tha aur ek wall clock jo bajta tha… Shweta jab 12 saal ki thi to ek din uss wall clock aur jhumar ke baare mein puch rahi thhi mere chacha se aur uss aadmi ka hulya bilkool clear describe kiya tha uss ne….. Shweta ko bachpan se adult wale feelings hote the, ussko sab kuch 100% pata chalta tha ke kia ho raha hai……
Pata hai aap ko? Jiss din aap mere chachi ke ghar mujhe dhundte hue aaye the to Shweta wahin thi nah… aap ke jaane ke baad Shweta mujhse naraaz hui thi aur mujhe gandi kaha tha uss ne… ek badi adult ki tarah danta tha mujhko Shweta ne. main dang reh gayi thi. Mujhse kaha tha ke aap kaisa insaan ho, Abhi aap se itna pyar karta hai aur aap yahan andar baithi rahi ussko yahan se chiilla kar jawaab nahin de sakti thi? Wo ro raha tha aap ke liye aur aap ko kuch nahin hua? Aap ke feelings hi nahin hai, stone hearted ho aap. Kaash Abhi mujhse se pyar karta aur main aap ki jagah hota to ussko kabhi nahin jaane deta uss se zaroor shaadi karti main…… ek 6/7 saal ki ladki aise baatein keh sakti hai? Mujhe jhatka laga tha Shweta ki baat se uss roz…..
Aur jab ussko pata chal gaya ke main usski maa hoon, mujhse yahan jhagadne aayi thi tab bhi aap ko mention kiya tha uss ne…. kaha tha ke bhagwaan ne mujhe issi liye sazaa diya kyunke main ne aap ka dil dukhaya tha…..wo sab jo hua tha usske bachpan mein sab yaad tha ussko 18 saal ki hui tab bhi… aap ko bahot passand karti hai usski baton se laga tha mujhe tab bhi keh gayi thi ke aap usse milo to wo aap se shaadi kar legi…. Main ne ussko bataya ke aap shadi shuda ho already to wo maan nahin rahi thi keh rahi thi ke main jhoot bol rahi hoon… aur mujhse kaha ke ussi din se wo aap se pyar karne lagi thi jiss din aap ko mere liye rote dekha tha usske yahan.. aap se sach mein bahot pyar karti hai…. Kyun nah ho aap ho hi pyar ke kaabil… usko aap ka pyar dikh gaya tha Abhi mujhe nahin dikha tha kitni andhi thi main?! January 1987 mein jab wo aayi thi hamare yahan New year ke mauke par to aap ko dhund rahi thi, jab usskko pata chala tha ke aap ab yahan kabhi nahin aoge kaam khatam ho gaya to bahot royi thi, mujhse puchne aayi thi ke ab kaise wo aap se mil paegi? Aap kidhar rehte ho ussko aap ke yahan lejaane ko kaha tha mujhe!!! Mujhe bhi rula diya tha ussne aap ki yaad dila kar…. Main uss se kehne wali thi ke aap 4/5 ya 7th ko aane wale the, magar shukar hai ke nahin kaha kyunke agar wo hoti aur usske saamne Manoj ne aap ko weise nikala hota to kia guzarti uss par?
Magar ussko baad mein sab pata chal hi gaya aakhir…. Kuch mahine baad wo mujhse bahot naraaz hui thi ke kyun main ne aap ko nahin roka tha jab manoj ne aap ko ghar se nikala tha. pata hai Shweta ne kia kaha tha Abhi? Ussne kaha tha ke agar wo Ruhi hoti to ghar se turant bhaag kar aap ke piche jaati aur iss ghar ko chorr kar hamesha ke liye aap ke sath chali jaati…. Uss umar mein Shweta ka wo kehna tha aap ke liye!!! Wo bahot hi intelligent thi. Ek adult wali brain thi usske paas bachpan se hi. Sach pucho to mere dil mein aap ke liye ziada pyar Shweta ne jagaayi thi Abhi…. Ek baat kahuna ap se? jab 18 ki hone ke baad Shweta aap ke liye ro kar mujhse keh rahi thi ke wo aap se shadi karegi to mere dimaagh mein yeh baat ayi tha ke agar aap ne shaadi nahin kiya hota to main aap ko Shweta se shadi karne ko kehti… aap sirf 15 saal uss se bade ho, handsome to ho hi wo 18 ki thi 20 ki hoti tab aap 35 ke hote to ziada farak dikhta hi nahin, kyunke wo aap ko itna chahti thi main ne aap ka Rishta Shweta se bhi soch liya tha….. main jo nahin kar paayi thi, jo kami main ne chorra tha aap ki life mein wo kami apni beti se puri karwati main aap ke liye….. aap bhi ussko bahot passand karte the nah Abhi? Hmmm? Mujhe yaad hai, aap ne kaha tha wo bilkool meri tarah dikhti thi aap ko, aur ek baat kahun? Wo sach mein meri tarah hi hai…. Magar mujhse hazaar guna ziada intelligent, honshiyaar hai, daring hai, aap ki aur usski khub banti… aap ko uss se zaroor milna chahiye, mujhe yakeen hai ke uss se milkar aap bahot khush honge aur wo to uchal padegi…
Main kia keh rahi thi aur kia kehne lagi….. shweta yaad agayi bich mein ….. haan to uss din ke baad mummy aur Mehboob ne ab mujhe aap se doorie rakhne ko kaha kyunke Amit ane wala tha…. issi liye uss din ke baad main aap se distance banaane lagi thi magar ussi din aap ko mujhe apna love letter bhi dena tha jiss ne mujhe pighla diya tha aur main kashmakash mein pad gayi thi ke ab main kia karun!!!
Jiss din shaam ko main Mahesh, Farzina aur ek cousin ke saath baith kar aap ko suna rahi thi ke aap kia samajhte ho ke main aap se shaadi karungi, wo sab aap ko discourage karne ke liye tha, aap ko khud se door karne ke liye tha, aap ke dil mein mere liye nafrat paida karne ke liye tha magar aap ka pyar mazbut tha aur aap mujhse phir bhi aur bhi ziada pyar karte gaye, aap ka pyar ghatta nahin badhta gayaa mere liye aur main bebuss lachaar ulajhti gayi ke kia karun….. Aap aur Amit mein se mujhe ek ko chunna tha main samajh nahin paa rahi thi ke kia karun…. Mummy aur Mehboob ka kehna tha ke aap mujhse nafrat karoge jab aap ko pata chalega ke main ek bachi ki maa hoon…. Tabhi main ne decide kiya ke aap ko ab batana hoga…. Magar sirf itna bata paayi ke I am not a virgin aur aap ne to keh hi diya ke chaahe main ek bachchi ki maa hoon tab bhi aap mujhse shaadi karne ke liye tayaar ho….
Wo kehne se pehle main ne maa aur Mehboob se shart lagaayi thi ke aap mujhse phir bhi nafrat nahin karoge, aur uss roz maa ke saamne jab khidki ke paas aap rone ke karib the aur main aap se ziada rone lagi thi, aur aap ne mummy se piche ka darwaza kholne ko kaha tha, to main ne khola tha…. kia aap ko yaad hai uss roz uss se pehle Mehboob aur Rahima ne aap se kia kaha tha?
Rahima ne kaha tha ke aap hamare yahan rehne wale ho aur Mehboob ne kaha tha ke achchi baat hai subha ko jaldi kaam shuru kar doge? Yaad hai Abhi? Ussi din; din mein meri shart lagi thi mummy aur Mehboob se ke aap mujhse nafrat nahin karoge sab jaanne ke baad bhi…. Aur issi liye Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap se mujhe wo sab kehna hai shart ke anusaar mujhe pata lagana hai ke agar aap ko mere baare mein pata chala to aap kia karoge….
Aur uss raat ko main ne aap ko apne ghar roka tha yeh jaane ke baad ke aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karoge chahe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hui…. Mujhe wo kehne ki zaroorat hi nahin padi, aap ne wo keh bhi diya phir bhi main ne aap se stupidly pucha tha ke what if I am not a virgin…. Mujhe yehi kehna tha kyunke main ne wohi puchne ko plan kiya tha….. uss din aap ne mera dil jeet liya tha aur main shart bhi jeet gayi thi…. Mummy tabhi disappoint ho gayi thi issi liye aap ko ghar par rehne diya tha…. jab aap nahane gaye the to meri uss se baat hui thi Manoj se baat hone ke baad. Main ne mummy se kaha tha ke main shart jeet gayi aur Abhi mujhse phir bhi shaadi karne ke liye tayyaar hai chahhe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hoon tab bhi suna aap ne!..... uss raat ko to mummy ne kuch nahin kaha tha uss raat wo aap ke favour mein thi magar dusre din Mehboob aur ussne phir baat kiye the aur weh donon Amit ke favour mein the.
Abhi uss raat ko main aap se humbistar hona chahti thi…. Pata hai kyun? Iss liye ke aap uss din mujhse wo karna chahte the jiss din lunch karne aaye the tab main ne aap ko mana kiya tha iss liye uss raat ko aap ko compensate karna chahti thi….. jab aap ne mujhe baahon mein bharke kiss kiya tha to meri rooh kaamp gayi thi….. main ne teenage mein jo sex kiya tha tab kuch sexual feeling kuch bhi nahin hua tha, magar uss raat aap ke saath real sexual feeling kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, arousal kia hota hai, envy aur desire kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, usski gehraayi se ehsaas hui thi aur usski zaroorat bhi feel hui thi… aap ne itni badi baat keh diye the ke aap ko apna tan, mann sab dene ka mann kar raha tha mujhe, uss raat ko real love aur sexual pleasure feel karne ko man kar raha tha mera, aap ko chorrne ko bilkool mann nahin kar raha tha, mann kar raha tha ke raat bhar aap mere saath sote. Mere baahon mein rehte raat bhar…. Magar uss raat ko aap ajeeb the, uss raat ko aap wo nahin chahte the jo main chaahti thi….. Abhi agar uss raat ko aap ne mere saath sex kar liya hota to main ussi raat ko decide kar liya tha kabhi bhi Amit ko accept nahin karti, main uss raat ko tan aur mann se aap ki ho jaati….
Magar dusre din ko sab gadbad hone laga tha Abhi…. Main to aap ke liye rehna chahti thi magar mummy aur Mehboob bilkool nahin chahte the… weh donon mujhse tab kehne lage the ke aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karenge ke bachi wali ladki ke saath apne bete ki shaadi karaayen…. Aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karte ye sab keh keh kar unn donon ne mere dimaagh chaat liye the ke main bhi tang aagayi thi aur Amit ko priority dene lagi aur aap se dobara doorie rakhne lagi thi….
Issi liye aap ko mere response controversial lage honge ke main ne aap se ek baar kaha tha ke haan Amit hai phir kaha tha ke sab jhoot hai, meri virginity ki vajah se main jhoot bol rahi thi aur phir wapas kaha tha ke haan Amit hai…..
Aur phir mera jana hua ta Nani ke ghar…. Dar assal, nani, maasi aur mama logon ne uss roz mummy se kaha tha mujhe lekar wahan aane ke liye. Aur Abhi jab main wahan gayi thi to mera itna brainwashing kiya gaya tha ke kia bataun… uff…. Mujhe almost paagal bana diya tha sab ne wahan…. Amit ki itni taarif karte the sab ke jaise wo koyi raja maharajah hai… usski sister aur mother ko bulaya gaya tha mujhse milne ke liye, mujhko hausla dilaane ke liye ke Amit mere lite perfect choice hai…. Mujhko Amit ki photis dikhaaye gaye the, France mein Eifel tower ke paas ke usski tasveerein aur Paris mein pata nahin kiss kiss jagah mein usski li hui pics dikhaaye gaye the…. Mujhko jaise force kiya jaa raha tha ke main ussi ko chose karun aap ko nahin…. Waha sabko pata chal chuka tha ke aap mujhko chahte ho aur main duvidha mein hoon ke Amit ko select karun ya aap ko…..
Aur Nani aur mama ne mujhse aur mummy se kayi baar kaha ke wahan par jitney bhi log wo kaam karte hein jo aap karte ho most of the time sab ke sab bekaar rehte hein, unn ke paas kaam nahin hota, to sab kehte ke aap bhi weisa hi rahoge shaadi ke baad aur mera bura haal hoga aap ke saath.. mere 3 mama hein wahan aur 2 maasi… sabke sab mujhe convince kiye ke aap ko drop karun, aap se pyar nah karun aur Amit ko select karun….
Abhi sab bade the, mere apne the, main kia karti? Badon ko sunna padta hai nah…. main nahin kehti ke main ne argue nahin kiya, bahot argue kiya sabse kaha ke aap mujhse tab bhi shaadi karne ko tayyar ho halaan ke meri ek beti hai, aap mujhse sach mein pyar karte ho main khud gawah hoon yeh sab kaha main ne unn sabse…. Maa ne bhi kaha sab se ke aap dhit ho aap mujhko pagalon ki tarah pyar karte ho…. mummy kabhi kabhi aap ka side le rahi thi keh rahi thi ke kaise bhi ho aap to saamne ho, aap dikh rahe ho aur saaf dikhta hai ke aap kitna pyar karte ho mujhse… magar mama logon ne mummy ko danta yeh kehte hue ke apni khud ki beti ko kunwe mein dhakelna chahti ho?
Mujhko wahan se convince karke bheja gaya tha ke main aap se door ho jaun…. Issi liye nani ke ghar se wapas ane ke baad main aap se aur bhi door ho gayi thi….. magar jis din aayi thi ussi din aap ko main ne pehli baar I LOVE YOU kaha tha….wo sirf iss liye ke mujhe pata tha ab wo aap ko kabhi nahin keh paungi, kyunke mujhko to Amit ke saath jana hoga iss liye socha ek baar to keh doon…..
Phir usske baad har roz aap se thoda thoda door hoti gayi mai aap ko ghar ke andar se chhup chhup kar dekhti thi, bahot dukh hota tha aap ki haalat dekh kar, magar aap seeti bajaate, mujhe bulaate, main andar roti dil pat patthar rakh kar roti, kabhi aa bhi jaati thi, magar mummy dantti, Mehboob mujhko mote mote aankhon se dekhti, wapaas andar jaane ko ishara karta wo…. Main ghut ghut ke rehti thi ghar ke andar…..
To be continued immediately in the next post
mere paas koyi shabd nahin
NISHABD HOON