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Jindgi bhi ajeeb hoti hai Meri kismat to dekho Apni ammi se baat karne ke liye mujhe itna sochna pad raha tha sach kahu to mujhe darr lag raha tha ke kahin mere phone karte hi ammi ne dant diya kuch ulta sidha kah diya to kiya hoga kahin aisa na ho ke baat or bigad jaye aksar mann karta hai ki kisi anjaan number se phone karke unki awaaj sunu.....? Lekin aisa karne ke liye bhi meri himmat nahi hoti thi...... maine faisla kar liya mai ammi ko kabhi call nahi karounga aur akele jine ki kosis karounga .. lagbhag 1saal tak ammi se mera aamna samna nahi hua uss hadse ko bhi jayda wakt nahi hua per aisa lagta tha ki jaise sadiya gujar gayi ho aakhirkar vo time aa hi gaya jiska samna karne se mai katra raha tha sayyad isliye jindgi ko hadson se gujanrne ka naam diya gaya hai magar meri jindgi me hi itne hadse kiyo hote hai
Ek din achanak abbu ka call ayaa unki awaaj me ghabrahat thi
Kiya baat hai abbu aap presaan lag rahe hai
Ha beta bahut presaan hu tum jaldi se ghar aa jaon thumhari ammi hospital me admit hai
maine ghabrte hue unse poucha kiya hua ammi ko...?
2 din pahle gardan me podhon ko pani dete wakt unka pair fisal gaya aur unke sir me chott lag gayi hai.... Abbu ne kaha
Itna sab kuch ho gaya aur aap mujhe abb bata rahe hai ”mai bola
Kaise batata beta thumhari ammi ko hospital le jate wait mera mobile kahin gir gaya tha ..thumhara number usi me feed tha....?” abbu bole
Abbu aap ghabraye nahi mai abhi gaon k liye nikal raha hu kahkar maine call cutt kar di
Fir suitkes me apna samaan rakha fir jaldi se bus stop per pahuch gaya gaon tak mera safar lagbhag 4 ghante ka tha buss me jayda bheed nahi thi mai piche ki seet per beth gaya kuch hi dair me buss chal di....bus me sabhi yatri so gaye bass ek meri hi ankhon se nend koso door thi abbu ke phone ne mann me ajeeb si halchal macha di thi Ammi ko laikar jitni ghabrahat mere man me ho rahi thi vo to me hi janta tha ....khair jaisa maine kaha tha 4 ghante baad gaon ke bus stop per pahuch gaya gaya Fir waha se mai sidha hospital pahucha jaha abbu pahle se mojud they abbu ne ammi ke kamre ki or ishare karte hue kaha
" beta is aur ...'
"Theek hai "
Kahkar mai Abbu ke sath ammi ke kamre ki aur badha itne barson baad ammi se milne ki chah me mere kadam badi teji se ammi ke kamre ki taraf chale ja rahe they ander ammi bister prr behosh padi thi unhe dekhakar mere ansoon ka bandh toota or me unse lipatkar rota raha abbu mujhe bar bar sambhalte hua tasalli de rahe they Per mai apna muh dono hatheliyo me bhar kar aisa toota ki chati peet peet kar rota raha
Beta kuch nahi hoga teri ammi ko Itna dukhi mat ho allaha hamri jaroor sunega
Badi muskil se abbu ne mujhe sambhala ammi ankhe band kar laiti hui thi mere aahat se bhi unki ankhe nahi khuli maine ammi ke mathe per hath rakh kar sahlayaa fir matha ko choomta hua unke baraber beth gaya ammi ka masoom chahra mujhe usi tarha najar aaya jaise 1 saal pahle tha majboor or lachaar Jabki abbu kitne budhe dikh Rahe they raat ko maine abbu ko jabardasti ghar bhej diya aur akela hospital me raha ammi ko hospital me admit hue 3 din ho chukey they per unke sir ki chott itni gahri thi ki woh 5 din tak hospital me behosh padi rahi..
5 din tak mai hi unke sath hospital me raha har roj mai hath uth kar allah miya se ammi ke theek hone ke liye duaa maangta raha 6 din baad ammi ko hosh aaya lekin hosh me aate hi ammi cheek padi " koi hai ? Ye mujhe kiya ho gaya ?.. mujhe kuch bhi dikhayi nehi de raha hai ....mujhe kuch bhi dikhai nahi de raha ......" ye sunkar Abbu aur mai ghabra uthe ek doctor bhi hamare pass khda tha usne turant aye speclist ko bulwaya abbu ammi ko tasalli de rahe they eye specialist badi dair tak ammi ki ankhon ka test karta raha Fir chupchap sir jhuka kar khda ho gaya
Kiya baat hai doctor ? Kiya ho gaya meri ammi ki ankhon ko ?" Sab theek to hai na koi chinta ki baat to nahi hai na
doctor ne mere kandhe per hath rakha or kaha Dekhko tumhe himmat se kaam lena hoga Sir ke ander chot lagne se ankhon ki roshni hamesha hamesha ke liye chali gayi hai iska abb koi ilaaz nahi hai haa agar koi apni ankhen daan kare to ye Fir se dekh sakti hai itna kahkar doctor nikal gaya
yeh sunkar mere to paro tale jameen khisak gayi ..ankhon se ansoo bahane lage nikal gaya
"nahi nahi ... Aisa nahi ho sakta mai andhi lachaar hoakr kaise jioungi doctor.....doctor aap kaha ho ? mai aise jindgi nahi jena chahti aap meri ankhon ki roshni wapas la nahi sakte to koi aise dawa de dijiye jisse me mar jaon ..me kisi per bojh ban kar nahi jena chahti ."Ammi fafakkk -fafakkk kar ro padi
Kaise baat karti ho ammi ? tu hum per bojh hai ? Are tu to hum sab ki ankhon ki roshni hai abbu aur mai tunhara ilaaz bade se bade doctoro se karenge dekh na tumhari ankhe theek ho jayegi ammi ke sir per hath pherte hue mai usse taslii dene laga are agar tu aise batein karegi to hum per kiya betige kabhi socha hai khaberdar kabhi tune apne muh se aise baat nikali to aise kahte hue abbu ki ankhon se ankhon ki dhra foot padi aur sidhe ammi k mathe per gir padi main abbu ke kandhe per hath rakh kar unhe tasalli di aur pine ke liye pani Are aap ro rahe hai ? muje andhi ke liye ro rahe hai abb meri jindgi me bacha hi kiya hai ?"
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"Chup raho tum aisa mat kaho thumhai ye halat dekh meri jaan nikalne ko ho rahi hai ya allaha meri jindgi le le lekin meri begam ki ankhe theek kar de agar meri ibadat sachhi hai to....itna kahte hi achaank abbu jameen per gir pade unka rang neela pad gaya aur saans bahut takleef se aa rahi thi maine jor se chilla kar doctor ko awaaj lagyi to doctor aur unki teem bhaag kar aaye unhine abbu ka chakup kiya to pata chala ki abbu ko heart attack aaya tha doctor ne unhe turant intensive care unit me pahuchaya lekin koi fayda nahi hua aakhri samaye per unhe 1 minute ka hosh aaya aur unhone kaha "doctor-doctor apne kaha tha agar koi apni annkhe daan kare to meri begam ko roshni mil sakti hai .. doctor mai apni ankhen apni begam ko deta hu meri begam ko....." Iske aage ki baat adhuri chdoh kar abbu ne ankhen band kar li ... doctor ne aage badhkar unka jisam ek safed chader se dhak diya thodi dair me log ikattha hona suru ho gaye abbu ki achanak mout se mai andar se toot jata hu bahahr nikalkar mai rijwaan ko phone karta hu aur unhe sari baat batata hua rone lagta hu vo mujhe tasalli dete hue bole asif himmat se kaam lo sab theek ho jayga mai bass abhi hospital aa raha hu Rijwaan se baat hone ke baad maine kuch ristedaron ko phone karke hospital aane ko kah diya ....aaj ka din meri jindagi ka sabse jayda manhoos din tha aaj pata laga agar koi apna sath chodhh kar chala jaye to kaise mahsus hota hai kuch dair baad rijwaan or kuch ristedar hospital me aa gaye ..rijwaan ke aate hi mai sidhe unke gale lag gaya or fafak fafak kar rone laga to rijwaan muje samjhate hue bola asif bhagya ke likhe ko koi badal nahi sakta iss wakt thumhari ammi ko Sabse jayda jarurat thumhari hai ye samay tootne ka nahi hai hai Sab kuch allah miya per chodh do abb sab kuch tumhe hi sambhalna hai agar tum toote to thumahri ammi ka kiya hoga abb tum keval unki khusi ke bare me socho unhe khush rakho or khud bhi himmat rakho
Thodi dair baad rijwaan or ristedaron ne abbu ki ankhen ammi ko dene k baat kahi kiyoki ya mere abbu ki aakhri ichha thi...
lagbhag 1 ghante ke opretion ke baad abbu ki ankhe nikaal kar ammi ko laga di gayi ...iss bich maine hospital ki sabhi kaagji karywahi poori ki aur dawa wagera khareed kar kamre ki taraf chal pada jaise hi maine kamre me dakhil hua ammi palang per uthkar bethne ki kosis kar rahi thi
“are ,are ye kiya kar rahi ho ammi ? Abhi aap kamjor ho kahte hue maine ammi ko takiye ke sahare bitha diya ammi taktaki bandhe meri taraf dekh rahi thi lekin ankhon per pattiya bandhe hone ke karan vo sirf meri awaaj hi sun pa rahi thi woh boli asif Mera yaha bilkul bhi mann nahi lag raha hai beta mujhe yaha se le jaldi le chalo”
“ mann to Mera bhi yaha bilkul mann nahi lag raha hai ammi per abhi doctor ne kuch din aur yahan rakhne ko bola hai
Par yahan reh kar mein bimar pad jaungi”..?? Ammi boli
Aap presaan mat ho ammi mai bhi to aapke sath yahi ruka hu kuch din ki baat or hai iske baad hum ghar chale jayenge maine ammi ko samjhate hue kaha jisse ammi chup ho jaati hai
Kareeb 15 din tak ammi ki ankhon per patti bandhi rahi iss bich hum dono maa beta ko hospital me hi rahna pada 16 din baad mai ammi ko ghar le aaya ammi Fir se sab kuch dekhne lag gayi lekin iss hadse k baad unki duniya hi badal gayi abb vo pahle ki tarha nahi rah gayi thi pahle vo roj subha 5 baje uth kar namaaz aur quraan padhti Fir poore ghar ki safai karti fir bagiche me paid podhon ko pani deti aur Fir jaise hi 7 bajte chaye nasta tayyer kar deti ....Fir sara din sir jhukaya bade adab se ghar ka kaamo me mashroof ho jaati aur raat hote hi so jaati Fir agle din se wahi sab kuch lekin abb sab kuch badal chuka tha vo dinbhar apne kamre me hi rahti akeli aur udas abbu ki mout ka sabse jayda dukh usse hi tha Ammi ko lagta tha ki usi ki wajha se abbu ko herat attack hua tha woh jab kabhi akeli hoti to uski ankhon se ansoon tap tap girne lagte mai apni taraf se usse khush rakhne ki poori kosis karta lekin Fir bhi ammi udash hi rahti na kisi se baat karna na kisi baat per hasna halaki vo mujhse jayda baat nahi karti thi ghanto ghanto tak soti rahti hai bass kaam karne ke liye bahar nikalti...
... Lekin ateet ne Fir se Apne aap ko dohraya....!
Ek din raat ke kareeb 1:30 baj rahe they raat ka samye tha aur main kambal me dubka phone dekh raha tha bettry kam hone ke karan mere mobile bhi switch off ho gaya tha aur meri ankh bhi lag rahi thi to maine apna mobile ko band kar diya or lait gaya Tabhi ammi ki cheekh mujhe sunai di maine jaldi se laalten jalayi or ammi ko dhundhne laga
sab jagah dhundha per ammi nahi mili tabhi mujhe chat ka gate khule dikhe mai turant uper gaya to meri njaar ammi per padi jo chat per behosh hokar giri padi thi mai turant unko utha kar niche le aaya jab unko hosh aaya to ammi zor zor se chikhne chillane lagi or kahne lagi Asif ....asif mujhe jane do mujhe vo chat per bula rahe hai maine kisi tarha ammi ko pakda lekin vo rookne ka naam le rahi thi maine ammi ko kisi tarha sambhla or pani pilaya Fir unse poucha k aap chat per kiyo gayi thi ...? Unhone kaha k jab woh apne kamre me so rahi thi tabhi usko ahsaas hua jaise koi uske balon ko sahla raha hai meri aankh khuli lekin waha koi nahi tha per tabhi mujhe khidki k bahar ek parchai si dikahi di me uth kar waha gayi to dekha woh parichay chat ki or ja rahi thi me bhi usi parchayi k piche chal di chat per jakar dekha to waha koi nahi tha me lotne lagi mujhe laga mera waham hoga per tabhi mujhe kisi ki rone ki awaaj sunaai di maine palat kar dekha to kaale kapde pahne ek insaan ro raha tha mere pair jam gaye mai bhagna chah rahi thi lekin bhaag na saki cheekhna chah rahi thi lekin gale se awaaj nahi nikli
woh aadmi ro raha tha or mera naam laikar mujhe apne sath chalne ko kah raha tha yeh sunkar mera dil dhak dhak karne laga kiyoki woh awaaj tere abba ki thi
Ammi abbu kaha se aaynge unko dafnna diya gaya hai aapko jaroor galatfahmi hui hai aap abhi so jaon iske bare me subha baat karte hai
Ammi : nahi beta vo yahi they aur mujhe apne pass bula rahe they
Kisi taraha maine ammi ko shant kiya Fir unko
Maine nend ki dawa di jo doctor ne emergency me dene ke liye kaha tha ammi ko goli khila kar unhe bister per laite diya
Abb mujhe samjh aa gaya ki ammi ko doctor wali bimari nahi hai inko kisi molvie k pass le jana hoga agli subha aaspados ke logon ne kaha ki pass me hi ek majaar hai jaha per in cheezon ke liye jhaad foonk hoti hai mai turant ammi ko lekar majaar ki taraf nikal pada jab majaar per pahuche to molvie ne jhaad foonk ki aur ek tabeej bana diya
suru suru mai to ammi ko kuch achha nahi laga per dhire dhire woh khush rahne lagi itne dino baad ammi ke chahre per muskurahat dekhne ko mili to maine allah miya ka dil se sukriya kiya ...
Mai khush tha ki meri ammi apni purani yadon ko bhula kar naye sire se jine ki kosis kar rahi thi kisi ne sahi kaha hai samay bade se bade ghav ko bhar deta abb abbu nahi rahe isliye din raat ammi ki seva me laga rahta kiyoki abb se mujhe hi unka khyaal rakhna padega
Jaroor uperwale ne mujhe apni galtiyaan sudharne ka ye moka diya tha ammi ko mamoli sirdard ya bukhar hota to mai sara kaam dhaam chodh kar raat din uske sirhane betha rahta ..... ek din me ammi ke piche pad gaya ki unko bachhon ko quraan padhana chahiye jisse uska mann lag jaye
lekin nayi jimmedari aur bachcho ko padhana sath sath kis tarha ho sakti thi is baat se vo preshaan thi lekin mere baar - baar samjhane per usne ghar per hi bachhon ko quraan padhana suru kar diya
dhire dhire sab kuch theek ho gaya or mai wapis kasmir chala gaya ammi or mere bich sabhi gile sikwe lagbhag khatm ho chuke they Pichli galtiyon se sabak lete hue mai thoda sambhal kar ammi se baat karta tha kiyoki ammi ne badi muskil se purani baaton ko bhulakar dobara mujhe per vishvash kiya tha jab tak mai kasmir me raha unse din raat phone par baat kar unka halchal pouchta raha eid ki chuttiyon hui aur me wapas ghar aa gaya
Agle din ammi ne mujhe uthaya to maine dekha ammi burkha pahan kar khadi thi usne chahre se nakaab hatya or kaha
" Beta suno mai bajaar tak ja rahi hu jab tak mai nahi aa jati tum apna khyaal rakhna
" Theek hai ammi aap jaon
"Ammi chahre per nakaab gira kar bajaar chali gayi idher maine hath muh dhoye fir chaya nasta se farig hokar mai kamre mai idher udhar tahalta time pass karne laga balki ye kahiye ammi ke aane ka intezar karne laga Tabhi mujhe zoro se pesaab laga to mai gusalkhne ki taraf chal diya maine darwaja khicha aur ander ghush gaya pesaab karte hue meri najar darwaje k piche kapde tangne k hook per gayi jaha ammi k kuch gande kapde tange they pesaab karke maine sabun se hath dhoye phir hath saaf karne k liye hook se toliya khicha to uske niche tangi ammi ki chaddi niche gir padi Red colour ki chaddi jispe chote chote dil bane hue they chaddi ki ghisawat aur halaat dekhne se lag raha tha usko 10 din bina badle lagataar pahna gaya hai maine chaddi uthai aur wapis khunti per taang di tabhi meri Najar chaddi per bane kisi daag per gyi mera chonk utha
‘‘yeh daag to…’
Maine chaddi ka inch - inch mouayna kiya poori chaddi per safed daag lage hue they mano jaise kisi ka virya laga ho ..?
Mai chaddi k pass apni naak le gaya uss ki gandh naak main ghushte hi mere dimaag mai ek alag sansani hui
Ya allaha .... mai hadbada utha mere liye yeh sab dil dahlane wala jaise tha Mera mann khatta hone laga aur sochne laga ki yeh sab kisne kya hoga kahine aisa to nahi meri gair mojudgi me ammi k pass koi .....…?
Nahi nahi aise hi apni pyari ammi per sak karna sahi nahi hai pahle pata kar liya jaye k yeh daag hai kis cheez ka maine chaddi ko apni jeb mai daala aur wapis kamre mai aa gaya aur apna mobile dekhne laga Thodi dair baad ammi bhi ghar aa gayi aur mujh se kahne lagi Beta woh sakina bano [ hamri padosi ]....jidd karke apne ghar le gayi kab se aane ko kah rahi thi per voh aane hi nahi de rahi thi...iss liye thodi dair ho gayi
" Koi baat nahi, ammi ’’ kah kar mai phone dekhne laga woh din jaise taise nikal gaya
Agle din subha nasta kar apne dost Rijwaan ki pathology lab chala gaya maine usko sari baat batayi bass ye nahi bataya k ye chaddi ammi ki hai ,maine usse jhut bola ki chaddi meri gf ki hai ....meri saanse ghabrahat k mare tej hoti ja rahi thi mujhe ghabrata dekh Rijwaan bola chinta mat karr mere bhai mai chake karta hu maine Rijwaan ko chaddi de di
" Shaam ko aana bata dunga ki daag kis cheez ka hai.....Rijwaan ne kaha.
maine rajamandi mai sir hilaya aur waha se nikal gaya ? Lekin ghar nahi gaya bhukha pyasha mai shaam hone ka intezar karne laga
Shaam ko Mai dhadkate dil se mai Rijwaan k pass pahucha .
‘‘kiya report aayi ?’’
Rijwaan ne ammi ki chaddi mere hath mein dete hue kaha" yaar daag to wahi hai jo tu soch raha hai laikin Koi baat nahi aaj kal to yeh sab chalta rahta hai ,
Mai jas ka tas khda rah gaya Rijwaan mujhe samjhane k liye na jane kiya kiya bol raha tha khud per kisi tarha kaboo pakar main waha se nikal aaya lekin aaj ka din sach mai meri jindgi ka sabse khatarnak din tha ghar pahucha to ammi darwaje per khadi mili pahle to voh kafi preshan thi laikin mere ghar pahuchte hi uski jaan mai jaan aa gayi kaha gaayab they dinbhar ....? ammi preshan hote hue boli.
‘‘kuch kaam tha ,’’ kahta hua mai sir pakad kar palang per beth gaya.
‘‘tabiyat to theek hai thumhari ?’’ mere pass beth kar kandhe per hath rakhte hue ammi boli .
‘‘sir mai bahut tej derd ho raha hai.’’mai mathe per ungliya ferta hua bola
‘‘ mai chaye bana kar laati hu ,’’ kahte hue ammi rasoi ghar chali gayi aur mai bistar per ludak gaya jeb se unki chaddi nikaali aur dekhne laga sath hi gahri chinta mai doob gaya tabhi ammi k kadmo ki aahat se samjh gaya ki ammi pass hi hai maine jaldi se unn ki chaddi ko gadde k niche daba diya ammi kamre mai aayi aur chaye table per rakh kar chali gayi chaye pikar mai bistar per wapis lait gaya thodi dair baad ammi kamre mai khana laikar aayi mujhe preshan hota dekh kahne lagi
‘‘asif jayda dikkat hai to chalo doctor k pass le chalti hu beta ’’
‘‘nahi mai theek hu ammi kah kar mai khana khane laga theek hai apna khyaal rakha karo kah karr vo nikal gayi...thodi dair baad Fir ammi ek tray mai pani aur sir derd ki goli le aayi maine tablet khayi aur chader odh kar lait gaya tabhi ammi phir boli asif agar sir derd kar raha hai to daba du beta thoda araam mil jayga ammi ne bade pyer se bola
Nahi nahi uski jarurat nahi hai ?
" Theek hai jaisa tum kaho " ammi boli
Agar kisi cheez ki jarurat ho to bejhijhak kah dena mujhe ...ammi boli
" Theek hai ammi ...?
Ammi room se nikal gayi
Sirderd to tha magar asli wajha thi sak ka keeda jo dimaag mai kulbula raha tha Aaj mera bilkul bhi mann nahi lag raha tha sirderd ki wajha se dimaag ki nase fati ja rahi thi iss hadse se mujhe buri tarha todkar rakh diya sak ka keeda jab dilo dimaag ko aise jakad laita hai ki insaan sak aur sirf sak k mayajaal mai ulajh jaata hai aisa hi kuch mere sath ho raha tha abb ankhon dekha kaise jhutlaya ja sakta hai dil bar bar kah raha tha woh teri ammi hai tujhse badi hai uska duniya mai tere siwa koi aur nahi hai magar ankhon k samne bar bar wahi tasveer aa jati to mere tan badan mai aag lag jaati abb mai kiya karu kuch samjh nahi aa raha tha mai apna chahra hatheliyon mai laikar bahut roya itna roya k mera takiya tak gela ho gaya jab ansoo bah gaye to mai uperwale se duaa karne laga ki meri yeh raat araam se kat jaye isliye maine nend ki ek goli kha li taaki nend aa jaye per nend ki goli bhi kam taakat wali nikali Mujhe rah rah kar ammi per gussa aa raha tha ki mere abbu unhe kitna pyar karte they jab hospital me woh andhi hui to bechare ne apni jaan dekar apni ankhe ammi ko de di warna aaj ke jamane mai aisa pyar karne wala bache hi kaha hai ..... Woh to bechare allaha ko pyare ho gaye per ammi kaise behaya ki tarha apna jisam kisi aur ko........... ? aisa lagne laga jaise meri duniya hi ujad gayi aur raat kaatna muskil ho raha tha samjh nahi aaya ki mujhe ye kiya ho gaya hai ? maine khud ko sambhala aur uth kar thoda pani piya phir bhi nend nahi aayi raat bhar ye silsila chalta raha aur raat bhar aapne me bass ammi ki chaddi dikhai deti rahi .........?
Agli subha
Beta chaye pi lo,’’ darwaje per jhulte resmi parde ko ek kinare sarkate hue ammi boli
mujhe laga ammi chaye rakh kar chali jaygi per thodi dair baad ahasah hua k woh wahi khadi rahi maine najrein utha kar un ki taraf dekha to hamesha ke tarha chahre per muskurahat liye meri taraf hi dekh rahi thi
Abb tabiyat kaise hai tablet se rahat mili k nahi .... ammi boli
Mai theek hu ammi bas thoda chakkar sa aa raha hai mai sir pakadta hua bola
tum nasta kar lo kayi baar kahli pet rahne se bhi chakkar aa jate hai
Mera mann nahi hai ammi ....
aise kaise mann nahi hai mai apne hath se khila deti hu ammi ne pyar se kaha
plzz ammi rahne do mai minnat karne laga
ammi ne mujhe daant te hue kaha chup raho tum woh uthi aur apne hathon se mujhe nasta karane lagi
achha theek hai rahne do mai khud kar lunga ..mai bola
Achha theek hai jaise thumhari marzi ..? Per itne bujhe bujhe kiyo lag rahe ho raat ko theek se soye nahi jo aankhe suja rakhi hai
Nahi ammi aise to koi baat nahi hai
Bass thoda sirderd kar raha tha is liye theek se so nahi paya chaye khtam hote hi ammi bahar chali gayi Jaise taise din to gujar gaya per hamesa hasne hasaane wala mai khud gumsum rahne laga kiya karu ,kaha jaon kuch samjh nahi aata Aisa lagne laga jaise meri duniya hi ujad gayi ho din kab beet jaata pata hi nahi chalta aaj mere pass sab sukh they govt job achha bank balance apna ghar magar phir bhi sukoon nahi mil raha tha ammi ka sach jankar mera mann toota hua tha dhire dhire ammi ko bhi pata chal gaya ke uska beta kisi baat se preshan hai Ek baar ko to mann hua k chaddi k bare mai ammi se direct pouch leta hu phir socha k ammi se aise baat karna galat hoga ..
mere dil aur dimaag mai yudh chal raha tha koi bhi decision laina bada muskil ho raha tha 2-3 din tak mai isi soch mai dooba raha lekin yah sab kuch mere dimaag se nikal hi nahi raha tha mai har pal pareshan rahne laga aur kayi baar ammi ne mujh se iski wajha pouchi bhi magar maine unhe kuch nahi batayaa....ek raat main bimar ho gya mujhe fever hua tha main pure din room se nahi nikla to shaam ko ammi mere room me aayi aur boli kiya hua tujhe subha se room mein pada hai maine kaha ammi kuch nhi bas thoda sa fever hai usne turant mera hath pakad ke dekha aur boli tujhe to sach mein bahut tej bukhar hai jaldi hospital chal mere sath, maine kaha ammi koi ni main thik hu par wo jabardasti karne lagi maine usse jhuth bolte hua kaha k ammi plzz rahne do Achha theek hai tum bed per lait jaon mein bam laga deti hu ..mai na na karta raha per ammi ne mujhe jabardasti bed pe lita ke boli tu let aur ye bata tune kuch khaya ya aise hi pada hai maine kaha ki bas subha chai ke sath dawai li thi yeh sunkar ammi gussa si ho gyi aur boli laparwah kahin ka Baith main tere liye khana laati hu Maine mana kar diya ki abhi man nhi hai jab man hoga main mang lunga Wo mere paas baith gyi to main leta tha wo mere sirhane baithi thi mere sar pe hath fer rhi thi Mera matha garm tha to use chuke boli tujhe kaisa lag ra hai maine bola ki sar dard hai to usne kaha side ho main side hua to wo baith gyi bed pe aur mera sar apni godi mein rakh k dabane lagi usne ek suit pahna hua tha white color ka wo jiska khula gala tha Wo jab bhi jhuk k sar dabati to uske chuche mere muh pe lagte per mere dimag mein to wahi purani batein chal rhi thi meri ankh bhari ho rhi thi main kab so gya pata ni chala Meri raat ko aankh khuli jab usne hi mujhe uthaya aur chai pilayi Fir mere sirahne ke pass aakar beth gayi aur mere balon mai hath pherne lagi maine dhire se alag hone ki kosis ki aur kaha ‘‘koi baat nahi ,mujhe nend aa jaygi aap so jaon ammi Per Ammi balon mai hath pherti hui kahne lagi asif kafi dino se dekh rahi hu tum udash rahte ho nend ki goliya khate ho aur kayi baar to maine thumhe rota hua bhi dekha hai Sach sach bata aakhir baat kiya hai..? mujhe per vishwas kar mein teri har baat apne dil mein dafan kar lungi ...dekh kahne se dukh halka hota hai Kareeb 10-15 minutes tak ammi na jane kiya kiya dohraati rahi taaki mein apne dil ki baat bata du magar main chup hi raha kiyoki mai kuch kah kar baat badhana nahi chahta tha ...
Theek hai beta teri marzi ...mat bata mai hoti hi kon hu pouchne wali itna kah kar ammi badbadate hue woh jaane lagi " Ek to karela us per neem chadha ye ladka to kisi din meri jaan laikar manega meri jabaan khulwane k liye na jane ammi kiya kiya bolti ja rahi thi
mai jo abb tak khamoshi se sunn raha tha ek dam bars pada ‘‘Abhi rookiye aap
Ammi ne bebus ankhon se meri taraf dekha to mai sir jhuka kar kahne laga ...aaj mujhe ahsahas hua ki jab koi apna derd deta hai to uss derd ka ahsaas kiya hota hai aur iss baar to bahut karibi ne dhokha diya hai yeh kahte hue meri ankhon mein ansoo aa gaye ammi ghabra gayi phir mere kandhe per hath rakha aur ghabrate hue kaha sab theek to hai na beta ..?
‘‘maine…’’ sir utha kar kaha
‘ek baat pouchni hai aap se sach sach batana ?’’
‘‘ek kiyo beta chaar poucho’’ .......
Maine thaan li k abb jo hoga dekha jayga maine gadde ke niche se chaddi nikal kar usse felakar us pe laga daag dikhate hue bola ye chaddi aap ki hai naa ?
apne chaddi per lage daag dekh kar woh shram se laal ho gayi ? do idhar do isse !”ammi ne mere hath se apni chaddi cheen li Phir unhone muhje ek thapad mara aur ghusse mein aag babula hokar kaha itne paise kharch karke tune yeh sab sikha tujhe jara bhi shram nahi aayi aise wahiyat harkat karte hue Ammi k muh se aise wahiyat baatein sun kar mujhe shock laga aisa laga jaise kisi ne mere charo taraf jahnnam ki aag laga di ho Mai pagalon ki tarha ammi ko dekhta raha aur kahne laga ammi aapne to hadd hi kar di apni kartoot chupane k liye mujhe hi qurabani ka bakra bana diya .... shram mujhe nahi aapko aani chahiye abhi 1saal bhi nhi hua abbu ko gujre ki tum apne jisam ki numayash karwati firti ho Isse pahle ki mai kuch aur bolta ammi kano per hath rakhte hue boli"khuda k liye apni gandi jabaan ko kaboo main rakho asif mai thumhe allaha ka wasta deti hu ...
Ammi abb mai koi bachhe nahi raha syana ho chuka hu sab janta hu kiya ho raha hai iss ghar k ander...
ammi ne poori takat se ek tamacha mere gaal per jadd diya ...aur ek per hi nahi rooki lagatar maarti rahi Kareeb 5-6 thappad maare phir meri girebaan pakad kar boli “ mujhe behaya sabit karne ki koshish mat karna maine kabhi kisi gair Mard ko aankh utha kar bhi nahi dekha....akeli aurat ki iss duniya me koi kadar nahi hai agar aaj voh hote to yeh hallat nahi hote ye kahte hue ammi ki ankhon mein ansoo aa gaye aur woh palang per ondhe muh laitte fafak fafak kar ro padi Mujhe samjh nahi aaya k abb kiya karu unhe rone du ya chup karaon.? Unka rona mujhse dekha nahi ka raha tha Mai chup chaap apni ammi k pass aakar beth gaya aur unke kandhe per hath rakha to ammi rote rote boli " koi jarurat nahi hai daya dikhane ki mai mar jaon tab bhi mere pass mat aana mujhe hath mat lagana ammi rote hue kahti ja rahi thi aur na jane kiya anap sanap bole ja rahi thi mai saham gaya aur palang per chup chaap betha raha jab unke ansoo bah kar sukh gaye to woh kamre se nikal gayi ...Per jo kuch bhi hua uska mujhe koi afsosh nahi ho raha tha aur na hi koi darr lag raha tha balki man halka ho gaya aisa lag raha tha jaise dil mai jo foda pak chuka tha woh pak kar foot chuka hai aur sara mawaad nikal gya tha ek baar ko to mann kar raha tha ki ammi jo kar rahi usse chupchap karne du magar gaon ka mahool tha agar kisi ko pata chal jata to sara gaon hamare khilaaf ho jata waise bhi ye badnami ka kaam to tha hi ....Agli subha sara ghar bikhra pada tha aur ammi ka bhi kahi ata pata nahi tha maine aas padosh me jake pouchtach ki magar kisi ko nahi pata ki ammi kaha gayi hai mujhe bechani si hone lagi tabhi mujhe yaad aaya ki raat ko mer or unka jhgda hua tha ho sakta hai vo ghar chodh kar kahi chali gayi hai mera dimaag hi kaam nahi kar raha tha k mai karu to kiya karu aur jaon to kaha jaon pata nahi vo kaha or kis haal me hai ? police me report karne me bhi baat felne se badnami ka darr tha magar report to karni padegi tabhi maine socha k ek baar mama se baat karke dekhta hu iske baad hi police me ammi ke gayab hone ki report dunga vo mere khash mama nahi they per ammi unhe apna bhai manti thi maine mama ko phone kiya duaa salaam k baad maine unse ammi k bare me poucha to tasalli hui ki ammi mama ke pass me thi mere mann mai aaya k ammi ko ghar jaldi aane ko bol du magar dil nahi kiya maine ek lambi saans li aur phone wapis jeb mein rakh liya tabhi achanak badal ghir aaye aur bijleyaa kadakne lagi kaale kaale badalon ke bich suraj chipta ja raha tha or dekhte dekhte andhkaar sa chane laga aisa lag raha tha jaise bahut tej barish hone wali hai tabhi dhyaan aaya k kal ammi ne chat per kapde sukhane k liye tange they aur abb tak to kapde sukh chuke honge chalo unhe hi le aata hu ye soch kar mai chat per gaya to dekha hamare Padosi aurat sakina ka ladka jo ammi ke pass quraan padhne aata tha vo dabe pair hamari chat per aaya aur taar per sukh rahe ammi ke kapdon me se unki chaddi le kar apni chat per kood gaya ye dekh mai chonk gaya k meri ammi apne bete ki umar k ladke k sath yeh sab karti hai chi...chi..maine poori baat ka pata lagane ka faisla kiya mai dhire se uss ki chat per utraa phir sidiyon se niche aaya niche aate hi ek kamre se kuch awajein sunayi di maine jhank kar dekha to vo ladka poora nanga hokar ammi ki chaddi ko hath mai laikar chat raha tha aur doosre hath se apna lund hila raha hai aur jayda josh mai hone ki wajha se uske muh awaaj bahar tak aa rahi thi phir usne ammi ki chaddi ko bistar pr lagaya aur uske ooper lait kar aage piche hone laga ...
mano jaise vo chaddi ko nahi balki ammi ko chod raha hai thodi hi dair mai vo ammi ki chaddi mai jhad gaya mera mann to kiya ki abhi uski gardan marood du ...lekin jaise taise khudh ko shant kiya Phir woh apne kapde pahnne laga mujhe laga k abb woh bahar aayaga is liye mai jaldi se wapis sidiyaan chad kar apni chat per kood gaya aur ek kone mai chip kar beth gaya thodi dair baad woh ooper aaya aur idher udhar dekhne laga jab usse laga ki koi nahi dekh raha hai to woh hamari chat per kooda aur ammi ki chaddi ko aise hi gandi halat mai taar per taang kar chala gaya Mujhe abb sara mamala samjh aa gaya mujhe pata chal gaya ke ammi ki chaddi per vo daag kaise aata tha
maine niche ja kar dahade mar mar k rone laga sir pitne k liye diwaren kam padne lagi dimaag mai khud k liye bhar bharkar galiya aa rahi thi magar sab galiya bhi mere liye kam pad rahi thi mujhse jane anjane mai bahut bada ujar gunaha hua tha mann kar raha tha k abhi kisi kue me kood kar apni jaan de du ..kisi tarha maine khud ko shant kiya aur sabr se kaam liya mai apne ghar se nikal kar sidhe usi ladke k ghar pahucha jiski wajha se maine apni paak daaman ammi per sak kiya ...mai bahut gusse mai uske ghar dakhil hua sidhe uski girebaan pakad kar bola ...kiya samjhte ho tum apne aap ko jo tum karte ho uss ka mujhe pata nahi chalega aaj k baad agar hamare ghar aaya to jinda nahi chodunga
Yeh sun kar vo darr gaya per bola kuch nahi tabhi uske abba bhi aa gaye mai uss ladke ki girebaan se pakadte hue usse uske abba k pass le Jakar chillane laga aur kaha apne ladke ko samjha dijiye mere ghar se door rahe aaj k baad isko waha dekha to goli marwa dunga .’’Uske abba nihayat hi sareef insaan they isliye unhone mere samne hi apne bete ko daant lagyi aur mujhse maanfi mangwayi phir mai waha se sidhe apne ghar aa gaya sachchi pata chalen per maine rahat ki saans li laga jaise chati per pade patther ka bojh hat gaya ho abb mere dimaag to jaise uthal puthal machi hui thi mujhe apni galati ka ahsaas ho chuka tha mai ammi se mannfi mangna chahta tha magar kaise tabhi mere ander se awaaj aayi ki "asif apni ammi se mannfi mangne mai itna bhi kiya sochna ...? Jaate hi unke kadmo mai apna sir jhuka dena...lekin Paon pakdkar rone per bhi maanfi nahi mili to ...?
Nahi aisa nahi hai... allaha ne chaha to woh tumhe jarur maanf kar degi
mai bhookha pyasha apni ammi ko lene ke liye mama ke gaon ja phucha mama ne meri halat dekhkar meri sari baat bade dhyaan se suni ammi ander se hum dono ki batein sun rahi thi mama se bat karte karte meri ankhon se ansoo bahte dekh ammi se raha nahi gaya aur woh mere samne aaker khadi ho gayi maine mama ke samne ammi ammi se apni galti ki maanfi maangi aur wapis ghar chalne ko kaha ...kahte hai aurat ka dil bada hota hai ammi ka dil to waise bhi bada tha bada tha woh mujhe akela kaise chodh deti ? Ammi ne mujhe ankhon hi ankhon me maanf kar diya aur mere sath ghar chali aayi....iss ghatna ke baad suru hota hai meri barbadi ka safar
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