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Almirah open hote hi maine uski chhan been karni shuru kar di……uske andar meri layi dresses, jwellery, meri abhi ki aur bachpan ki photo aur ek diary mili
Maine diary padhne ke liye jaise hi khola to usme se kuch niche girne ki awaz aayi….maine jhuk kar use uthaya aur jaise hi dekha to mujhe behad hairani huyi
Mai (mann me)—ye yaha kaise……?..ye locket to chanchal ke paas tha…to paridhi didi ke paas kaise aaya aur kab…..?
Mai bahut hairan aur soch me pad gaya aur akhir me is bare me chanchal se kal baat karne ka soch mai diary padhne laga…….jaise jaise mai diary padhta gaya mere chehre ke bhav badalte gaye
Ab aage…………
Maine diary open kar use padhna shuru kiya….shuru me sab normal baate hi thi didi ki apni childhood ki….phir bhi maine aage aur padhne ka socha kyon ki bachpan ka to mujhe bhi pata tha….maine padhna jari rakha kintu padhte padhte ek jagah pahuch kar main chounk gaya
‘’Vaise to mujhe bachpan ki adhiktar baate bhul chuki hu magar phir bhi kuch baate aur incidents aise hote hain jo ham ta-umra kabhi nahi bhool pate…..bachpan me raj ki vo shararte, uska baat baat par roothna aur phir ham teeno bahno ka use manana mujhe aaj bhi jab dhyan aata hai to barbas hi chehre par mushkan bikher jati hain vo hasin yaade…
Raj hum poore ghar walo ke sath sath hum teeno bahno ki bhi jaan tha….uska chehra dekh lene ke baad hi hum teeno apne din ki shuruwat karte aur uske so jane ke baad hi hame need aati thi….halanki vo payal ka kuch jyada hi ladla tha….vo kisi ko use touch tak nahi karne deti thi….lekin mujhe aur ruchi didi ko isse kabhi koi jalan nahi huyi
Kyon ki hame hamare hisse ka pyar use mil hi jata tha….raj hasta to aisa lagta jaise hum teeno bahno ne aas maan chhu liya itni dil me khushi ki tarange paida ho jati thi….aur jab kabhi vo bimar ho jata to ham teeno bahno ki raaro ki need hi gayab ho jati thi
Hamara din bhagwan se raj ko theek karne ki vinti karne me hi nikal jata.....bimar raj hota tha lekin dard ham teeno bahno ke sine me mahsus hota tha
Aise hi vo din mai kabhi nahi bhool sakti....jis din ki ghatna ne meri antar aatma ko hila kar rakh diya...Raj ki us samay pani me bhigne se bukhar aa gayi thi....vo tez fever me thandi lagne ki vajah se kaamp raha tha....payal ne ro ro kar jab halla machaya to sabne jakar dekha ki raj ko tez fever tha
Badi maa ne doctor ko bulaya …injection aur medicines dene ke baad jab fever kuch kam hua to vo so gaya… doctor subah ek baar phir aane ko bol kar chala gaya…..lekin hum teeno bahan raj ke paas hi poora din aur poori raat baithi rahi
Raat me mujhe pyas lagi to mai raj ke paas se uthakar kitchen me pani lene gayi tabhi mujhe bagal ke store room me se kisi ke dhire dhire baate karne ki awaz sunayi di…….baharhaal maine ise andekha kar pani pikar lout hi rahi thi ki mere kano me phir se unki baato ki awaz aayi …vo baar baar raj ka naam le rahe the
Raj ka naam sunte hi mere kaan khade ho gaye …maine kahi se andar jhankne ki koshish ki lekin jab kuch na mila to maine darwaje ke key hole par apni ankhe gada di…kintu andar light off thi magar phir bhi unke apas me phus phusane ki awaz kafi had tak meri samajh me aa rahi thi
Andar ek admi aur ek aurat apas me baate kar rahe the…mere mann me ye koutuhal vash ye jaanne ki jigyasa paida ho gayi ki hamare kisi ghar ke sadasya ko is tarah chhup kar andhere me baat karne ki kya aavasyakta aan padi aur vo raj ke baare me kya bate kar rahe hain….main bade hi dhyan se unki baate sunne lagi
Admi—subah hone se pahle kisi bhi tarah se ye injection raj ki body me inject kar do
Aurat—par vaha to vo teeno raj ko ek min ke liye bhi akela nahi chhod rahi hain….ruchi aur paridhi ko kisi tarah samajh kar kuch samay ke liye dur kar bhi du lekin payal nahi manegi kisi ki bhi
Admi—agar hame apna maqsad poora karna hai to ye kaam karna hi padega…..badi mushkil se maine ye blood cancer ke last stage wale mariz ka blood sample jugad kiya hai….ise lagate hi raj ke blood me bhi cancer phailna chalu ho jayega dhire dhire aur kisi ko hum par shaq bhi nahi hoga….jaldi hi raj mout ki need me soyega
Aurat—theek hai mai jati hu...karti hu kuch
Admi—dhyan rahe subah hone se pahle hi ye kaam ho jana chahiye....ye injection mai khidki ke paas chhupa de raha hu
Aurat—theek hai.…ab chalo yaha se….adhik der tak yaha rukna theek nahi hai
Ye sun kar mere to pairo tale jamin hi khisak gayi…..ankho ke samne andhera chhane laga ki hamare hi ghar me koi hamare raj ko jaan se maarna chahta hai....iska matlab payal ka darr sahi hai jo hamesha kahti rahti hai ki raj ko lekar use ghar walo par bhi bharosa nahi hai aur isiliye vo kisi ko uske paas bhi nahi aane deti
Mai turant jakar kitchen me chhup gayi....unke store room se nikal jane ke baad mai ye bata nahi sakti ki mujhe kitna dard ho raha tha ye sab jankar.....mai itni badi bhi nahi huyi thi himmat dikha ke unke samne pahuch jau aur unhe benaqab kar saku
Main bahut jyada darr gayi thi.....mujhe yahi darr mann me baith gaya ki aaj raat mera raj mar jayega aur ye khyal mann me aate hi aanshu tad tad kar bahne lage…
Maine mann me soch liya ki main unhe aisa bilkul nahi karne dungi.....unki sazish ko kamyab nahi hone dungi...raj ko har haal me bachaungi....lekin kaise.... ?
Main itni darr chuki thi ki kisi ko ye baat batane ki himmat bhi nahi juta pa rahi thi....dusra kise batati...ki koun karna chahta hai aisa... ?..meri soch bhi ab payal jaisi ho gayi... ? mera vishwas bhi sab par se uth gaya....aur kisi ko batane se ye bhi to ho sakta tha ki bhale hi raj aaj bach jaye kintu hamesha uski jaan khatre me rahegi
Lekin maine mann me apne ye dridh nishchay kar liya ki main raj ko bachaungi....mujhe kuch aisa karna tha jisse un logo ko ye pata bhi na chale ki unki yojna nakamyab ho chuki hai....aur raj ki jaan bhi bach jaye
Mai vahi baith kar rote rote yahi sochti rahi...phir mujhe laga ki jyada der karna theek nahi hai...to maine mann hi mann us samay jo bhi samajh me aaya vahi karne ka faisla liya raj ko bachane ke liye
Maine uth kar fridge me se anaar ka juice nikal kar chup chap store room me gayi ye sochkar ki us injection ko khali karke usme ye juice bhar dungi
Main store room me ghuskar vo khidki talash karne lagi andhere me…..badi mushkil se akhir mujhe vo khidki aur injection mil gaya…..mai use lekar vaha se bahar nikalne hi vali thi ki mujhe kisi ke pairo ki awaz sunayi padi jo shayad idhar hi aa rahi thi
Main khade khade soch hi rahi thi ki vo jo bhi koi tha ya thi usne darwaja kholna shuru kiya….Mujhe jaldabazi me kuch na samajh aaya….agar niche girati to sambhav tha ki blood vaha gir kar jam jata aur unhe sab pata chal jata to maine jaldi se us injection ko apne hi hath me inject kar liya aur use khali kar ke sath me katori me laye juice ko usme bhar diya ki tabhi koi darwaja khol kar andar aaya
Maine jaldi se injection khidki me phenk kar thoda piche hoke niche jamin par let gayi…..jo bhi andar aaya tha kuch der tak vahi kuch talashta raha phir vo chala gaya shayad vo usi injection ko lene hi aaya tha aur milte hi chala gaya
Uske jane ke baad bhi bahut der tak main vahi niche leti roti rahi phir pata nahi kab vahi so gayi….subha jaldi hi meri need khul gayi to main uth kar turant bhagi raj ke room me lekin vo maze se so raha tha
Use sahi salamat dekh kar main raat ka sara manzar bhul gayi aur mere chehre par ek khushi ki smile khil gayi jaise ki maine koi jung jeet li ho
Maine ye baat kisi ko nahi batayi kyo ki mai khud bhi nahi janti ki koun hai jo hamari khushiyo ka dushman hai … kuch samay baad raj ko bade papa bahar bhej diye padhne ke liye
Raj ke jane se hamari duniya phir se veeran ho gayi….Ruchi didi ka swabhav kathor aur strict hota gaya dino din vo poori hitlar giri par utar aayi to payal bilkul khamosh ho gayi….hamesha raj ki khatir har kisi se ladte rahne wali payal ekdam goongi ho gayi…raat din sirf padhayi aur padhayi
In sabke beech me main ek ladki ka jikra karna hi bhul gayi..Divya..hamari gudiya…ham sabki jaan raj tha to raj ki jaan gudiya me basti thi….raj ke jane se main bhi udas ho gayi aur mera swabhav me kabhi khamoshi to kabhi chid chidapan aa gaya….ek jinda lash ban kar rah gayi
Agle ek do saal me kujhe kati baar fever aaya lekin medicines se theek ho jata tha….aise hi saal gujarte rahe… beech beech me meri tabiyat kharab hoti rahi…..chacha aur papa videsh chale gaye…maine raj ki hatya ki sazish rachne wale logo ki talash bhi karti rahi….meri nazar hamesha har kisi par tiki rahti
Ek baar mujhe khoon ki ulti huyi to maa aur badi maa ne mujhe hospital me admitt karaya….jaha doctor ne mere blood sample check kiye aur report aane par usne bataya ki mujhe blood cancer hai
Maa aur badi maa mujhe check up karane ke liye kabhi tou aur picnic ke bahane se kayi doctors ke paas lekar gayi lekin har jagah doctors ne yahi kaha ye last stage me pahuch chuka hai..mushkil se ek saal aur main jinda rah sakti hu medicines ke jor par
Uske baad jab bhi meri tabiyat kharab hoti to badi maa aur mummy mujhe school tour ke bahane hospital me bharti karwa deti….jaha thoda aram hone tak main vahi rahti
Main bhagwan se yahi vinti karti thi ki marne se pahle kash ek baar mujhe Raj se mila de…..main apni antim saans lene se pahle uske chehre par vahi bachpan vali hasi dekhna chahti thi ….hamare paas to uska number tak nahi tha aur na hi koi uske bare me information thi jisse ki kisi tarah ka koi sampark ho sake
Aur ek din bhagwan ne meri murad poori kar di jab kajal bua ne phone karke bataya…raj unke paas hai aur vo use lekar ghar aa rahi hain
Ek baar phir se ham bahno ke jeevan me basant ki vahi bahar lout aayi….jab maine raj ko dekha to mera dil joro se dhak dhak karne laga…..aisa meri life me pahli baar hua tha jab kisi ko dekh kar is dil ne dhadakna sikha
Raj ke vapis aane se ghar me deepawali sa mahoul ban gaya…..main jab bhi uske paas hoti to khud ko bhul jati dil me ajib ajib si lahre uthne lagti jinka mere paas koi jawab nahi tha
Main har gujarte din ke sath Raj ki oor khichi chali ja rahi thi….jane kya jadu tha uski nazro me ki mera dil bagawat karne par utaru ho gaya…..mujhe khud bhi ye ehsaas tak nahi ho paya ki kab main raj ko bhai ki jagah use premi samajhne lagi….kab maine use apna dil de diya…?
Kintu sach to yahi tha ki jo kabhi chhota sa raj meri jaan hua karta tha ab vo mere dil ka mere tan aur mere mann par bhi raj karne laga tha
Phir ek din raj ke sath ghatne wali vo bachpan ki ghatna sabke samne aayi….jise sun kar sab ka hriday vidirna ho gaya….itna kashta.itni taklif raj ne sahi hain aaj tak…uske dard ko mahsus kar main apni bimari bhul gayi…main aaj bhi us kamini aurat ki khoj nahi kar payi jo is ghar me hote huye bhi aastin ka saamp bani huyi hai
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Aaj main raj ke kamre me gayi to raj ne mujhe hotho par kiss kiya….main to jaise jannat me hi pahuch gayi… ye mere jeevan ka pahla purush sparsh tha jise maine apne jism me mahsus kiya
Jab raj ne mere sine ke ubharo ko apne hatho me liya to halke dard ke sath ek asim anivarchaniya sukh ki anubhooti hone lagi….vo kshan mere jeevan me kisi sukhad palo me parivartit ho gaya
Mai uske room se jane ke baad behad khush thi ye soch kar ki raj bhi mujhe pyar karta hai….lekin jab mujhe apni bimari ka khyal aaya to mai phir se udas ho gayi….
Maine soch liya ki main raj ke dil me apne liye pyar ki jagah nafrat paida kar dungi….main pyar me tadapte huye nahi dekhna chahti thi…..mujhse nafrat karke kam se kam vo apni life me to aage badhega mujhe bhul kar
Jaldi hi mujhe aisa karne ka mouka bhi mil gaya jab bade papa ne use apna bet maanne se inkar kar diya aur uspar kayi ghatiya aarop lagaye
Maine raj ke dil me apne liye nafrat paida karne ka yahi avsar samajh kar use sabke samne jalil kar diya…use thappad maea…magar ye to mera dil hi janta tha ki aisa karte waqt mujh par kya gujri hogi
Thappad to maine raj ko mara tha tha parantu us thappad ke nishan aur dard aaj bhi mere sine me kisi shool ki bhanti chubhte rahte hain
Iske sath hi maine philhal abhi ke liye diary padhna band kar diya ya haqiqat kahu to is samay aage padh sakne ki mujhme himmat hi shesh nahi rah gayi thi
Main vahi let kar paridhi didi ke bare me sochta raha…..
Main (mann me)—itna bada dhokha….?..itna bada chhal mere sath…?..har kisi ne mere sath dhokha kiya….maa aapne bhi itni badi baat aaj tak mujh se chhupa kar rakhi…akhir kyo…..?
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UPDATE * 146
( Paridhi Ki Diary )
Almirah open hote hi maine uski chhan been karni shuru kar di……uske andar meri layi dresses, jwellery, meri abhi ki aur bachpan ki photo aur ek diary mili
Maine diary padhne ke liye jaise hi khola to usme se kuch niche girne ki awaz aayi….maine jhuk kar use uthaya aur jaise hi dekha to mujhe behad hairani huyi
Mai (mann me)—ye yaha kaise……?..ye locket to chanchal ke paas tha…to paridhi didi ke paas kaise aaya aur kab…..?
Mai bahut hairan aur soch me pad gaya aur akhir me is bare me chanchal se kal baat karne ka soch mai diary padhne laga…….jaise jaise mai diary padhta gaya mere chehre ke bhav badalte gaye
Ab aage…………
Maine diary open kar use padhna shuru kiya….shuru me sab normal baate hi thi didi ki apni childhood ki….phir bhi maine aage aur padhne ka socha kyon ki bachpan ka to mujhe bhi pata tha….maine padhna jari rakha kintu padhte padhte ek jagah pahuch kar main chounk gaya
‘’Vaise to mujhe bachpan ki adhiktar baate bhul chuki hu magar phir bhi kuch baate aur incidents aise hote hain jo ham ta-umra kabhi nahi bhool pate…..bachpan me raj ki vo shararte, uska baat baat par roothna aur phir ham teeno bahno ka use manana mujhe aaj bhi jab dhyan aata hai to barbas hi chehre par mushkan bikher jati hain vo hasin yaade…
Raj hum poore ghar walo ke sath sath hum teeno bahno ki bhi jaan tha….uska chehra dekh lene ke baad hi hum teeno apne din ki shuruwat karte aur uske so jane ke baad hi hame need aati thi….halanki vo payal ka kuch jyada hi ladla tha….vo kisi ko use touch tak nahi karne deti thi….lekin mujhe aur ruchi didi ko isse kabhi koi jalan nahi huyi
Kyon ki hame hamare hisse ka pyar use mil hi jata tha….raj hasta to aisa lagta jaise hum teeno bahno ne aas maan chhu liya itni dil me khushi ki tarange paida ho jati thi….aur jab kabhi vo bimar ho jata to ham teeno bahno ki raaro ki need hi gayab ho jati thi
Hamara din bhagwan se raj ko theek karne ki vinti karne me hi nikal jata.....bimar raj hota tha lekin dard ham teeno bahno ke sine me mahsus hota tha
Aise hi vo din mai kabhi nahi bhool sakti....jis din ki ghatna ne meri antar aatma ko hila kar rakh diya...Raj ki us samay pani me bhigne se bukhar aa gayi thi....vo tez fever me thandi lagne ki vajah se kaamp raha tha....payal ne ro ro kar jab halla machaya to sabne jakar dekha ki raj ko tez fever tha
Badi maa ne doctor ko bulaya …injection aur medicines dene ke baad jab fever kuch kam hua to vo so gaya… doctor subah ek baar phir aane ko bol kar chala gaya…..lekin hum teeno bahan raj ke paas hi poora din aur poori raat baithi rahi
Raat me mujhe pyas lagi to mai raj ke paas se uthakar kitchen me pani lene gayi tabhi mujhe bagal ke store room me se kisi ke dhire dhire baate karne ki awaz sunayi di…….baharhaal maine ise andekha kar pani pikar lout hi rahi thi ki mere kano me phir se unki baato ki awaz aayi …vo baar baar raj ka naam le rahe the
Raj ka naam sunte hi mere kaan khade ho gaye …maine kahi se andar jhankne ki koshish ki lekin jab kuch na mila to maine darwaje ke key hole par apni ankhe gada di…kintu andar light off thi magar phir bhi unke apas me phus phusane ki awaz kafi had tak meri samajh me aa rahi thi
Andar ek admi aur ek aurat apas me baate kar rahe the…mere mann me ye koutuhal vash ye jaanne ki jigyasa paida ho gayi ki hamare kisi ghar ke sadasya ko is tarah chhup kar andhere me baat karne ki kya aavasyakta aan padi aur vo raj ke baare me kya bate kar rahe hain….main bade hi dhyan se unki baate sunne lagi
Admi—subah hone se pahle kisi bhi tarah se ye injection raj ki body me inject kar do
Aurat—par vaha to vo teeno raj ko ek min ke liye bhi akela nahi chhod rahi hain….ruchi aur paridhi ko kisi tarah samajh kar kuch samay ke liye dur kar bhi du lekin payal nahi manegi kisi ki bhi
Admi—agar hame apna maqsad poora karna hai to ye kaam karna hi padega…..badi mushkil se maine ye blood cancer ke last stage wale mariz ka blood sample jugad kiya hai….ise lagate hi raj ke blood me bhi cancer phailna chalu ho jayega dhire dhire aur kisi ko hum par shaq bhi nahi hoga….jaldi hi raj mout ki need me soyega
Aurat—theek hai mai jati hu...karti hu kuch
Admi—dhyan rahe subah hone se pahle hi ye kaam ho jana chahiye....ye injection mai khidki ke paas chhupa de raha hu
Aurat—theek hai.…ab chalo yaha se….adhik der tak yaha rukna theek nahi hai
Ye sun kar mere to pairo tale jamin hi khisak gayi…..ankho ke samne andhera chhane laga ki hamare hi ghar me koi hamare raj ko jaan se maarna chahta hai....iska matlab payal ka darr sahi hai jo hamesha kahti rahti hai ki raj ko lekar use ghar walo par bhi bharosa nahi hai aur isiliye vo kisi ko uske paas bhi nahi aane deti
Mai turant jakar kitchen me chhup gayi....unke store room se nikal jane ke baad mai ye bata nahi sakti ki mujhe kitna dard ho raha tha ye sab jankar.....mai itni badi bhi nahi huyi thi himmat dikha ke unke samne pahuch jau aur unhe benaqab kar saku
Main bahut jyada darr gayi thi.....mujhe yahi darr mann me baith gaya ki aaj raat mera raj mar jayega aur ye khyal mann me aate hi aanshu tad tad kar bahne lage…
Maine mann me soch liya ki main unhe aisa bilkul nahi karne dungi.....unki sazish ko kamyab nahi hone dungi...raj ko har haal me bachaungi....lekin kaise.... ?
Main itni darr chuki thi ki kisi ko ye baat batane ki himmat bhi nahi juta pa rahi thi....dusra kise batati...ki koun karna chahta hai aisa... ?..meri soch bhi ab payal jaisi ho gayi... ? mera vishwas bhi sab par se uth gaya....aur kisi ko batane se ye bhi to ho sakta tha ki bhale hi raj aaj bach jaye kintu hamesha uski jaan khatre me rahegi
Lekin maine mann me apne ye dridh nishchay kar liya ki main raj ko bachaungi....mujhe kuch aisa karna tha jisse un logo ko ye pata bhi na chale ki unki yojna nakamyab ho chuki hai....aur raj ki jaan bhi bach jaye
Mai vahi baith kar rote rote yahi sochti rahi...phir mujhe laga ki jyada der karna theek nahi hai...to maine mann hi mann us samay jo bhi samajh me aaya vahi karne ka faisla liya raj ko bachane ke liye
Maine uth kar fridge me se anaar ka juice nikal kar chup chap store room me gayi ye sochkar ki us injection ko khali karke usme ye juice bhar dungi
Main store room me ghuskar vo khidki talash karne lagi andhere me…..badi mushkil se akhir mujhe vo khidki aur injection mil gaya…..mai use lekar vaha se bahar nikalne hi vali thi ki mujhe kisi ke pairo ki awaz sunayi padi jo shayad idhar hi aa rahi thi
Main khade khade soch hi rahi thi ki vo jo bhi koi tha ya thi usne darwaja kholna shuru kiya….Mujhe jaldabazi me kuch na samajh aaya….agar niche girati to sambhav tha ki blood vaha gir kar jam jata aur unhe sab pata chal jata to maine jaldi se us injection ko apne hi hath me inject kar liya aur use khali kar ke sath me katori me laye juice ko usme bhar diya ki tabhi koi darwaja khol kar andar aaya
Maine jaldi se injection khidki me phenk kar thoda piche hoke niche jamin par let gayi…..jo bhi andar aaya tha kuch der tak vahi kuch talashta raha phir vo chala gaya shayad vo usi injection ko lene hi aaya tha aur milte hi chala gaya
Uske jane ke baad bhi bahut der tak main vahi niche leti roti rahi phir pata nahi kab vahi so gayi….subha jaldi hi meri need khul gayi to main uth kar turant bhagi raj ke room me lekin vo maze se so raha tha
Use sahi salamat dekh kar main raat ka sara manzar bhul gayi aur mere chehre par ek khushi ki smile khil gayi jaise ki maine koi jung jeet li ho
Maine ye baat kisi ko nahi batayi kyo ki mai khud bhi nahi janti ki koun hai jo hamari khushiyo ka dushman hai … kuch samay baad raj ko bade papa bahar bhej diye padhne ke liye
Raj ke jane se hamari duniya phir se veeran ho gayi….Ruchi didi ka swabhav kathor aur strict hota gaya dino din vo poori hitlar giri par utar aayi to payal bilkul khamosh ho gayi….hamesha raj ki khatir har kisi se ladte rahne wali payal ekdam goongi ho gayi…raat din sirf padhayi aur padhayi
In sabke beech me main ek ladki ka jikra karna hi bhul gayi..Divya..hamari gudiya…ham sabki jaan raj tha to raj ki jaan gudiya me basti thi….raj ke jane se main bhi udas ho gayi aur mera swabhav me kabhi khamoshi to kabhi chid chidapan aa gaya….ek jinda lash ban kar rah gayi
Agle ek do saal me kujhe kati baar fever aaya lekin medicines se theek ho jata tha….aise hi saal gujarte rahe… beech beech me meri tabiyat kharab hoti rahi…..chacha aur papa videsh chale gaye…maine raj ki hatya ki sazish rachne wale logo ki talash bhi karti rahi….meri nazar hamesha har kisi par tiki rahti
Ek baar mujhe khoon ki ulti huyi to maa aur badi maa ne mujhe hospital me admitt karaya….jaha doctor ne mere blood sample check kiye aur report aane par usne bataya ki mujhe blood cancer hai
Maa aur badi maa mujhe check up karane ke liye kabhi tou aur picnic ke bahane se kayi doctors ke paas lekar gayi lekin har jagah doctors ne yahi kaha ye last stage me pahuch chuka hai..mushkil se ek saal aur main jinda rah sakti hu medicines ke jor par
Uske baad jab bhi meri tabiyat kharab hoti to badi maa aur mummy mujhe school tour ke bahane hospital me bharti karwa deti….jaha thoda aram hone tak main vahi rahti
Main bhagwan se yahi vinti karti thi ki marne se pahle kash ek baar mujhe Raj se mila de…..main apni antim saans lene se pahle uske chehre par vahi bachpan vali hasi dekhna chahti thi ….hamare paas to uska number tak nahi tha aur na hi koi uske bare me information thi jisse ki kisi tarah ka koi sampark ho sake
Aur ek din bhagwan ne meri murad poori kar di jab kajal bua ne phone karke bataya…raj unke paas hai aur vo use lekar ghar aa rahi hain
Ek baar phir se ham bahno ke jeevan me basant ki vahi bahar lout aayi….jab maine raj ko dekha to mera dil joro se dhak dhak karne laga…..aisa meri life me pahli baar hua tha jab kisi ko dekh kar is dil ne dhadakna sikha
Raj ke vapis aane se ghar me deepawali sa mahoul ban gaya…..main jab bhi uske paas hoti to khud ko bhul jati dil me ajib ajib si lahre uthne lagti jinka mere paas koi jawab nahi tha
Main har gujarte din ke sath Raj ki oor khichi chali ja rahi thi….jane kya jadu tha uski nazro me ki mera dil bagawat karne par utaru ho gaya…..mujhe khud bhi ye ehsaas tak nahi ho paya ki kab main raj ko bhai ki jagah use premi samajhne lagi….kab maine use apna dil de diya…?
Kintu sach to yahi tha ki jo kabhi chhota sa raj meri jaan hua karta tha ab vo mere dil ka mere tan aur mere mann par bhi raj karne laga tha
Phir ek din raj ke sath ghatne wali vo bachpan ki ghatna sabke samne aayi….jise sun kar sab ka hriday vidirna ho gaya….itna kashta.itni taklif raj ne sahi hain aaj tak…uske dard ko mahsus kar main apni bimari bhul gayi…main aaj bhi us kamini aurat ki khoj nahi kar payi jo is ghar me hote huye bhi aastin ka saamp bani huyi hai
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Aaj main raj ke kamre me gayi to raj ne mujhe hotho par kiss kiya….main to jaise jannat me hi pahuch gayi… ye mere jeevan ka pahla purush sparsh tha jise maine apne jism me mahsus kiya
Jab raj ne mere sine ke ubharo ko apne hatho me liya to halke dard ke sath ek asim anivarchaniya sukh ki anubhooti hone lagi….vo kshan mere jeevan me kisi sukhad palo me parivartit ho gaya
Mai uske room se jane ke baad behad khush thi ye soch kar ki raj bhi mujhe pyar karta hai….lekin jab mujhe apni bimari ka khyal aaya to mai phir se udas ho gayi….
Maine soch liya ki main raj ke dil me apne liye pyar ki jagah nafrat paida kar dungi….main pyar me tadapte huye nahi dekhna chahti thi…..mujhse nafrat karke kam se kam vo apni life me to aage badhega mujhe bhul kar
Jaldi hi mujhe aisa karne ka mouka bhi mil gaya jab bade papa ne use apna bet maanne se inkar kar diya aur uspar kayi ghatiya aarop lagaye
Maine raj ke dil me apne liye nafrat paida karne ka yahi avsar samajh kar use sabke samne jalil kar diya…use thappad maea…magar ye to mera dil hi janta tha ki aisa karte waqt mujh par kya gujri hogi
Thappad to maine raj ko mara tha tha parantu us thappad ke nishan aur dard aaj bhi mere sine me kisi shool ki bhanti chubhte rahte hain
Iske sath hi maine philhal abhi ke liye diary padhna band kar diya ya haqiqat kahu to is samay aage padh sakne ki mujhme himmat hi shesh nahi rah gayi thi
Main vahi let kar paridhi didi ke bare me sochta raha…..
Main (mann me)—itna bada dhokha….?..itna bada chhal mere sath…?..har kisi ne mere sath dhokha kiya….maa aapne bhi itni badi baat aaj tak mujh se chhupa kar rakhi…akhir kyo…..?
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