Baban
ᴇᴋ ᴋᴀʜᴀᴀɴɪ... ᴀɪꜱɪ ʙʜɪ
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Story - Ehsaas
Writer- Baban
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Raat ke 2 baaj rahe hai abhi. Akela baitha hoon apney balcony mein. Thandee hawa mujhey chukar jaa rahi hai bar bar. Charotaraf sirf shaanti... Koi awaz nahi.. Bus kabhi kabhi kuttey ki bhowkney ki awaz aa rahi hai. Aajke newspaper ka ek column Bahut dhyaan se par raha tha aur beech beech mein has bhi raha tha main. Ekbaar asmaan ke taraf bhi dekha. Subah ka safed rang ko jaise kisiney kaley chaddar se dhak diya hai. Beech beech ke ched se halki halki roshni jagmaga rahi hai. Chair pe baithey baithey kisi ka intezar kartey huye main raat ka woh nazara dekhne mein khoya hua tha. Kab aaogi tum? Aaj itna der kyun ho raha hai tumhe?
Mera aur tumhara woh pehla mulaqat main aaj bhi nahi bhool sakta. Kaun bolega yeh jo ladka chair pe baithey tumhara intezar kar raha hai.... Jo ek darpok, shaant swavab ka ladka hai usiko ekdin tumney galat samjhi thi. Woh thappar ki goonj aaj bhi sunaai deti hai. Tumney socha tha ke main tumhe irritate kar raha tha.... Pagli thi ek number ki. Lekin ekdin tumhe galti ka ehsaas hua aur tumney maafi bhi mangi thi. Lekin jo bhi ho... Woh thappar hi jaise mere liye ek alag dard ban gaya tha. Aur woh dard kab chahaat mein badal gaya pata hi nahi chala mujhey. Aakhir ekdin tumney bhi dosti ka haat baraya aur maine bhi. Aaj bhi humari woh dosti atoot hai. Balki yeh bolna sahi hoga ke woh dosti aur gehri hui hai har ek din. Main yahi sab soch mein duba hua hoon ke tabhi-
- To yahan hain janab?
Peechey mudkey dekha toh Maya mere peehey hi thi. Main muskurake bola- haa ji... Main toh bahut der se aapka intezar kar raha hu... Lekin aap kahan thi madam? Aaj itni der ho gayi? Maya bhi muskuraakey merey paas akaar baith gayi. Mere bahut paas. Uski woh asadharan roop jaise merey purey balcony ko aur roshan karne lagi. Ab koi andhera nahi, sirf ujala charo taraf.
Maine kahan- tumharey baarein mein hi soch raha tha.
Maya- accha?
Main- hummm... Actually... Humarey barein mein... So... Aaj itna late kaise ho gayi?
Maya mujhey dekhtey huye boli- main toh bahut peheley hi aa gayi thi.
Main hairan ho gaya. Poocha- toh? Abtak kahan thi? Yaha aayi kyu nahi?
Maya muskuraake boli - tumhey dur se dekh rahi thi.
Main- dursey? Kyun? Roz toh mujhey aise paas se dekhti ho... Toh aaj durse kyu?
Apni mayabi aankhon ko ab mujhsey churaakey boli- dekh rahi thi... Apney sabsey kareeb ke insaan ko dur se kaisa lagtaa hai? Tumnne kabhi mujhey dur se nahi dekha?
Main haskar bola- haaa.... Kayi baar.... Jab pehlibaar tumne sataaak karkey thappar mara tha.... Usdin ke baad har roz chup chup ke tumhe dur se dekhta tha.... Jab tum muskuraake doston se baat karne mein mashgul rehti thi... Tab bhi dur se tumnhe dekhta tha..... Jab hum dost baney aur tum class mein mera intezaar karti thi... Tab bhi tumhe dur se dekhta tha. Aaj bhi jab tum soyi rehti ho.... Tab dur se tumko dekhta hoon. Sochta hoon kabhi kabhi ke paas chala jau tumharey.... Lekin tum aaney hi nahi deti.... Mujhey rokti kyun ho tumharey paas aaney se?
Maya ne apna sar merey kandhey pe rakh diya. Roshni ke saath ek madhosh kar dene wali ek sugandh aa rahi hai maya ke jism se. Kahan milta hai aisa sugandh wali perfume? Pata nahi mujhey... Its heavenly beautiful.
Asmaan ke taraf hum dono hi dekh rahe hai. Raat ke andherey wali asmaan mein jaise koi ek nakhun ka tukda kisisney rakh diya hai. Kitna ujjal hai woh nakhun.... Kya usiko chaand kehetey hai? Toh baaki ka ansh kahan gaya? Sirf itna hi kyu dikh raha hai.... Shayad baaki ka ansh andherey ne apney undar samaa liya hai.
- accha? Chaand male hai ya female? Maine poocha maya se. Maya hairaan hokar mujhey dekhkar boli - kya matlab?
Main- kuch log kehetey hai chanda mama.. Toh koi khetey hai chandrama.... Kaunsa sahi hai?
Maya muskurake boli - chand sirf chaand hai... Hum kyu uskey astitva ko lekar zyada janne ki koshish karu? Sab kuch samajh pana asaan nahi.... Kabhi kabhi bahut mushkil hota hai.... Kabhi kabhi sabkuch samajhna chahiye bhi nahi. Kuch baat anjaana rehna hai sahi hota hai. Chand mard ya aurat jo bhi ho.... Woh hai... Kya yahi bari baat nahi? Sab sawal ka jawab mat dhoondo.
Main maya ke taraf dekhkar bola- iska jawab bhi tumney nahi diya...... Jaise us sawal ka jawab bhi nahi deti.
- please Tanmay.... Mat poocho woh firse....
Main chup ho gaya. Firsey hum dono chup.... Charo taraf shaanti. Dursey raat keerey ki awaz aa rahi hai. Kuttey ki aaaaauuuuuuuuu awaz bhi kabhi kabhi sunaai de rahi hai. Lekin mujhey bilkul darr nahi lag raha. Pehley raat mein bahut darr lagta tha... Akeley mein... Lekin ab nahi lagta. Raat ko mummy papa dadaji sab so jaaney ke baad main yaha aakar akeley baithta hu. Maya bhi akaar baithti hai mere paas. Hum dono baat kartey huye ek dusrey mein kho jaatey hai... Lekin sirf baat karne ke liye hi nahi..... Ek aur kaam bhi hota hai hum dono ka.... Woh kaam ko karna bhi zaruri hai.
Maine maya ke taraf dekhkar poocha - Maya? Tumhey thand nahi lagta kya?
Maya apna sar idhar udhar hilakey Nahi ka ishara karkey merey taraf dekhkar boli- tumhe thandi lag rahi hai... Haina? Jhoot mat bolna....
Main muskurake- haa... Thoda thoda.. Waise... Tum agar chaho toh thandee kam ho sakti hai... Jaanti ho na kaise?
Maya mujhey halka sa mukka markey boli - badmaash.... Hamesha shararat ghumta hai deemag mein haina?
Maya ka yeh sharmila roop jab bhi dekhta hoon.... Mujhey ajeeb sa uttejna hota hai.... Ismein koi hawas nahi hai... Sirf ek pyar chupa hota hai. Uski har ek muskaan, uska sparsh merey dil ka dhadkan aur badaa deta hai. Shayad isiliye kyunki merey pyaar mein koi jhoot nahi hai..... Dilse nikla hua ek ehsaas hai. Usdin bhi is ladki se mohabbat thi.... Aaj bhi hai.... Hamesha rahegi.
Usko pyar bhari nigaahon se dekh raha hoon dekhkar Maya boli- mujhey aise maat dekho Tanmay....
Main- mujhey galat mat samjho Maya.... Main tumhey galat nazar se nahi dekh raha tha.
Maya- tumhe woh bataane ki zarurat nahi Tanmay.... Main tumhey jaanti hoon... Shayad tumse bhi zyada.
Main- toh mujhey dekhney ko manaa kyu kiya?
Maya - woh pyaar bhari nigaah main sahen nahi kar pata.. Harbaar kamzor par jataa hoon..... Aise mat dekho mujhey
Main - sorry...... Main yeh nahi kar sakta... Tumhey dekhna bandh nahi kar sakta... Main aise hi tumhe dekhta tha.... Main aise hi tumhe dekhunga.
Maya haskar boli - dekhunga... Matlab future... Accha yeh vabishya kya hai?
Ek anjana rahasya... Jisko bartaman mein hum sirf soch saktey hai.... Us future ke liye hum aajse plan kar saktey hai.... Lekin bus yahi tak.... Uske ilawa humarey haat mein kuch nahi hota. Humara plan humara iccha... Humara yakeen bus aajtak hai... Kal kisiko pata nahi.
Main- baat toh sahi kahaan maya.... Toh humarey haat mein kya hai?
Maya boli - aaj... Yeh samay... Yeh pal.... Bus itna hi.
Main sar hilakey bola - uhu..... Mere paas iskey ilawa bhi kuch aur hai
Maya- kya?
Maya ko pyar se apney taraf kheeckey uske sar pe pyaar se kiss karkey maine kahaan- tum... Tum ho merey paas.... Hamesha ke liye.... Kal... Aaj bhi... Aur agey bhi.
Maya ke aankhon mein aansu aa gaye. Mujhey pakar ke merey kandhey pe sar rakh diya. Mai uske muh apney taraf karkey uski khoobsurat chehrey ko dekhne laga. Mayabi woh aankhein, gulab jaise honth, resham se zulfein. Achanak ek gaana yaad aaya mujhey-
Hum dono apney banayi hui choti si kalpanik duniya mein jaise kho gaye. Us duniya ke undar ke hum do prani tab pyaar mein dubey huye. Bus..... Humara ekant ka samay... Bus hum dono.... Aur koi nahi wahan.
Maya mujhey boli- ab so jao.... Mujhey bhi jana hai... Mera kaam baaki hai.
Main- jaana zaruri hai?
Maya hairan hokar boli - kyu luch rahey ho aaj? Ekdin tumne bhi toh rotey huye bola tha iskey aakhir tak tum merey sath rahogey.... Iska anth dekhkar rahogey... Toh aaj yeh sawal kyu?
Main - darr lagta hai maya.... Nahi apney liye nahi..... Tumharey liye. Is jung mein lartey lartey kahin tumbhi na badal jao.
Maya - chinta maat karo Tanmay..... Badalney ke liye aur kuch bhi baaki nahi hai mujhmey..... Jo bhi tha tum peheley hi badal chukey ho. Peheley mujhme sirf aag thi.... Ab pyaar bhi hai. Kitna ajeeb haina? 2 opposite power eksath merey under present hai. Ek taraf nafrat.... Dusri taraf pyaar. Ghabrao mat.... Bus aakhri kaam baaki hai... Jo aaj khatam ho jayega. Woh nafraat bhi khatam ho jatega.... Fir.... Bus pyaar hi rahega mere under. Is jung mein hun hi jeeteengey. Lo ab aankh bandh karo... Mujhey aoney paas aane do.... Tumharey aur paas aaney do.... Tumharey under aaney do.... Dono atma ko milney do....... So jao.... So jao..... So jao.....
Do jism jaise ek ho Gaye. Uskey baad mujhey kuch yaad nahi. Bus neend.... Gehri neend mein dub gaya main. Neend jab toota tab main apney kamrey mein tha. Merey chaati pe sar rakhkey Maya soyi hui. Uski thandi haat mere baalon se khel rahi hai.
Isbaar kaise kiya Maya? Maine poocha
Maya ke aankhein bandh thi. Waise hi muskuraakey boli - peheley uskey pet mein chaku daal diya... Khoon hi khoon.... Fir bar bar chaku ke war se khatam kar diya uska jeevan.... Uskey us ghinona ang ko bhi kaat dala..... Woh layaak nahi us body part ka. Bar bar mujhse maafi maang raha tha kaminaa... Lekin uska jiv bhi.....
Bus..... Bus Maya bus...!! Aur kuch nahi sunna hai mujhey!! Ufffff main aur kuch nahi sun sakta maya..... Chup ho jao...!!
Maya chup ho gayi. Aur kuch nahi bola usney. Sirf soyi rahi mere upar. Thodi der baad uskey poocha - kyu tum mujhse darrtey ho Tanmay?
Main- nahi.... Thoda sa bhi nahi.... Kyu daru? Apney pyaar se koi darrta thodi hai? Main darrta tha tumharey under ke us aag se... Us nafraat se.. Kahin woh aag tumhein bhi badal na de... Ekdin woh aag merey under bhi tha..... Aaj woh thanda ho gaya.....aakhri kamina bhi aaj khatam ho gaya..... Do ko toh pehley hi khatam kar diya tha humney.... Aj aakri haramzada bhi khatam. Ab baaki raha sirf pyaar... Usi ko apnaakey jee lengey baaki ke samay.
Maya hasney lagi.... Maine poocha - has kyu rahi ho maya?
Maya- nahi kuch nahi.... Bus woh jee lengey sunkar hasi aa gayi. Jeena kya hota hai? Heartbeat chalna? Uskey bina bhi kya hum jee nahhi saktey? Main toh jee rahi hu.... Bina dhadkan ke.
Main- aaj jab sab khatam ho gaya hai.... Toh woh sawal poocho? Please aaj jawab dena tum..... Main bhi toh ek aadmi hu..... Ek admi ke jism mein jojo hota hai... Woh sab merey under bhi hai.... Jaise un kamino ke jism mein tha... Toh tum mujhey unsey alag kaise dekhti ho.....
Maya mujhey dekhtey huye kathor awaz mein boli - kabhi bhi aisa mat bolna tum..... Khudko un janwaron se compare kaise kar saktey ho tum? Arey kahan tum aur kahan woh ghinoney keerey!! Haa tum bhi ek mard ho..... Ek admi... Lekin tumharey under ka mard pyaar karna janta hai, izzat karna janta hai.... Lekin un kamino ke under sirf jism ja bhookh tha.... Hawas... Sirf hawas...... Tum mujhey apna pyaar samajhtey ho..... Aur un logo ke liye main bus ek khilona.... Raat ka shikaar thi... Aaj main hi unka shikaar karkey aayi. Un logon ke liye aurat ko nasht karna... Uskey izzat se khelna hi mardaani ki nishani thi.... Isliye un sab ke us nishaani ko... Us body part ko sharir se alag kar diya kaat ke!! Lekin tumharey jism mein jo ansh hai woh pyar karna janta hai Tanmay.... Tumharey under jo uttejana hai usmein koi gandagi nagi hai.... Pyar ka ek charam roop hota hai milan...... Humara milan utna hi pavitra tha jitna humari dosti. Tumney hamesha mujhey pyar kiya hai. Aaj bhi kartey ho... Kaal bhi kartey thei. Ek mard ek aurat ke liye jitna akarshit hota hai woh tumharey under bhi tha... Lekin usmein bhi kitna pyar chupa tha main jaanti hu. Agar woh pyar saccha nahi hota toh usdin tum rotey nahi..... Merey us shaant aur hamesha ke liye soya hua jism ko waise dekhkar fut futkey rotey nahi.... Usdin tumhey rota hua dekhkar mujhey kitna dard ho raha tha main hi jaanti hu.... Utna dard toh shayad jab woh 3 shaitan mujhey khatam kar rahe thei tab bhi nahi hua tha.
Mere chaati pe kiss karkey Maya boli - sabkuch humarey soch pe nirvar karta hai Tanmay.... Hum kya choose karengey? Kiska paksh lengey... Kamvasna se kamzor hokar usko apney upar charney dekar.... Insaniyaat bhoolkey dusrey jism ke sath khelengey aur hawas ka shikar banayengey..... Ya fir khud ka parwa naa kartey huye dusrey kisi ka zindagi ko rakshya karengey..... Nasha dono mein hai.... Ek nasha barbaad karta hai... Toh dusra abaad. Ek tabah karta hai... Dusra nayi zindagi deta hai. Ab kis nasha ko hum chunengey teh hum par hai. Jitna bhi bara lalaach ho.... Agar hum khudko control kar paaye toh har lalaach ko hum muh tod jawab de saktey hai..... Unko dikha saktey hai pyaar ki taqaat kya hoti hai. Is pyaar ki shakti ko main jaanti hu... Dekho na.... Ab mujh mein sirf ek hi ehsaaas bacha hua hai..... Pyaar. Yeh maya ab ek hi chehra pehechanti hai.... Tumko. Main zinda na hokar bhi zinda hoon... Tumharey under. Tumney mujhey zinda rakkha hai. Ekdin maine tumhey galat samjha tha.... Aaj janti hoon tum mujhey kitna chahtey ho..... Lekin.....lekin aaj shayaad bahut der ho gayi.
Maine Maya ke haat ko chumkey bola- nahi Maya.... Kuch deri nahi hui hai. Har pyaar ka pariksha jismaani hona chahiye aisa kisney bola hai? Humarey is pariksha mein hum puri tarah safal huye hai. Isliye toh hum aaj dur hokey bhi kitney paas hai. Ab aise hi hamesha mere paas rehena... Bus aur kuch nahi chahiye mujhey. Woh din bhi ayega jab koi bhi jismaani bandhan nahi rehega.... Usko tod ke main bhi tumhari tarah mukt ho jaunga.... Tab main bhi puri tarah tumhare jaise ho jaunga.... Hum ek ho jayengey... Lekin tab tak..... Mere paas rehena... Hum jeeyengey ek dusrey ke liye.
Maya ke aankh mein khusi ke ansu the. Mere chaati pe sar rakhkey shaanti se so gayi woh. Main bhi Maya ke nangi.... Khoon se latpat jism ko chadaar se dhak diya aur pakar ke so gaya. Is jism ko jin logoney nasht kiya tha.. Aaj woh sab ke sab khatam ho gaye. Jism ka matlab kiskey liye kya hota hai mujhey nahi malum, main sirf itna janta hu mujhey pakar ke jo ladki nischint hokar so rahi hai... Woh sabse pavitra hai. Ek muskaan khil utha merey chehre par.... Aj... Phir se woh pyaar ka ehsaas ho raha hai. Tujhko class mein pehlibaar dekhke jagey thei mere armaan... Aaj.....Main woh chaand jiska tere bin na koi aasmaan.
Mera aur tumhara woh pehla mulaqat main aaj bhi nahi bhool sakta. Kaun bolega yeh jo ladka chair pe baithey tumhara intezar kar raha hai.... Jo ek darpok, shaant swavab ka ladka hai usiko ekdin tumney galat samjhi thi. Woh thappar ki goonj aaj bhi sunaai deti hai. Tumney socha tha ke main tumhe irritate kar raha tha.... Pagli thi ek number ki. Lekin ekdin tumhe galti ka ehsaas hua aur tumney maafi bhi mangi thi. Lekin jo bhi ho... Woh thappar hi jaise mere liye ek alag dard ban gaya tha. Aur woh dard kab chahaat mein badal gaya pata hi nahi chala mujhey. Aakhir ekdin tumney bhi dosti ka haat baraya aur maine bhi. Aaj bhi humari woh dosti atoot hai. Balki yeh bolna sahi hoga ke woh dosti aur gehri hui hai har ek din. Main yahi sab soch mein duba hua hoon ke tabhi-
- To yahan hain janab?
Peechey mudkey dekha toh Maya mere peehey hi thi. Main muskurake bola- haa ji... Main toh bahut der se aapka intezar kar raha hu... Lekin aap kahan thi madam? Aaj itni der ho gayi? Maya bhi muskuraakey merey paas akaar baith gayi. Mere bahut paas. Uski woh asadharan roop jaise merey purey balcony ko aur roshan karne lagi. Ab koi andhera nahi, sirf ujala charo taraf.
Maine kahan- tumharey baarein mein hi soch raha tha.
Maya- accha?
Main- hummm... Actually... Humarey barein mein... So... Aaj itna late kaise ho gayi?
Maya mujhey dekhtey huye boli- main toh bahut peheley hi aa gayi thi.
Main hairan ho gaya. Poocha- toh? Abtak kahan thi? Yaha aayi kyu nahi?
Maya muskuraake boli - tumhey dur se dekh rahi thi.
Main- dursey? Kyun? Roz toh mujhey aise paas se dekhti ho... Toh aaj durse kyu?
Apni mayabi aankhon ko ab mujhsey churaakey boli- dekh rahi thi... Apney sabsey kareeb ke insaan ko dur se kaisa lagtaa hai? Tumnne kabhi mujhey dur se nahi dekha?
Main haskar bola- haaa.... Kayi baar.... Jab pehlibaar tumne sataaak karkey thappar mara tha.... Usdin ke baad har roz chup chup ke tumhe dur se dekhta tha.... Jab tum muskuraake doston se baat karne mein mashgul rehti thi... Tab bhi dur se tumnhe dekhta tha..... Jab hum dost baney aur tum class mein mera intezaar karti thi... Tab bhi tumhe dur se dekhta tha. Aaj bhi jab tum soyi rehti ho.... Tab dur se tumko dekhta hoon. Sochta hoon kabhi kabhi ke paas chala jau tumharey.... Lekin tum aaney hi nahi deti.... Mujhey rokti kyun ho tumharey paas aaney se?
Maya ne apna sar merey kandhey pe rakh diya. Roshni ke saath ek madhosh kar dene wali ek sugandh aa rahi hai maya ke jism se. Kahan milta hai aisa sugandh wali perfume? Pata nahi mujhey... Its heavenly beautiful.
Asmaan ke taraf hum dono hi dekh rahe hai. Raat ke andherey wali asmaan mein jaise koi ek nakhun ka tukda kisisney rakh diya hai. Kitna ujjal hai woh nakhun.... Kya usiko chaand kehetey hai? Toh baaki ka ansh kahan gaya? Sirf itna hi kyu dikh raha hai.... Shayad baaki ka ansh andherey ne apney undar samaa liya hai.
- accha? Chaand male hai ya female? Maine poocha maya se. Maya hairaan hokar mujhey dekhkar boli - kya matlab?
Main- kuch log kehetey hai chanda mama.. Toh koi khetey hai chandrama.... Kaunsa sahi hai?
Maya muskurake boli - chand sirf chaand hai... Hum kyu uskey astitva ko lekar zyada janne ki koshish karu? Sab kuch samajh pana asaan nahi.... Kabhi kabhi bahut mushkil hota hai.... Kabhi kabhi sabkuch samajhna chahiye bhi nahi. Kuch baat anjaana rehna hai sahi hota hai. Chand mard ya aurat jo bhi ho.... Woh hai... Kya yahi bari baat nahi? Sab sawal ka jawab mat dhoondo.
Main maya ke taraf dekhkar bola- iska jawab bhi tumney nahi diya...... Jaise us sawal ka jawab bhi nahi deti.
- please Tanmay.... Mat poocho woh firse....
Main chup ho gaya. Firsey hum dono chup.... Charo taraf shaanti. Dursey raat keerey ki awaz aa rahi hai. Kuttey ki aaaaauuuuuuuuu awaz bhi kabhi kabhi sunaai de rahi hai. Lekin mujhey bilkul darr nahi lag raha. Pehley raat mein bahut darr lagta tha... Akeley mein... Lekin ab nahi lagta. Raat ko mummy papa dadaji sab so jaaney ke baad main yaha aakar akeley baithta hu. Maya bhi akaar baithti hai mere paas. Hum dono baat kartey huye ek dusrey mein kho jaatey hai... Lekin sirf baat karne ke liye hi nahi..... Ek aur kaam bhi hota hai hum dono ka.... Woh kaam ko karna bhi zaruri hai.
Maine maya ke taraf dekhkar poocha - Maya? Tumhey thand nahi lagta kya?
Maya apna sar idhar udhar hilakey Nahi ka ishara karkey merey taraf dekhkar boli- tumhe thandi lag rahi hai... Haina? Jhoot mat bolna....
Main muskurake- haa... Thoda thoda.. Waise... Tum agar chaho toh thandee kam ho sakti hai... Jaanti ho na kaise?
Maya mujhey halka sa mukka markey boli - badmaash.... Hamesha shararat ghumta hai deemag mein haina?
Maya ka yeh sharmila roop jab bhi dekhta hoon.... Mujhey ajeeb sa uttejna hota hai.... Ismein koi hawas nahi hai... Sirf ek pyar chupa hota hai. Uski har ek muskaan, uska sparsh merey dil ka dhadkan aur badaa deta hai. Shayad isiliye kyunki merey pyaar mein koi jhoot nahi hai..... Dilse nikla hua ek ehsaas hai. Usdin bhi is ladki se mohabbat thi.... Aaj bhi hai.... Hamesha rahegi.
Usko pyar bhari nigaahon se dekh raha hoon dekhkar Maya boli- mujhey aise maat dekho Tanmay....
Main- mujhey galat mat samjho Maya.... Main tumhey galat nazar se nahi dekh raha tha.
Maya- tumhe woh bataane ki zarurat nahi Tanmay.... Main tumhey jaanti hoon... Shayad tumse bhi zyada.
Main- toh mujhey dekhney ko manaa kyu kiya?
Maya - woh pyaar bhari nigaah main sahen nahi kar pata.. Harbaar kamzor par jataa hoon..... Aise mat dekho mujhey
Main - sorry...... Main yeh nahi kar sakta... Tumhey dekhna bandh nahi kar sakta... Main aise hi tumhe dekhta tha.... Main aise hi tumhe dekhunga.
Maya haskar boli - dekhunga... Matlab future... Accha yeh vabishya kya hai?
Ek anjana rahasya... Jisko bartaman mein hum sirf soch saktey hai.... Us future ke liye hum aajse plan kar saktey hai.... Lekin bus yahi tak.... Uske ilawa humarey haat mein kuch nahi hota. Humara plan humara iccha... Humara yakeen bus aajtak hai... Kal kisiko pata nahi.
Main- baat toh sahi kahaan maya.... Toh humarey haat mein kya hai?
Maya boli - aaj... Yeh samay... Yeh pal.... Bus itna hi.
Main sar hilakey bola - uhu..... Mere paas iskey ilawa bhi kuch aur hai
Maya- kya?
Maya ko pyar se apney taraf kheeckey uske sar pe pyaar se kiss karkey maine kahaan- tum... Tum ho merey paas.... Hamesha ke liye.... Kal... Aaj bhi... Aur agey bhi.
Maya ke aankhon mein aansu aa gaye. Mujhey pakar ke merey kandhey pe sar rakh diya. Mai uske muh apney taraf karkey uski khoobsurat chehrey ko dekhne laga. Mayabi woh aankhein, gulab jaise honth, resham se zulfein. Achanak ek gaana yaad aaya mujhey-
Nind bhee lut lee, chain bhee le liya
Aap kaa, aap ke pyar kaa shukriya
Aap se hai hame yeh gila, o piya
Jan kyun chhod dee, le liya jab jiya
Ham aap me kuchh hogaya,
Kuchh mil gaya, kuchh kho gaya
Jo chahe tum isse man lo,
Lekin suno yeh jan lo
Ham tumpe marte hain
Ham tumpe marte hain
Aap kaa, aap ke pyar kaa shukriya
Aap se hai hame yeh gila, o piya
Jan kyun chhod dee, le liya jab jiya
Ham aap me kuchh hogaya,
Kuchh mil gaya, kuchh kho gaya
Jo chahe tum isse man lo,
Lekin suno yeh jan lo
Ham tumpe marte hain
Ham tumpe marte hain
Hum dono apney banayi hui choti si kalpanik duniya mein jaise kho gaye. Us duniya ke undar ke hum do prani tab pyaar mein dubey huye. Bus..... Humara ekant ka samay... Bus hum dono.... Aur koi nahi wahan.
Maya mujhey boli- ab so jao.... Mujhey bhi jana hai... Mera kaam baaki hai.
Main- jaana zaruri hai?
Maya hairan hokar boli - kyu luch rahey ho aaj? Ekdin tumne bhi toh rotey huye bola tha iskey aakhir tak tum merey sath rahogey.... Iska anth dekhkar rahogey... Toh aaj yeh sawal kyu?
Main - darr lagta hai maya.... Nahi apney liye nahi..... Tumharey liye. Is jung mein lartey lartey kahin tumbhi na badal jao.
Maya - chinta maat karo Tanmay..... Badalney ke liye aur kuch bhi baaki nahi hai mujhmey..... Jo bhi tha tum peheley hi badal chukey ho. Peheley mujhme sirf aag thi.... Ab pyaar bhi hai. Kitna ajeeb haina? 2 opposite power eksath merey under present hai. Ek taraf nafrat.... Dusri taraf pyaar. Ghabrao mat.... Bus aakhri kaam baaki hai... Jo aaj khatam ho jayega. Woh nafraat bhi khatam ho jatega.... Fir.... Bus pyaar hi rahega mere under. Is jung mein hun hi jeeteengey. Lo ab aankh bandh karo... Mujhey aoney paas aane do.... Tumharey aur paas aaney do.... Tumharey under aaney do.... Dono atma ko milney do....... So jao.... So jao..... So jao.....
Do jism jaise ek ho Gaye. Uskey baad mujhey kuch yaad nahi. Bus neend.... Gehri neend mein dub gaya main. Neend jab toota tab main apney kamrey mein tha. Merey chaati pe sar rakhkey Maya soyi hui. Uski thandi haat mere baalon se khel rahi hai.
Isbaar kaise kiya Maya? Maine poocha
Maya ke aankhein bandh thi. Waise hi muskuraakey boli - peheley uskey pet mein chaku daal diya... Khoon hi khoon.... Fir bar bar chaku ke war se khatam kar diya uska jeevan.... Uskey us ghinona ang ko bhi kaat dala..... Woh layaak nahi us body part ka. Bar bar mujhse maafi maang raha tha kaminaa... Lekin uska jiv bhi.....
Bus..... Bus Maya bus...!! Aur kuch nahi sunna hai mujhey!! Ufffff main aur kuch nahi sun sakta maya..... Chup ho jao...!!
Maya chup ho gayi. Aur kuch nahi bola usney. Sirf soyi rahi mere upar. Thodi der baad uskey poocha - kyu tum mujhse darrtey ho Tanmay?
Main- nahi.... Thoda sa bhi nahi.... Kyu daru? Apney pyaar se koi darrta thodi hai? Main darrta tha tumharey under ke us aag se... Us nafraat se.. Kahin woh aag tumhein bhi badal na de... Ekdin woh aag merey under bhi tha..... Aaj woh thanda ho gaya.....aakhri kamina bhi aaj khatam ho gaya..... Do ko toh pehley hi khatam kar diya tha humney.... Aj aakri haramzada bhi khatam. Ab baaki raha sirf pyaar... Usi ko apnaakey jee lengey baaki ke samay.
Maya hasney lagi.... Maine poocha - has kyu rahi ho maya?
Maya- nahi kuch nahi.... Bus woh jee lengey sunkar hasi aa gayi. Jeena kya hota hai? Heartbeat chalna? Uskey bina bhi kya hum jee nahhi saktey? Main toh jee rahi hu.... Bina dhadkan ke.
Main- aaj jab sab khatam ho gaya hai.... Toh woh sawal poocho? Please aaj jawab dena tum..... Main bhi toh ek aadmi hu..... Ek admi ke jism mein jojo hota hai... Woh sab merey under bhi hai.... Jaise un kamino ke jism mein tha... Toh tum mujhey unsey alag kaise dekhti ho.....
Maya mujhey dekhtey huye kathor awaz mein boli - kabhi bhi aisa mat bolna tum..... Khudko un janwaron se compare kaise kar saktey ho tum? Arey kahan tum aur kahan woh ghinoney keerey!! Haa tum bhi ek mard ho..... Ek admi... Lekin tumharey under ka mard pyaar karna janta hai, izzat karna janta hai.... Lekin un kamino ke under sirf jism ja bhookh tha.... Hawas... Sirf hawas...... Tum mujhey apna pyaar samajhtey ho..... Aur un logo ke liye main bus ek khilona.... Raat ka shikaar thi... Aaj main hi unka shikaar karkey aayi. Un logon ke liye aurat ko nasht karna... Uskey izzat se khelna hi mardaani ki nishani thi.... Isliye un sab ke us nishaani ko... Us body part ko sharir se alag kar diya kaat ke!! Lekin tumharey jism mein jo ansh hai woh pyar karna janta hai Tanmay.... Tumharey under jo uttejana hai usmein koi gandagi nagi hai.... Pyar ka ek charam roop hota hai milan...... Humara milan utna hi pavitra tha jitna humari dosti. Tumney hamesha mujhey pyar kiya hai. Aaj bhi kartey ho... Kaal bhi kartey thei. Ek mard ek aurat ke liye jitna akarshit hota hai woh tumharey under bhi tha... Lekin usmein bhi kitna pyar chupa tha main jaanti hu. Agar woh pyar saccha nahi hota toh usdin tum rotey nahi..... Merey us shaant aur hamesha ke liye soya hua jism ko waise dekhkar fut futkey rotey nahi.... Usdin tumhey rota hua dekhkar mujhey kitna dard ho raha tha main hi jaanti hu.... Utna dard toh shayad jab woh 3 shaitan mujhey khatam kar rahe thei tab bhi nahi hua tha.
Mere chaati pe kiss karkey Maya boli - sabkuch humarey soch pe nirvar karta hai Tanmay.... Hum kya choose karengey? Kiska paksh lengey... Kamvasna se kamzor hokar usko apney upar charney dekar.... Insaniyaat bhoolkey dusrey jism ke sath khelengey aur hawas ka shikar banayengey..... Ya fir khud ka parwa naa kartey huye dusrey kisi ka zindagi ko rakshya karengey..... Nasha dono mein hai.... Ek nasha barbaad karta hai... Toh dusra abaad. Ek tabah karta hai... Dusra nayi zindagi deta hai. Ab kis nasha ko hum chunengey teh hum par hai. Jitna bhi bara lalaach ho.... Agar hum khudko control kar paaye toh har lalaach ko hum muh tod jawab de saktey hai..... Unko dikha saktey hai pyaar ki taqaat kya hoti hai. Is pyaar ki shakti ko main jaanti hu... Dekho na.... Ab mujh mein sirf ek hi ehsaaas bacha hua hai..... Pyaar. Yeh maya ab ek hi chehra pehechanti hai.... Tumko. Main zinda na hokar bhi zinda hoon... Tumharey under. Tumney mujhey zinda rakkha hai. Ekdin maine tumhey galat samjha tha.... Aaj janti hoon tum mujhey kitna chahtey ho..... Lekin.....lekin aaj shayaad bahut der ho gayi.
Maine Maya ke haat ko chumkey bola- nahi Maya.... Kuch deri nahi hui hai. Har pyaar ka pariksha jismaani hona chahiye aisa kisney bola hai? Humarey is pariksha mein hum puri tarah safal huye hai. Isliye toh hum aaj dur hokey bhi kitney paas hai. Ab aise hi hamesha mere paas rehena... Bus aur kuch nahi chahiye mujhey. Woh din bhi ayega jab koi bhi jismaani bandhan nahi rehega.... Usko tod ke main bhi tumhari tarah mukt ho jaunga.... Tab main bhi puri tarah tumhare jaise ho jaunga.... Hum ek ho jayengey... Lekin tab tak..... Mere paas rehena... Hum jeeyengey ek dusrey ke liye.
Maya ke aankh mein khusi ke ansu the. Mere chaati pe sar rakhkey shaanti se so gayi woh. Main bhi Maya ke nangi.... Khoon se latpat jism ko chadaar se dhak diya aur pakar ke so gaya. Is jism ko jin logoney nasht kiya tha.. Aaj woh sab ke sab khatam ho gaye. Jism ka matlab kiskey liye kya hota hai mujhey nahi malum, main sirf itna janta hu mujhey pakar ke jo ladki nischint hokar so rahi hai... Woh sabse pavitra hai. Ek muskaan khil utha merey chehre par.... Aj... Phir se woh pyaar ka ehsaas ho raha hai. Tujhko class mein pehlibaar dekhke jagey thei mere armaan... Aaj.....Main woh chaand jiska tere bin na koi aasmaan.
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