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mai apne maa baap ki iklauti aulad hoon __
mgr iska mtlb ye hargiz nahi h ki mai unka dulaara hee hounga__
toh aaj mai apne beetey kal ke baarey mey sochta hoon toh bas maa-papa ki hee yaadain hai__ aur yaadain bhi kya bas unki sakley bhi dhang se yaad nahi__ khair abb mera unnn yaadon ko yaad karne ka dil bhi nhi krta __
Aur aaj mera practice pe jaane ka dil nahi ho raha tha mgr rules unka kuch nahi kar sakte __
papa mujhe class 5 mey mera admission kara ke mujhe wanha chod ke aa gaye theyy__ army mey jo theyy toh dil toh majboot hoga hee__ par maa ne bhi nahi roka..
unse na nafrat ki wajah thi aur na hee pyar karne ki __aaj mai 22yr ka ho gaya hoon__ aur army school ki tough practice aur touch study ne mujhe ander aur bahar se sakht bana diya tha__
maine apni zindagi ke ek ek pal ko apni dairy mey likh ke rakha h__wo pal jab mujhe unn sab ki zarurat thi tab jo gujri aur aur maine sahi__ training mey trainer jab maa baap ki galiyaan deta toh lagta ki sahi hee de raha h par asli dard toh raat mey hota tha__ kuch kar bhi nahi sakta tha__
par haa inn sab dukh dard ko bhulane ke liye mere paas 5 mere yaar theyy jo mere har waqt aas- paas hee rahte theyy..
aur sach kahu toh maine abb jeena seekh liya tha__ aur iss conclusion par pahuncha tha ki woh sab baatein purani ho gayi aur aaj ke modern world mey rone dhone se toh kuch hone se raha__
maine aaj tak iss school aur hostel se bahar ki duniya ko na dekhne ka vow liya tha aur ussi pe abhi mai kayam tha __ haa mujhe bahar ki baat apne doston se pata chalti rahti thi__ woh sab bhi mere nature se waqif theyy ki mai kitna gusse wala huu ha wo baat alag hai ki abhi mujhe aisa kuch karna ka koi waqt nahi mila ya koi aisi baat nahi hui__
maine apne maa baap ki nafrat ki wajah se kisi ko apne kareeb bhi nahi aane diya__
Main apni imagination mey hee tha ki tabhi mere kandhey pe kisi ka hath dekh ke mai hosh mey aaya aur dekha __wo raj mera friend uski mom thi..
Kanika naam tha unka age45

aur aaj mai sad isliye tha ki aaj sabki family apne baccho se milne aayi thi__ aur mai apne hostel room mey akela baitha tha__ aur mai apne mind ko divert kane ke liye practice pe jaane ki baar baar koshish kar raha tha paar pata nahi kyu mera dil nahi kar raha tha jaane ko aur aisa lag raha tha ki syd koi abb mujhse iss baar syd aa jaaye mai issi aas mey apne room baitha khud ke antermann se fight kar raha tha__
Kanika -- beta snjv kya baat h tum aaj raj ke sath bahar nahi gaye__
me-- nahi aunty aapko toh pata h mai kabhi bahar nahi jata__
kanika-- haan janti hoon par aisa nahi karte beta jante ho na jyada akele rahne se aadmi depression mey chala jata h isiliye har baar tumse bolti hoon ki bahar jaya karo taaki tum bhi sabko jaan sako..
me-- nahi aunty baccha pahle apne maa baap se seekhta h har acchi buri baat mgr wo meri kismat mai nahi toh abb mujhe jyada sochne kee zarurat nahi padti jyada logo ki__
Itna bol ke mai ek jhatke mey hee room se bahar aa gaya aur seedha practice groud pe pahuncha aur maine seedha dudna start kar diya kitne round maine ground ke chakkar lagaye ye toh mujhe nahi pata par ab kuch aacha feel ho raha tha__
mgr iska mtlb ye hargiz nahi h ki mai unka dulaara hee hounga__
toh aaj mai apne beetey kal ke baarey mey sochta hoon toh bas maa-papa ki hee yaadain hai__ aur yaadain bhi kya bas unki sakley bhi dhang se yaad nahi__ khair abb mera unnn yaadon ko yaad karne ka dil bhi nhi krta __
Aur aaj mera practice pe jaane ka dil nahi ho raha tha mgr rules unka kuch nahi kar sakte __
papa mujhe class 5 mey mera admission kara ke mujhe wanha chod ke aa gaye theyy__ army mey jo theyy toh dil toh majboot hoga hee__ par maa ne bhi nahi roka..
unse na nafrat ki wajah thi aur na hee pyar karne ki __aaj mai 22yr ka ho gaya hoon__ aur army school ki tough practice aur touch study ne mujhe ander aur bahar se sakht bana diya tha__
maine apni zindagi ke ek ek pal ko apni dairy mey likh ke rakha h__wo pal jab mujhe unn sab ki zarurat thi tab jo gujri aur aur maine sahi__ training mey trainer jab maa baap ki galiyaan deta toh lagta ki sahi hee de raha h par asli dard toh raat mey hota tha__ kuch kar bhi nahi sakta tha__
par haa inn sab dukh dard ko bhulane ke liye mere paas 5 mere yaar theyy jo mere har waqt aas- paas hee rahte theyy..
aur sach kahu toh maine abb jeena seekh liya tha__ aur iss conclusion par pahuncha tha ki woh sab baatein purani ho gayi aur aaj ke modern world mey rone dhone se toh kuch hone se raha__
maine aaj tak iss school aur hostel se bahar ki duniya ko na dekhne ka vow liya tha aur ussi pe abhi mai kayam tha __ haa mujhe bahar ki baat apne doston se pata chalti rahti thi__ woh sab bhi mere nature se waqif theyy ki mai kitna gusse wala huu ha wo baat alag hai ki abhi mujhe aisa kuch karna ka koi waqt nahi mila ya koi aisi baat nahi hui__
maine apne maa baap ki nafrat ki wajah se kisi ko apne kareeb bhi nahi aane diya__
Main apni imagination mey hee tha ki tabhi mere kandhey pe kisi ka hath dekh ke mai hosh mey aaya aur dekha __wo raj mera friend uski mom thi..
Kanika naam tha unka age45

aur aaj mai sad isliye tha ki aaj sabki family apne baccho se milne aayi thi__ aur mai apne hostel room mey akela baitha tha__ aur mai apne mind ko divert kane ke liye practice pe jaane ki baar baar koshish kar raha tha paar pata nahi kyu mera dil nahi kar raha tha jaane ko aur aisa lag raha tha ki syd koi abb mujhse iss baar syd aa jaaye mai issi aas mey apne room baitha khud ke antermann se fight kar raha tha__
Kanika -- beta snjv kya baat h tum aaj raj ke sath bahar nahi gaye__
me-- nahi aunty aapko toh pata h mai kabhi bahar nahi jata__
kanika-- haan janti hoon par aisa nahi karte beta jante ho na jyada akele rahne se aadmi depression mey chala jata h isiliye har baar tumse bolti hoon ki bahar jaya karo taaki tum bhi sabko jaan sako..
me-- nahi aunty baccha pahle apne maa baap se seekhta h har acchi buri baat mgr wo meri kismat mai nahi toh abb mujhe jyada sochne kee zarurat nahi padti jyada logo ki__
Itna bol ke mai ek jhatke mey hee room se bahar aa gaya aur seedha practice groud pe pahuncha aur maine seedha dudna start kar diya kitne round maine ground ke chakkar lagaye ye toh mujhe nahi pata par ab kuch aacha feel ho raha tha__