Epi --- 2
maa adhik dukh ke chalte rone lagi. mujhe dekh ansu bahane lagi.
mai chup raha. maa ka rona mujhe mere dil ko dard de raha tha. par mai kar bhi kyaa sakta tha. sab hi ek ek karke pagal hote ja rahe the. aur mere pass paise hi nahi the. pahle hi sab gurbat ki life ji rahe the. dada jan mar chuke the, pita ji aur taya ji bimar rahne lage the pichhel kuch saalon se. fir bhi mahnat kar rahe the. aur ghar chala rahe the. taya ke do bete the, mera ek bada bhai tha. mere siva saare pichhle 10 saalon mein ek ek karke bimar hokar mar gaye the. dada jaan bhi 8 saal pahle edhiyan ragad ragad kar chal base the.
mere akela hi padh likh raha tha. apne parivar ke dukhon ka ilaj talash karna chahta tha. uske liye dher sara paisa chahiye the. aur paisa kamane ke liye mujhe ache marks lene the. padh likh kar qaabil banna tha.
aur maa mujhe aur hi raah sujhaaye ja rahi thi.
maa kuch der dukh se ansu bahati rahi. fir bina ansu saaf kiye roti hui boli
maa.. tu iklota beta ha hamara. iklota bhai hai tu hamari betiyon ka. teri 2 maaen han. 7 bahne hai teri. ek boodhi dadi hai teri karan bete. sab ne khud ko bhuka rakh kar tera pet bhara hai. tere sukhon ke liye, teri sahat ke liye, teri padhai ke liye jis se jitna ho saka, usne utna kiya. koi ahsan nahi kia kisi ne tujhpar. prem karte hain hum sab tujhse. tu iklota hi kul sansaar hai hamara. hamare jeene ki aas hai tu karan beta. tu hi humen dukh dega. tu bhi mujhe pagal kahega. arre pagal to shrap ne sabko karna shuru kar dia hai. ek bhi shabd maine jhut bola ho na to abhi ke abhi mujhe maut aa jaaye.
aur main maa ke moh se marne ki baat par tadap utha. maa ko jhat apne gale se laga gaya
mai sisak pada tha.. mujhe shama kar do maa. maine aap ka dil dukhaya. main bhi din raat aap sabhi ki sukhon ke liye vicharon mein vyast hon. din raat mann laga kar padh raha hon. dukh hota hai mujhe ap sab ko aise jeete dekh kar. par kuch bhi to mere hath mein nahi hai maa. kyaa galat kaha maine. sach hi to kaha tha. sab ek ek karke pagal hoti ja rahi hain. aap bhi aisi hi baaten karogi na maa. to aap se pahle main pagal ho jaaunga. nahi dekha jata mujhse kisi ka bhi dard. pahle hi bohut tadap raha hon. upar se aaj ki aap ki harkat aur fir pagalpanti se bhari dastan
maa.. kasam khaa chuki hon beta. ek ek shabd sach hai.
mai.. kaise maan lon maa. bhala aaj ke zamane mein bhi aisa sambhav hai. maa sivaye pagalpanti ke ye kuch nahi hai
maa.. meri kasam khaa lene se bhi tu ise meri pagalpanti kahega
mai.. maa koi aur baat karo aap plz. mujhe aisi baaten nahi sunni hai maa. mujhe padh likh kar bada admi banna hai maa. aap sab ke liye khushiyan kharidni hain mujhe maa. aap sab ke siva mujhe bass ek aur chiz chahiye. wo hai naina. maa aap kaho to main naina ko bhi bhul jaaunga. waise bhi silent love kar raha hon. chup chaap side ho jaaunga. aap sab se badhkar koi nahi hai mere liye.
maa mere gaal par hath fer boli.. naina ke baare mein main bhi to utna hi janti hon jitna mera karan jaanta hai. zarur naina bohut payari larki hogi. jo mere bete ke dil par kabza kar gai. mai nahi chahti mere bete ko uski naina na mile. par beta tu naina ko chhode bina bhi to hamare liye sabhi khushiyan daan kar sakta hai. bina paise ke hi bhagwan ne sara bandobast kar dia hai
mai maa ko ghorta hua.. kyaa matlab aap ka maa
aur maa bina jhijhak ke mere laude ko pakad boli.. ye hai.
mai jhatka khate hue uth khada hua
mujhe firse ghussa aane laga tha.. maa aap ki ye baat mujhse sari sahnshakti chheen legi. aap plz aisi baat mat kariye.
maa.. isse badhkar khushi dene wali koi aur chiz ha na baat.
mai chilla pada.. maaaaaaaaaaa
maa dono hath jod gai.. dekh teri bahno ko tere siva koi chhoo bhi nahi sakta. wo umar bhar kunwari aur bin biyahi rahengi. tu hi woh hai, jo unhe sacha sukh de sakta hai. shreer prem se badhkar kuch aur nahi hai is sansar mein
mai guse se pagal hone laga. aur maa aisi hi baaten karti chali gai. maa nahi ruki. bar bar shabd aur andaz badal badal kar rote hue hath jod kar, fir mere pairon ko pakad kar meri minnaten karne lagi
aur main pahli baar out of control ho gaya. dekha to pita ji ankhon mein ansu liye mujhe dekh rahe the. ye bhi shukar tha meri bahno ka room end wala tha. wahan tak awaz jani sambhv to thi par mentally disturb rahti thi. aksar nind ki talbet le ke soya karti thi.
mai khub maa aur pita ji par chillaya. fir mere liye ghar par thaharna mumkin nahi raha. aur mai ghar se nikal pada. adhi raat ke bad main pahli baar ghar se nikla tha
maa aur pita ji dono bahri darwaze tak mere peeche aaye the. maine mud kar dono ko gusse se dekha. dono hath jod roti ankhon se mujhe dekhne lage
mai dono ko dekh sir jhatakta hua ek side chal pada. ganv se bahar to main jane se raha. maa aur pita ji bhi samjhte the. mere peeche nahi aaye. bass der tak darwaze par khade hokar mujhe dekhte rahe.
bohut aage badh kar main bar bar mud mud kar unhe dekhta raha tha. mere andr jaise tufaan aaye hue the.
ek jagah ruk kar dono ko der tak dekhta raha.. fir wahi ek jaga beth gaya. dono kuch der darwaze par rahe. fir andr chale gaye.
mai sir jhukaye betha raha. maa ka bar bar kasam khana, mere pairon se lipat kar duhaai dene mujhse hosh chheene ja raha tha. bar bar naina ka chahra bhi ankhon ke saamne aane laga tha.
jane kyun mujhe lagne laga tha. naina mujhe milne se pahle hi mujhse chhin rahi thi. aur mera dil jaise koi muthi mein liye zor se bheenchne laga.
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