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Romance Usski Gali Mein Jaana Chorr Diya (Exclusively For XForum) COMPLETED

Komal singh

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Mehboob aur mummy ne mujhko bahot sunaya uss raat ko…. Din mein aap se mili aur jitna khush thi utna hi royi uss raat ko mummy ke aane ke baad. Mehboob aur mummy ne milkar mujhko samjhaya ke mujhko ab aap se door rehna chahiye aur Amit ke saath shaadi karke chale jaana chahiye….

Ab aaguey….

Ruhi ne llikhna Jaari rakha….

“Abhi magar ek baat thi jo aap ko unn dinon bilkool samajh mein nahin aya tha, wo yeh ke Mehboob mujhko istemaal kar raha tha aap se apne bus ke kaam niklawaane ke liye.

Yaad hai jiss din aap aur Saeed mein ladaayi hui thi, to Mehboob ne hi mujhe aap ko ek taraf lejaane ko kaha tha aap ko shant karne ke liye? That day was our first kiss day. Main aap ko ghar ke piche wale kone mein legayi thi….. Ussi din ko jab aap ghar wapas chale gaye the to Mehbob aya tha hamare yahan aur maa ke samne uss ne mujhe aap se meethi meethi baat karne ko, aap ko apne pyar mein uljhaane ko kaha tha, maa se bhi ussne kaha mujhko aap ke karib jaane dene ke liye, maa bhi mili hui thi Mehboob ke saath aap ko baandhne rakhne ke liye meri muhabat mein, donon ko pata chal chuka tha ke aap ko mujh se pyar ho gaya hai, Saeed ne shayad mehbob se keh diya tha ke aap aksar absent rehte ho, Mondays ho kaam par nahin aate ho to Mehboob ne kaha tha ke usska kaam delay hoga agar aap absent rahe to, kyunke aap sabse fast kaam karte the, Saeed se bhi ziada kaam karte the aap, to Mehboob ko aap ki zaroorat thi to ussne mujhse help maanga tha ke main aap ko lubhaoon, ke aap se baat karun ke main aap ko rijhaun taake aap har roz kaam par aaye!......... Magar Abhi main weisa kuch karna nahin chaahti thi, buss aap se batein karti thi, aap ke karib aati thi aur jiss din pehli bar aap ne mujhse kaha tha ke aap ke jaane ke waqt main kitchen ke chaukath par rahun uss din ko main ne Mehboob se keh diya tha ke aap ne weisa kaha hai, to wo khush hua tha aur uss ne bhi mujhko wohi karne ko kaha, ussne kaha dekho wo jaate hue tumko mudh kar dekhega, aashik hai to khush kardo, yahan khade rehne se tumhara kia jaata hai….

Abhi aap ko lubhaate lubhaate main khud aap se pyar kar baithi thi, aap mein kuch tha jo yahan kissi mein nahin tha, main Mehboob ke liye aap ko nahin rokti thi, main aap ko apne khud ke liye rokne lagi thi, jiss raat ko aap ko rehne ke liye kaha tha wo meri apni marzi thi, wo main chahti thi halaan ke Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap hamare ghar ruke hue ho aur aap samajh rahe the ke ussko nahin pata tha, ussko aur Rahima donon ko pata tha ke aap uss raat ko hamare yahan ruke ho….

Aap ko yeh bhi nahin pata ke Manoj ghussa hua tha aap ke rukne se jab aap nahane chale gaye the… aur ussi waqt Mehboob ne Manoj ko samjhaya tha ke Aap ko kuch nah kahein yeh uss ke kehne se meri maa ne aap ko rukne ko kaha…. Assal mein main ne aap ko roka tha uss raat ko. Dusre din Mehboob aur manoj mein behez hui thi iss baat ko lekar, manoj Mehboob se oonchi awaaz mein baat kiya tha aur ussko kaha tha ke agar aap ko ghar par rokna hai to wo aap ko apne ghar men rokein hamare yahan nahin.

Abhi aap ne yeh likha hai apne diary mein


{“I am waiting for that day when Ruhi will be here on this bed together with me and I will make her read all this. She will then read and know what I was going through the days I worked in her yard. Those were the most beautiful days of my life which I will never forget. I met love, I met the one I was waiting for, I met my soul mate in that yard. And I am grateful to God and my job. If I was not doing this job I would never have gone there, would have never known her, would have never met her….”}

To answer this Abhi I have to say that I have been the most unfortunate person to have lost you and your true love. You loved me so dearly with all your heart, you longed for me, you wanted me, but my love was fake in the beginning, I was playing with you for the sake of Mehboob, I was retaining you, but when I started liking you and wanted to be with you it seemed to be late, still I did try but they were stronger than me; my mother and Mehboob, they were the ones pulling the string, I was a mere puppet! …. You met love, you met your soul mate you have written but I did not deserve your true love Abhi, because YOUR love was sincere and TRUE whereas mine was fake… that is why the God whom you thanked, did not allow that to happen because the God knew I was fake and did not deserve your love!

Mere papa:

Aap ne pucha tha uss din jab papa ka phone aya tha ke wo kaisa inssaan hai. Main ne aap ko bataya tha ke wo makhan hai…. Sach mein wo weisa hi hai… uss ghar mein papa patni hai aur maa pati hai…..

Mere papa ek aisa insaan hai jo bachpan se jhuka raha hai… bahut khamosh, usski awaaz tak thik se sunaayi nahin dete…. Meri dadi ne bataya tha mujhe ke papa to itna Sharmila tha ke shaadi bhi nahin karna chahta tha…. he was too shy a peron.

Baad mein dada dadi ne usski shaadi karwa diye to maa mil gayi ussko aur jald hi maa ko pata chal gaya ke wo kaisa insaan hai so she started dominating papa and she had always been the head of the family not papa… papa was always too cool, silent, never raised his voice and mummy took advantage of his silence to dominate him….. papa was a person who could never take a decision, so his wife always decided and she ruled over him all her life. He is a very nice person indeed, but too cool and silent for a woman like my mother. My mother should never have been his wife.

Abhi jab maa nani ke yahan se wo news lekar aayi ke Amit 4 mahine baad ane wala hai mujh se shaadi karke mujhe apne saath lejaane ke liye, to sach kahun to mujhe wo chaka chaund, foreign desh, France, Paris, plane se safar karna, amir desh mein rehna yeh sab of course bahot assar kiya tha mujh par… aap ke aane se pehle main ussi sapne mein jine lagi thi ke mujhe France jana hai, koyi Amit hai jo mujhe shaadi karke le jaega apne saath. Mujhe laga tha kudrat ne mere liye wohi decide kiya hai, issi liye mujhse wo ghalati hui thi teenage mein kyunke mujhe uss ghalati ko yahan chorr kar chale jana hai….

Shweta:

Aap se ek baat kahun….. jaise jaise Shweta badi hoti gayi mujhe uss se nafrat hone lagi….. main uss se door rehne lagi thi, iss liye ke usski vajah se mere future mein baadha padne lage the.. mujhe koyi proposal nahin aate the, mujhe kissi adher aadmi se shaadi karni padti sirf Shweta ki existence ki vajah se…. baby thi tab uss se lagao tha, jab wo 2 saal ki hui to main uss se bilkool door hone lagi… Shweta se main ne jaan bujh kar cut off kar liya tha, wo aati to thi magar ziada tar meri maa aur Manoj ya Mahesh ke saath rehti thi, bahot kum mere saath kyunke ussko pata chal chuka tha main ussko passand nahin karti….. Shweta ko mujhse koyi sneh ya pyar nahin mila tha kyunke main uss se nafrat jo karne lagi thi aur wo Shweta ko dikhne laga tha…. kabhi kabhi to wo school vacation mein 2 hafton ke liye rehne aati thi aur unn do hafton mein ek din bhi main ne ussko gale nahin lagaya… do hafton mein ek ya do din uss se baat kiye main ne…. sirf jab aap yahan the tab main uss ke saath thoda khelti thi taake aap ko koyi shak nah ho!! varna Shweta se mai hamesha door rahi…… usski ek vajah aur thi, ke main desh chorr kar door jaane wali thi to uss se bichadne par mujhe dukh nah ho iss liye bhi door rahi thi uss se….. shweta ko bachpan se pata tha ke main ussko passand nahin karti thi…. Yeh wo jaanti thi.

Aur jab Shweta 18 ki hui aur ussko pata chala ke ussko janam dene wali maa main hoon to ussne mujhe wo sab yaad dilaya ke main kiss tarah uss se door rehti aur uss se nafrat karti thi… Shweta ek alag hi bachi thi, ussko bachpan ke saare baat yaad hein aaj bhi… ussko aap bhi yaad ho bahot achi tarah, wo kewal unn dinon 6/7 ki thi magar ussko sab bilkool saaf yaad hai… Shweta ki brain ajeeb hai usski intelligence fast kaam karti hai ussko sab kuch yaad rehta hai…. Wo 3 saal ki thi to kia hua tha ussko saaf yaad hai aur bata deti hai… mere sheher wale chaha heyraan tha ek din ussne bataya tha ke shweta ko wo kissi ke ghar legaya tha kissi kaam se jab Shweta 3 saal ki thi, uss aadmi ke ghar mein ek jhumar tha aur ek wall clock jo bajta tha… Shweta jab 12 saal ki thi to ek din uss wall clock aur jhumar ke baare mein puch rahi thhi mere chacha se aur uss aadmi ka hulya bilkool clear describe kiya tha uss ne….. Shweta ko bachpan se adult wale feelings hote the, ussko sab kuch 100% pata chalta tha ke kia ho raha hai……

Pata hai aap ko? Jiss din aap mere chachi ke ghar mujhe dhundte hue aaye the to Shweta wahin thi nah… aap ke jaane ke baad Shweta mujhse naraaz hui thi aur mujhe gandi kaha tha uss ne… ek badi adult ki tarah danta tha mujhko Shweta ne. main dang reh gayi thi. Mujhse kaha tha ke aap kaisa insaan ho, Abhi aap se itna pyar karta hai aur aap yahan andar baithi rahi ussko yahan se chiilla kar jawaab nahin de sakti thi? Wo ro raha tha aap ke liye aur aap ko kuch nahin hua? Aap ke feelings hi nahin hai, stone hearted ho aap. Kaash Abhi mujhse se pyar karta aur main aap ki jagah hota to ussko kabhi nahin jaane deta uss se zaroor shaadi karti main…… ek 6/7 saal ki ladki aise baatein keh sakti hai? Mujhe jhatka laga tha Shweta ki baat se uss roz…..

Aur jab ussko pata chal gaya ke main usski maa hoon, mujhse yahan jhagadne aayi thi tab bhi aap ko mention kiya tha uss ne…. kaha tha ke bhagwaan ne mujhe issi liye sazaa diya kyunke main ne aap ka dil dukhaya tha…..wo sab jo hua tha usske bachpan mein sab yaad tha ussko 18 saal ki hui tab bhi… aap ko bahot passand karti hai usski baton se laga tha mujhe tab bhi keh gayi thi ke aap usse milo to wo aap se shaadi kar legi…. Main ne ussko bataya ke aap shadi shuda ho already to wo maan nahin rahi thi keh rahi thi ke main jhoot bol rahi hoon… aur mujhse kaha ke ussi din se wo aap se pyar karne lagi thi jiss din aap ko mere liye rote dekha tha usske yahan.. aap se sach mein bahot pyar karti hai…. Kyun nah ho aap ho hi pyar ke kaabil… usko aap ka pyar dikh gaya tha Abhi mujhe nahin dikha tha kitni andhi thi main?! January 1987 mein jab wo aayi thi hamare yahan New year ke mauke par to aap ko dhund rahi thi, jab usskko pata chala tha ke aap ab yahan kabhi nahin aoge kaam khatam ho gaya to bahot royi thi, mujhse puchne aayi thi ke ab kaise wo aap se mil paegi? Aap kidhar rehte ho ussko aap ke yahan lejaane ko kaha tha mujhe!!! Mujhe bhi rula diya tha ussne aap ki yaad dila kar…. Main uss se kehne wali thi ke aap 4/5 ya 7th ko aane wale the, magar shukar hai ke nahin kaha kyunke agar wo hoti aur usske saamne Manoj ne aap ko weise nikala hota to kia guzarti uss par?

Magar ussko baad mein sab pata chal hi gaya aakhir…. Kuch mahine baad wo mujhse bahot naraaz hui thi ke kyun main ne aap ko nahin roka tha jab manoj ne aap ko ghar se nikala tha. pata hai Shweta ne kia kaha tha Abhi? Ussne kaha tha ke agar wo Ruhi hoti to ghar se turant bhaag kar aap ke piche jaati aur iss ghar ko chorr kar hamesha ke liye aap ke sath chali jaati…. Uss umar mein Shweta ka wo kehna tha aap ke liye!!! Wo bahot hi intelligent thi. Ek adult wali brain thi usske paas bachpan se hi. Sach pucho to mere dil mein aap ke liye ziada pyar Shweta ne jagaayi thi Abhi…. Ek baat kahuna ap se? jab 18 ki hone ke baad Shweta aap ke liye ro kar mujhse keh rahi thi ke wo aap se shadi karegi to mere dimaagh mein yeh baat ayi tha ke agar aap ne shaadi nahin kiya hota to main aap ko Shweta se shadi karne ko kehti… aap sirf 15 saal uss se bade ho, handsome to ho hi wo 18 ki thi 20 ki hoti tab aap 35 ke hote to ziada farak dikhta hi nahin, kyunke wo aap ko itna chahti thi main ne aap ka Rishta Shweta se bhi soch liya tha….. main jo nahin kar paayi thi, jo kami main ne chorra tha aap ki life mein wo kami apni beti se puri karwati main aap ke liye….. aap bhi ussko bahot passand karte the nah Abhi? Hmmm? Mujhe yaad hai, aap ne kaha tha wo bilkool meri tarah dikhti thi aap ko, aur ek baat kahun? Wo sach mein meri tarah hi hai…. Magar mujhse hazaar guna ziada intelligent, honshiyaar hai, daring hai, aap ki aur usski khub banti… aap ko uss se zaroor milna chahiye, mujhe yakeen hai ke uss se milkar aap bahot khush honge aur wo to uchal padegi…

Main kia keh rahi thi aur kia kehne lagi….. shweta yaad agayi bich mein ….. haan to uss din ke baad mummy aur Mehboob ne ab mujhe aap se doorie rakhne ko kaha kyunke Amit ane wala tha…. issi liye uss din ke baad main aap se distance banaane lagi thi magar ussi din aap ko mujhe apna love letter bhi dena tha jiss ne mujhe pighla diya tha aur main kashmakash mein pad gayi thi ke ab main kia karun!!!

Jiss din shaam ko main Mahesh, Farzina aur ek cousin ke saath baith kar aap ko suna rahi thi ke aap kia samajhte ho ke main aap se shaadi karungi, wo sab aap ko discourage karne ke liye tha, aap ko khud se door karne ke liye tha, aap ke dil mein mere liye nafrat paida karne ke liye tha magar aap ka pyar mazbut tha aur aap mujhse phir bhi aur bhi ziada pyar karte gaye, aap ka pyar ghatta nahin badhta gayaa mere liye aur main bebuss lachaar ulajhti gayi ke kia karun….. Aap aur Amit mein se mujhe ek ko chunna tha main samajh nahin paa rahi thi ke kia karun…. Mummy aur Mehboob ka kehna tha ke aap mujhse nafrat karoge jab aap ko pata chalega ke main ek bachi ki maa hoon…. Tabhi main ne decide kiya ke aap ko ab batana hoga…. Magar sirf itna bata paayi ke I am not a virgin aur aap ne to keh hi diya ke chaahe main ek bachchi ki maa hoon tab bhi aap mujhse shaadi karne ke liye tayaar ho….

Wo kehne se pehle main ne maa aur Mehboob se shart lagaayi thi ke aap mujhse phir bhi nafrat nahin karoge, aur uss roz maa ke saamne jab khidki ke paas aap rone ke karib the aur main aap se ziada rone lagi thi, aur aap ne mummy se piche ka darwaza kholne ko kaha tha, to main ne khola tha…. kia aap ko yaad hai uss roz uss se pehle Mehboob aur Rahima ne aap se kia kaha tha?

Rahima ne kaha tha ke aap hamare yahan rehne wale ho aur Mehboob ne kaha tha ke achchi baat hai subha ko jaldi kaam shuru kar doge? Yaad hai Abhi? Ussi din; din mein meri shart lagi thi mummy aur Mehboob se ke aap mujhse nafrat nahin karoge sab jaanne ke baad bhi…. Aur issi liye Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap se mujhe wo sab kehna hai shart ke anusaar mujhe pata lagana hai ke agar aap ko mere baare mein pata chala to aap kia karoge….

Aur uss raat ko main ne aap ko apne ghar roka tha yeh jaane ke baad ke aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karoge chahe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hui…. Mujhe wo kehne ki zaroorat hi nahin padi, aap ne wo keh bhi diya phir bhi main ne aap se stupidly pucha tha ke what if I am not a virgin…. Mujhe yehi kehna tha kyunke main ne wohi puchne ko plan kiya tha….. uss din aap ne mera dil jeet liya tha aur main shart bhi jeet gayi thi…. Mummy tabhi disappoint ho gayi thi issi liye aap ko ghar par rehne diya tha…. jab aap nahane gaye the to meri uss se baat hui thi Manoj se baat hone ke baad. Main ne mummy se kaha tha ke main shart jeet gayi aur Abhi mujhse phir bhi shaadi karne ke liye tayyaar hai chahhe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hoon tab bhi suna aap ne!..... uss raat ko to mummy ne kuch nahin kaha tha uss raat wo aap ke favour mein thi magar dusre din Mehboob aur ussne phir baat kiye the aur weh donon Amit ke favour mein the.

Abhi uss raat ko main aap se humbistar hona chahti thi…. Pata hai kyun? Iss liye ke aap uss din mujhse wo karna chahte the jiss din lunch karne aaye the tab main ne aap ko mana kiya tha iss liye uss raat ko aap ko compensate karna chahti thi….. jab aap ne mujhe baahon mein bharke kiss kiya tha to meri rooh kaamp gayi thi….. main ne teenage mein jo sex kiya tha tab kuch sexual feeling kuch bhi nahin hua tha, magar uss raat aap ke saath real sexual feeling kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, arousal kia hota hai, envy aur desire kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, usski gehraayi se ehsaas hui thi aur usski zaroorat bhi feel hui thi… aap ne itni badi baat keh diye the ke aap ko apna tan, mann sab dene ka mann kar raha tha mujhe, uss raat ko real love aur sexual pleasure feel karne ko man kar raha tha mera, aap ko chorrne ko bilkool mann nahin kar raha tha, mann kar raha tha ke raat bhar aap mere saath sote. Mere baahon mein rehte raat bhar…. Magar uss raat ko aap ajeeb the, uss raat ko aap wo nahin chahte the jo main chaahti thi….. Abhi agar uss raat ko aap ne mere saath sex kar liya hota to main ussi raat ko decide kar liya tha kabhi bhi Amit ko accept nahin karti, main uss raat ko tan aur mann se aap ki ho jaati….

Magar dusre din ko sab gadbad hone laga tha Abhi…. Main to aap ke liye rehna chahti thi magar mummy aur Mehboob bilkool nahin chahte the… weh donon mujhse tab kehne lage the ke aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karenge ke bachi wali ladki ke saath apne bete ki shaadi karaayen…. Aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karte ye sab keh keh kar unn donon ne mere dimaagh chaat liye the ke main bhi tang aagayi thi aur Amit ko priority dene lagi aur aap se dobara doorie rakhne lagi thi….

Issi liye aap ko mere response controversial lage honge ke main ne aap se ek baar kaha tha ke haan Amit hai phir kaha tha ke sab jhoot hai, meri virginity ki vajah se main jhoot bol rahi thi aur phir wapas kaha tha ke haan Amit hai…..

Aur phir mera jana hua ta Nani ke ghar…. Dar assal, nani, maasi aur mama logon ne uss roz mummy se kaha tha mujhe lekar wahan aane ke liye. Aur Abhi jab main wahan gayi thi to mera itna brainwashing kiya gaya tha ke kia bataun… uff…. Mujhe almost paagal bana diya tha sab ne wahan…. Amit ki itni taarif karte the sab ke jaise wo koyi raja maharajah hai… usski sister aur mother ko bulaya gaya tha mujhse milne ke liye, mujhko hausla dilaane ke liye ke Amit mere lite perfect choice hai…. Mujhko Amit ki photis dikhaaye gaye the, France mein Eifel tower ke paas ke usski tasveerein aur Paris mein pata nahin kiss kiss jagah mein usski li hui pics dikhaaye gaye the…. Mujhko jaise force kiya jaa raha tha ke main ussi ko chose karun aap ko nahin…. Waha sabko pata chal chuka tha ke aap mujhko chahte ho aur main duvidha mein hoon ke Amit ko select karun ya aap ko…..

Aur Nani aur mama ne mujhse aur mummy se kayi baar kaha ke wahan par jitney bhi log wo kaam karte hein jo aap karte ho most of the time sab ke sab bekaar rehte hein, unn ke paas kaam nahin hota, to sab kehte ke aap bhi weisa hi rahoge shaadi ke baad aur mera bura haal hoga aap ke saath.. mere 3 mama hein wahan aur 2 maasi… sabke sab mujhe convince kiye ke aap ko drop karun, aap se pyar nah karun aur Amit ko select karun….

Abhi sab bade the, mere apne the, main kia karti? Badon ko sunna padta hai nah…. main nahin kehti ke main ne argue nahin kiya, bahot argue kiya sabse kaha ke aap mujhse tab bhi shaadi karne ko tayyar ho halaan ke meri ek beti hai, aap mujhse sach mein pyar karte ho main khud gawah hoon yeh sab kaha main ne unn sabse…. Maa ne bhi kaha sab se ke aap dhit ho aap mujhko pagalon ki tarah pyar karte ho…. mummy kabhi kabhi aap ka side le rahi thi keh rahi thi ke kaise bhi ho aap to saamne ho, aap dikh rahe ho aur saaf dikhta hai ke aap kitna pyar karte ho mujhse… magar mama logon ne mummy ko danta yeh kehte hue ke apni khud ki beti ko kunwe mein dhakelna chahti ho?

Mujhko wahan se convince karke bheja gaya tha ke main aap se door ho jaun…. Issi liye nani ke ghar se wapas ane ke baad main aap se aur bhi door ho gayi thi….. magar jis din aayi thi ussi din aap ko main ne pehli baar I LOVE YOU kaha tha….wo sirf iss liye ke mujhe pata tha ab wo aap ko kabhi nahin keh paungi, kyunke mujhko to Amit ke saath jana hoga iss liye socha ek baar to keh doon…..

Phir usske baad har roz aap se thoda thoda door hoti gayi mai aap ko ghar ke andar se chhup chhup kar dekhti thi, bahot dukh hota tha aap ki haalat dekh kar, magar aap seeti bajaate, mujhe bulaate, main andar roti dil pat patthar rakh kar roti, kabhi aa bhi jaati thi, magar mummy dantti, Mehboob mujhko mote mote aankhon se dekhti, wapaas andar jaane ko ishara karta wo…. Main ghut ghut ke rehti thi ghar ke andar…..

To be continued immediately in the next post

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Update 73 Replies Of Ruhi 2

Mehboob aur mummy ne mujhko bahot sunaya uss raat ko…. Din mein aap se mili aur jitna khush thi utna hi royi uss raat ko mummy ke aane ke baad. Mehboob aur mummy ne milkar mujhko samjhaya ke mujhko ab aap se door rehna chahiye aur Amit ke saath shaadi karke chale jaana chahiye….

Ab aaguey….

Ruhi ne llikhna Jaari rakha….

“Abhi magar ek baat thi jo aap ko unn dinon bilkool samajh mein nahin aya tha, wo yeh ke Mehboob mujhko istemaal kar raha tha aap se apne bus ke kaam niklawaane ke liye.

Yaad hai jiss din aap aur Saeed mein ladaayi hui thi, to Mehboob ne hi mujhe aap ko ek taraf lejaane ko kaha tha aap ko shant karne ke liye? That day was our first kiss day. Main aap ko ghar ke piche wale kone mein legayi thi….. Ussi din ko jab aap ghar wapas chale gaye the to Mehbob aya tha hamare yahan aur maa ke samne uss ne mujhe aap se meethi meethi baat karne ko, aap ko apne pyar mein uljhaane ko kaha tha, maa se bhi ussne kaha mujhko aap ke karib jaane dene ke liye, maa bhi mili hui thi Mehboob ke saath aap ko baandhne rakhne ke liye meri muhabat mein, donon ko pata chal chuka tha ke aap ko mujh se pyar ho gaya hai, Saeed ne shayad mehbob se keh diya tha ke aap aksar absent rehte ho, Mondays ho kaam par nahin aate ho to Mehboob ne kaha tha ke usska kaam delay hoga agar aap absent rahe to, kyunke aap sabse fast kaam karte the, Saeed se bhi ziada kaam karte the aap, to Mehboob ko aap ki zaroorat thi to ussne mujhse help maanga tha ke main aap ko lubhaoon, ke aap se baat karun ke main aap ko rijhaun taake aap har roz kaam par aaye!......... Magar Abhi main weisa kuch karna nahin chaahti thi, buss aap se batein karti thi, aap ke karib aati thi aur jiss din pehli bar aap ne mujhse kaha tha ke aap ke jaane ke waqt main kitchen ke chaukath par rahun uss din ko main ne Mehboob se keh diya tha ke aap ne weisa kaha hai, to wo khush hua tha aur uss ne bhi mujhko wohi karne ko kaha, ussne kaha dekho wo jaate hue tumko mudh kar dekhega, aashik hai to khush kardo, yahan khade rehne se tumhara kia jaata hai….

Abhi aap ko lubhaate lubhaate main khud aap se pyar kar baithi thi, aap mein kuch tha jo yahan kissi mein nahin tha, main Mehboob ke liye aap ko nahin rokti thi, main aap ko apne khud ke liye rokne lagi thi, jiss raat ko aap ko rehne ke liye kaha tha wo meri apni marzi thi, wo main chahti thi halaan ke Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap hamare ghar ruke hue ho aur aap samajh rahe the ke ussko nahin pata tha, ussko aur Rahima donon ko pata tha ke aap uss raat ko hamare yahan ruke ho….

Aap ko yeh bhi nahin pata ke Manoj ghussa hua tha aap ke rukne se jab aap nahane chale gaye the… aur ussi waqt Mehboob ne Manoj ko samjhaya tha ke Aap ko kuch nah kahein yeh uss ke kehne se meri maa ne aap ko rukne ko kaha…. Assal mein main ne aap ko roka tha uss raat ko. Dusre din Mehboob aur manoj mein behez hui thi iss baat ko lekar, manoj Mehboob se oonchi awaaz mein baat kiya tha aur ussko kaha tha ke agar aap ko ghar par rokna hai to wo aap ko apne ghar men rokein hamare yahan nahin.

Abhi aap ne yeh likha hai apne diary mein


{“I am waiting for that day when Ruhi will be here on this bed together with me and I will make her read all this. She will then read and know what I was going through the days I worked in her yard. Those were the most beautiful days of my life which I will never forget. I met love, I met the one I was waiting for, I met my soul mate in that yard. And I am grateful to God and my job. If I was not doing this job I would never have gone there, would have never known her, would have never met her….”}

To answer this Abhi I have to say that I have been the most unfortunate person to have lost you and your true love. You loved me so dearly with all your heart, you longed for me, you wanted me, but my love was fake in the beginning, I was playing with you for the sake of Mehboob, I was retaining you, but when I started liking you and wanted to be with you it seemed to be late, still I did try but they were stronger than me; my mother and Mehboob, they were the ones pulling the string, I was a mere puppet! …. You met love, you met your soul mate you have written but I did not deserve your true love Abhi, because YOUR love was sincere and TRUE whereas mine was fake… that is why the God whom you thanked, did not allow that to happen because the God knew I was fake and did not deserve your love!

Mere papa:

Aap ne pucha tha uss din jab papa ka phone aya tha ke wo kaisa inssaan hai. Main ne aap ko bataya tha ke wo makhan hai…. Sach mein wo weisa hi hai… uss ghar mein papa patni hai aur maa pati hai…..

Mere papa ek aisa insaan hai jo bachpan se jhuka raha hai… bahut khamosh, usski awaaz tak thik se sunaayi nahin dete…. Meri dadi ne bataya tha mujhe ke papa to itna Sharmila tha ke shaadi bhi nahin karna chahta tha…. he was too shy a peron.

Baad mein dada dadi ne usski shaadi karwa diye to maa mil gayi ussko aur jald hi maa ko pata chal gaya ke wo kaisa insaan hai so she started dominating papa and she had always been the head of the family not papa… papa was always too cool, silent, never raised his voice and mummy took advantage of his silence to dominate him….. papa was a person who could never take a decision, so his wife always decided and she ruled over him all her life. He is a very nice person indeed, but too cool and silent for a woman like my mother. My mother should never have been his wife.

Abhi jab maa nani ke yahan se wo news lekar aayi ke Amit 4 mahine baad ane wala hai mujh se shaadi karke mujhe apne saath lejaane ke liye, to sach kahun to mujhe wo chaka chaund, foreign desh, France, Paris, plane se safar karna, amir desh mein rehna yeh sab of course bahot assar kiya tha mujh par… aap ke aane se pehle main ussi sapne mein jine lagi thi ke mujhe France jana hai, koyi Amit hai jo mujhe shaadi karke le jaega apne saath. Mujhe laga tha kudrat ne mere liye wohi decide kiya hai, issi liye mujhse wo ghalati hui thi teenage mein kyunke mujhe uss ghalati ko yahan chorr kar chale jana hai….

Shweta:

Aap se ek baat kahun….. jaise jaise Shweta badi hoti gayi mujhe uss se nafrat hone lagi….. main uss se door rehne lagi thi, iss liye ke usski vajah se mere future mein baadha padne lage the.. mujhe koyi proposal nahin aate the, mujhe kissi adher aadmi se shaadi karni padti sirf Shweta ki existence ki vajah se…. baby thi tab uss se lagao tha, jab wo 2 saal ki hui to main uss se bilkool door hone lagi… Shweta se main ne jaan bujh kar cut off kar liya tha, wo aati to thi magar ziada tar meri maa aur Manoj ya Mahesh ke saath rehti thi, bahot kum mere saath kyunke ussko pata chal chuka tha main ussko passand nahin karti….. Shweta ko mujhse koyi sneh ya pyar nahin mila tha kyunke main uss se nafrat jo karne lagi thi aur wo Shweta ko dikhne laga tha…. kabhi kabhi to wo school vacation mein 2 hafton ke liye rehne aati thi aur unn do hafton mein ek din bhi main ne ussko gale nahin lagaya… do hafton mein ek ya do din uss se baat kiye main ne…. sirf jab aap yahan the tab main uss ke saath thoda khelti thi taake aap ko koyi shak nah ho!! varna Shweta se mai hamesha door rahi…… usski ek vajah aur thi, ke main desh chorr kar door jaane wali thi to uss se bichadne par mujhe dukh nah ho iss liye bhi door rahi thi uss se….. shweta ko bachpan se pata tha ke main ussko passand nahin karti thi…. Yeh wo jaanti thi.

Aur jab Shweta 18 ki hui aur ussko pata chala ke ussko janam dene wali maa main hoon to ussne mujhe wo sab yaad dilaya ke main kiss tarah uss se door rehti aur uss se nafrat karti thi… Shweta ek alag hi bachi thi, ussko bachpan ke saare baat yaad hein aaj bhi… ussko aap bhi yaad ho bahot achi tarah, wo kewal unn dinon 6/7 ki thi magar ussko sab bilkool saaf yaad hai… Shweta ki brain ajeeb hai usski intelligence fast kaam karti hai ussko sab kuch yaad rehta hai…. Wo 3 saal ki thi to kia hua tha ussko saaf yaad hai aur bata deti hai… mere sheher wale chaha heyraan tha ek din ussne bataya tha ke shweta ko wo kissi ke ghar legaya tha kissi kaam se jab Shweta 3 saal ki thi, uss aadmi ke ghar mein ek jhumar tha aur ek wall clock jo bajta tha… Shweta jab 12 saal ki thi to ek din uss wall clock aur jhumar ke baare mein puch rahi thhi mere chacha se aur uss aadmi ka hulya bilkool clear describe kiya tha uss ne….. Shweta ko bachpan se adult wale feelings hote the, ussko sab kuch 100% pata chalta tha ke kia ho raha hai……

Pata hai aap ko? Jiss din aap mere chachi ke ghar mujhe dhundte hue aaye the to Shweta wahin thi nah… aap ke jaane ke baad Shweta mujhse naraaz hui thi aur mujhe gandi kaha tha uss ne… ek badi adult ki tarah danta tha mujhko Shweta ne. main dang reh gayi thi. Mujhse kaha tha ke aap kaisa insaan ho, Abhi aap se itna pyar karta hai aur aap yahan andar baithi rahi ussko yahan se chiilla kar jawaab nahin de sakti thi? Wo ro raha tha aap ke liye aur aap ko kuch nahin hua? Aap ke feelings hi nahin hai, stone hearted ho aap. Kaash Abhi mujhse se pyar karta aur main aap ki jagah hota to ussko kabhi nahin jaane deta uss se zaroor shaadi karti main…… ek 6/7 saal ki ladki aise baatein keh sakti hai? Mujhe jhatka laga tha Shweta ki baat se uss roz…..

Aur jab ussko pata chal gaya ke main usski maa hoon, mujhse yahan jhagadne aayi thi tab bhi aap ko mention kiya tha uss ne…. kaha tha ke bhagwaan ne mujhe issi liye sazaa diya kyunke main ne aap ka dil dukhaya tha…..wo sab jo hua tha usske bachpan mein sab yaad tha ussko 18 saal ki hui tab bhi… aap ko bahot passand karti hai usski baton se laga tha mujhe tab bhi keh gayi thi ke aap usse milo to wo aap se shaadi kar legi…. Main ne ussko bataya ke aap shadi shuda ho already to wo maan nahin rahi thi keh rahi thi ke main jhoot bol rahi hoon… aur mujhse kaha ke ussi din se wo aap se pyar karne lagi thi jiss din aap ko mere liye rote dekha tha usske yahan.. aap se sach mein bahot pyar karti hai…. Kyun nah ho aap ho hi pyar ke kaabil… usko aap ka pyar dikh gaya tha Abhi mujhe nahin dikha tha kitni andhi thi main?! January 1987 mein jab wo aayi thi hamare yahan New year ke mauke par to aap ko dhund rahi thi, jab usskko pata chala tha ke aap ab yahan kabhi nahin aoge kaam khatam ho gaya to bahot royi thi, mujhse puchne aayi thi ke ab kaise wo aap se mil paegi? Aap kidhar rehte ho ussko aap ke yahan lejaane ko kaha tha mujhe!!! Mujhe bhi rula diya tha ussne aap ki yaad dila kar…. Main uss se kehne wali thi ke aap 4/5 ya 7th ko aane wale the, magar shukar hai ke nahin kaha kyunke agar wo hoti aur usske saamne Manoj ne aap ko weise nikala hota to kia guzarti uss par?

Magar ussko baad mein sab pata chal hi gaya aakhir…. Kuch mahine baad wo mujhse bahot naraaz hui thi ke kyun main ne aap ko nahin roka tha jab manoj ne aap ko ghar se nikala tha. pata hai Shweta ne kia kaha tha Abhi? Ussne kaha tha ke agar wo Ruhi hoti to ghar se turant bhaag kar aap ke piche jaati aur iss ghar ko chorr kar hamesha ke liye aap ke sath chali jaati…. Uss umar mein Shweta ka wo kehna tha aap ke liye!!! Wo bahot hi intelligent thi. Ek adult wali brain thi usske paas bachpan se hi. Sach pucho to mere dil mein aap ke liye ziada pyar Shweta ne jagaayi thi Abhi…. Ek baat kahuna ap se? jab 18 ki hone ke baad Shweta aap ke liye ro kar mujhse keh rahi thi ke wo aap se shadi karegi to mere dimaagh mein yeh baat ayi tha ke agar aap ne shaadi nahin kiya hota to main aap ko Shweta se shadi karne ko kehti… aap sirf 15 saal uss se bade ho, handsome to ho hi wo 18 ki thi 20 ki hoti tab aap 35 ke hote to ziada farak dikhta hi nahin, kyunke wo aap ko itna chahti thi main ne aap ka Rishta Shweta se bhi soch liya tha….. main jo nahin kar paayi thi, jo kami main ne chorra tha aap ki life mein wo kami apni beti se puri karwati main aap ke liye….. aap bhi ussko bahot passand karte the nah Abhi? Hmmm? Mujhe yaad hai, aap ne kaha tha wo bilkool meri tarah dikhti thi aap ko, aur ek baat kahun? Wo sach mein meri tarah hi hai…. Magar mujhse hazaar guna ziada intelligent, honshiyaar hai, daring hai, aap ki aur usski khub banti… aap ko uss se zaroor milna chahiye, mujhe yakeen hai ke uss se milkar aap bahot khush honge aur wo to uchal padegi…

Main kia keh rahi thi aur kia kehne lagi….. shweta yaad agayi bich mein ….. haan to uss din ke baad mummy aur Mehboob ne ab mujhe aap se doorie rakhne ko kaha kyunke Amit ane wala tha…. issi liye uss din ke baad main aap se distance banaane lagi thi magar ussi din aap ko mujhe apna love letter bhi dena tha jiss ne mujhe pighla diya tha aur main kashmakash mein pad gayi thi ke ab main kia karun!!!

Jiss din shaam ko main Mahesh, Farzina aur ek cousin ke saath baith kar aap ko suna rahi thi ke aap kia samajhte ho ke main aap se shaadi karungi, wo sab aap ko discourage karne ke liye tha, aap ko khud se door karne ke liye tha, aap ke dil mein mere liye nafrat paida karne ke liye tha magar aap ka pyar mazbut tha aur aap mujhse phir bhi aur bhi ziada pyar karte gaye, aap ka pyar ghatta nahin badhta gayaa mere liye aur main bebuss lachaar ulajhti gayi ke kia karun….. Aap aur Amit mein se mujhe ek ko chunna tha main samajh nahin paa rahi thi ke kia karun…. Mummy aur Mehboob ka kehna tha ke aap mujhse nafrat karoge jab aap ko pata chalega ke main ek bachi ki maa hoon…. Tabhi main ne decide kiya ke aap ko ab batana hoga…. Magar sirf itna bata paayi ke I am not a virgin aur aap ne to keh hi diya ke chaahe main ek bachchi ki maa hoon tab bhi aap mujhse shaadi karne ke liye tayaar ho….

Wo kehne se pehle main ne maa aur Mehboob se shart lagaayi thi ke aap mujhse phir bhi nafrat nahin karoge, aur uss roz maa ke saamne jab khidki ke paas aap rone ke karib the aur main aap se ziada rone lagi thi, aur aap ne mummy se piche ka darwaza kholne ko kaha tha, to main ne khola tha…. kia aap ko yaad hai uss roz uss se pehle Mehboob aur Rahima ne aap se kia kaha tha?

Rahima ne kaha tha ke aap hamare yahan rehne wale ho aur Mehboob ne kaha tha ke achchi baat hai subha ko jaldi kaam shuru kar doge? Yaad hai Abhi? Ussi din; din mein meri shart lagi thi mummy aur Mehboob se ke aap mujhse nafrat nahin karoge sab jaanne ke baad bhi…. Aur issi liye Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap se mujhe wo sab kehna hai shart ke anusaar mujhe pata lagana hai ke agar aap ko mere baare mein pata chala to aap kia karoge….

Aur uss raat ko main ne aap ko apne ghar roka tha yeh jaane ke baad ke aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karoge chahe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hui…. Mujhe wo kehne ki zaroorat hi nahin padi, aap ne wo keh bhi diya phir bhi main ne aap se stupidly pucha tha ke what if I am not a virgin…. Mujhe yehi kehna tha kyunke main ne wohi puchne ko plan kiya tha….. uss din aap ne mera dil jeet liya tha aur main shart bhi jeet gayi thi…. Mummy tabhi disappoint ho gayi thi issi liye aap ko ghar par rehne diya tha…. jab aap nahane gaye the to meri uss se baat hui thi Manoj se baat hone ke baad. Main ne mummy se kaha tha ke main shart jeet gayi aur Abhi mujhse phir bhi shaadi karne ke liye tayyaar hai chahhe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hoon tab bhi suna aap ne!..... uss raat ko to mummy ne kuch nahin kaha tha uss raat wo aap ke favour mein thi magar dusre din Mehboob aur ussne phir baat kiye the aur weh donon Amit ke favour mein the.

Abhi uss raat ko main aap se humbistar hona chahti thi…. Pata hai kyun? Iss liye ke aap uss din mujhse wo karna chahte the jiss din lunch karne aaye the tab main ne aap ko mana kiya tha iss liye uss raat ko aap ko compensate karna chahti thi….. jab aap ne mujhe baahon mein bharke kiss kiya tha to meri rooh kaamp gayi thi….. main ne teenage mein jo sex kiya tha tab kuch sexual feeling kuch bhi nahin hua tha, magar uss raat aap ke saath real sexual feeling kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, arousal kia hota hai, envy aur desire kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, usski gehraayi se ehsaas hui thi aur usski zaroorat bhi feel hui thi… aap ne itni badi baat keh diye the ke aap ko apna tan, mann sab dene ka mann kar raha tha mujhe, uss raat ko real love aur sexual pleasure feel karne ko man kar raha tha mera, aap ko chorrne ko bilkool mann nahin kar raha tha, mann kar raha tha ke raat bhar aap mere saath sote. Mere baahon mein rehte raat bhar…. Magar uss raat ko aap ajeeb the, uss raat ko aap wo nahin chahte the jo main chaahti thi….. Abhi agar uss raat ko aap ne mere saath sex kar liya hota to main ussi raat ko decide kar liya tha kabhi bhi Amit ko accept nahin karti, main uss raat ko tan aur mann se aap ki ho jaati….

Magar dusre din ko sab gadbad hone laga tha Abhi…. Main to aap ke liye rehna chahti thi magar mummy aur Mehboob bilkool nahin chahte the… weh donon mujhse tab kehne lage the ke aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karenge ke bachi wali ladki ke saath apne bete ki shaadi karaayen…. Aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karte ye sab keh keh kar unn donon ne mere dimaagh chaat liye the ke main bhi tang aagayi thi aur Amit ko priority dene lagi aur aap se dobara doorie rakhne lagi thi….

Issi liye aap ko mere response controversial lage honge ke main ne aap se ek baar kaha tha ke haan Amit hai phir kaha tha ke sab jhoot hai, meri virginity ki vajah se main jhoot bol rahi thi aur phir wapas kaha tha ke haan Amit hai…..

Aur phir mera jana hua ta Nani ke ghar…. Dar assal, nani, maasi aur mama logon ne uss roz mummy se kaha tha mujhe lekar wahan aane ke liye. Aur Abhi jab main wahan gayi thi to mera itna brainwashing kiya gaya tha ke kia bataun… uff…. Mujhe almost paagal bana diya tha sab ne wahan…. Amit ki itni taarif karte the sab ke jaise wo koyi raja maharajah hai… usski sister aur mother ko bulaya gaya tha mujhse milne ke liye, mujhko hausla dilaane ke liye ke Amit mere lite perfect choice hai…. Mujhko Amit ki photis dikhaaye gaye the, France mein Eifel tower ke paas ke usski tasveerein aur Paris mein pata nahin kiss kiss jagah mein usski li hui pics dikhaaye gaye the…. Mujhko jaise force kiya jaa raha tha ke main ussi ko chose karun aap ko nahin…. Waha sabko pata chal chuka tha ke aap mujhko chahte ho aur main duvidha mein hoon ke Amit ko select karun ya aap ko…..

Aur Nani aur mama ne mujhse aur mummy se kayi baar kaha ke wahan par jitney bhi log wo kaam karte hein jo aap karte ho most of the time sab ke sab bekaar rehte hein, unn ke paas kaam nahin hota, to sab kehte ke aap bhi weisa hi rahoge shaadi ke baad aur mera bura haal hoga aap ke saath.. mere 3 mama hein wahan aur 2 maasi… sabke sab mujhe convince kiye ke aap ko drop karun, aap se pyar nah karun aur Amit ko select karun….

Abhi sab bade the, mere apne the, main kia karti? Badon ko sunna padta hai nah…. main nahin kehti ke main ne argue nahin kiya, bahot argue kiya sabse kaha ke aap mujhse tab bhi shaadi karne ko tayyar ho halaan ke meri ek beti hai, aap mujhse sach mein pyar karte ho main khud gawah hoon yeh sab kaha main ne unn sabse…. Maa ne bhi kaha sab se ke aap dhit ho aap mujhko pagalon ki tarah pyar karte ho…. mummy kabhi kabhi aap ka side le rahi thi keh rahi thi ke kaise bhi ho aap to saamne ho, aap dikh rahe ho aur saaf dikhta hai ke aap kitna pyar karte ho mujhse… magar mama logon ne mummy ko danta yeh kehte hue ke apni khud ki beti ko kunwe mein dhakelna chahti ho?

Mujhko wahan se convince karke bheja gaya tha ke main aap se door ho jaun…. Issi liye nani ke ghar se wapas ane ke baad main aap se aur bhi door ho gayi thi….. magar jis din aayi thi ussi din aap ko main ne pehli baar I LOVE YOU kaha tha….wo sirf iss liye ke mujhe pata tha ab wo aap ko kabhi nahin keh paungi, kyunke mujhko to Amit ke saath jana hoga iss liye socha ek baar to keh doon…..

Phir usske baad har roz aap se thoda thoda door hoti gayi mai aap ko ghar ke andar se chhup chhup kar dekhti thi, bahot dukh hota tha aap ki haalat dekh kar, magar aap seeti bajaate, mujhe bulaate, main andar roti dil pat patthar rakh kar roti, kabhi aa bhi jaati thi, magar mummy dantti, Mehboob mujhko mote mote aankhon se dekhti, wapaas andar jaane ko ishara karta wo…. Main ghut ghut ke rehti thi ghar ke andar…..

To be continued immediately in the next post

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Update 74 Replieis Of Ruhi 3

Aur papa aya… ussi raat ko sab phir nani ke ghar gaye the yaad hai nah? phir wohi baat… wahan iss liye gaye the ke papa se wo log ab kahe ke mujhe aap se door rakhe aap ki proposal ko wo accept nah kare… papa to thehre yes man wo kia kaarta jo kuch ussko bolne ko kaha gaya wohi kaha ussne….

Aur aap ki kaam ki last day aane wala tha.. to nani ke yahan sabne mummy aur papa se kaha ke mujhko wahan se hatta diya jaaye taake last day ko main wahan rahun hi nahin aur aap kuch keh nah sake kissi se…. mujhko to pata tha ke aap papa se mera haath mangne wale ho, magar nani ke ghar yeh bhi pata chal gaya tha ke papa aap ko refuse karega kyunke nani ke ghar se ussko yehi order mila…..

To uss din ko main jaane wali thi issi liye farzina se khabar bheja tha aap ke paas ke main jaane wali hoon apni behen ke saath…. Mujhe pata tha mere jaane se pehle aap zaroor baat karne aoge mujhse… aur jab main kanghi kar rahi thi to aap ko khidki se issi liye dekh rahi thi jaane ke liye ke aap ko pata chala bhi ke nahin…. Aur aap aaye the khidki ke paas jaise main expect kar rahi thi…..

Uss roz main bahot ajeeb thi nah? yehi likha hai aap ne apni diary mein… padha main ne….. haan main thi bahot strange… apne dil par yun samajh lijiye ke main ne ek pahaad rakha hua tha aap se uss tarah se behave karne ke liye…. Ghar par mujhko maa, papa, didi, Mehboob, mere behnoy sab mujh par chadh rahe the ke main bilkool nah rowun aur aap se bold pesh aaun, yeh dikhaun ke aap se bilkool pyar nahin karti…. Magar sabko, didi aur bro in law ko bhi pata tha ke main aap se kitna pyar karne lagi thi… main bahot royi thi uss din jaane se pehle… didi se puchna…. Main itni royi thi ke mere dum ghutne lage the, main saans nahin le paa rahi thi yahan tak ke brother in law ne kaha tha ke meri aur aap ki shaadi kar diya jaaye…

Jab aap khidki se baat kar rahe the, to ek aadmi tha jiska dil ro raha tha aap ko dekh kar wo meri didi ka husband tha…. wo aap ke pyar ko samajhta tha.. sab wahan milkar aap ko discourage karne ke liye aaye hue the…. Jab aap ne papa ko bulwaya to ussne kaha ke wo mujhe lekar apne sath lejaane wale hein mujhko pata tha ke aap ko bilkool bhi yakeen nahin tha aap ko pata tha ke wo jhoot tha, mujhe sab pata tha, phir bhi mujhko wohi bolna pada tha kyunke papa wohi kehne wala tha aap se.. aur jab aap ne kaha tha ke aap mera intezaar akroge aur didi ne pucha ke kab tak wait karoge to aap ne kaha tha zindagi bhar mujhe itna zor se rone ka mann kiya tha uss waqt ke samajh mein nahin aya tha ke kia karun….. tab papa ne aap se kaha tha ke Amit ko zubaan de chuke hein matlab aap ko kissi kimat par yeh kehna tha ke NAHIN -NO. NAHIN HO SAKTA AAP KI SHAADI RUHI SE….. yehi kehna aur batana tha aap ko…. AAP KA DIL TODNA THA, AAP KE DIL PAR EK KHANJAR CHALAANA THA, AAP KE DIL SE KHOON BAHANA THA…AUR SAARE ILZAAM MUJHKO APNE UPAR LENA THA…. AAP KE DIL KE TUKDE MAIN NE KIYE, AAP KO DHOKA MAIN NE DIYA, AAP SE DAGHA MEIN NE KIYA…SAB MUJHKO APNE UPAR LEKAR WAHAN SE JAANA THA AUR WAPAS TAB ANA THA JAB AAP YAHAN HONGE HI NAHIN…..AAP SE MAAFI MAANGNE KA BHI ADHIKAAR NAHIN THA MERE PAAS…. Samajhlo ke mere kaandhe par bandook rakh kar aap ke dil par seinron goliyan chalaya gaya tha aur mujhe sab dekhte hue hanssna tha…. yehi kiya gaya tha aap ke saath uss din Abhi aur haan main sab dekhti rahi unn sab ka saath deti rahi main bhi……

Iss sab ka gehra ehsaas mujhe tab hua jiss din aap Shweta ke ghar ro rahe the meri chachi se sab kehte hue….. main khamoshi se ro rahi thi aap ko sunte hue…. Phir bhi main ne aap ko nahin roka chachi ka khayal karte hue ke wo aap ke saamne jhooti nah kehlaaye….

Aur haan uss roz jab main jaa rahi thi aur aap bus ke piche ke darwaaze se kud kar mujhko baahon mein bhar ke kiss karne aaye the uss ek pal ko main bhool gayi thi ke main main hoon…. Main ro rahi thi aap ki haalat dekh kar bus mein…. Mujhe aap ko chorr kar jaane ko bilkool bhi mann nahi tha, mujhe pata tha ke uss din ke baad uss aangan mein aap phir kabhi nahin dikhoge… mujhe yakeen tha ke uss raat ko aap ne kissi bhi time ko kaam end kiya mujhse zaroor miloge, mujhe uss waqt ka intezaar tha, magar main khud aap ko chorr kar jaa rahi thi…. To jis waqt aap ne mujhko baahon mein thaama main bilkool pighal gayi aur sab kuch bhool kar aap ke kiss ko respond kiya, goli maar diya tha sabko main ne uss ek pal ko Abhi kyunke ek last kiss aap ko karna banta tha…. aap ko yaad hai maa ko main ne kaise jawaab diya tha ke haan shooting chal rahi hai film ki….. I did not care at all at that moment… mujh mein ek ajib si shakti aayi thi jiss pal ko aap ne mujhko baahon mein liya tha sabke saamne open mein…. Aap ki daring ki daat deri hoon Abhi. You are a TRUE MAN!.... magar jab main jaane lagi thi aap ko tut kar niche baith kar rote hue dekh kar mera kaleja fatt raha tha Abhi, mujhko turant laut kar wapas aane ka mann kar raha tha, didi ne mera haath pakar kar khiincha tha mujhe chalne ke liye….. aur main chali gayi thi Abhi aap ko ussi haal mein chorr kar…..

Wahan se didi ke ghar jaane tak 22 kms hein main unn 22 kms tak roti gayi…. Roti rahi raat bhar aap ko yaad karte hue…. Kab nendh aayi pata hi nahin chala…..

Phir aayi wo din jab aap meri chachi ke ghar aaye aur main ghar wapas aayi thi 29th ya 30th ko… aap ka new year card mila tha jiss mein aap ne kaha ha ke aap 3, 4 ya 5th ko aoge…. Mujhe ek sukoon sa feel hua tha….. aap ko bhool nahin paa rahi thi.. mera aangan suna tha, aap ki seeti sunne ko kaan taras rahe the main baar baar kitchen se uss jagah dekh rahi thi jahan buss hua karta tha, jiss jiss jagah aap dikhaayi dete the main unn jagahon par dekhti rehti iss umeed se ke aap ek baar dikh jao mujhe…. Mere aangan mein jitna Abhi ka naam goonjhte hue sunaayi deta tha ab unta hi sannata hua karta tha…. kuch bhi acha nahin lagta tha… main washing stone par kapde dhoti to aap feel hote the lagta tha aap achanak piche se ajaoge, aap ki aahat ka ehsaas hota tha, kitab padhti khidki se tek lagaaye to aap nazar aate the baahar… kabhi kabhi lagta meri aankhen mujhko dkhoka de rahe hein, aap ko aisa feel karti ke aap ke saanson ka bhi ehsaas hone lagta mujhe…. Abhi TAB MUJHE EHSAAS HUA KE MAIN AAP SE KITNA PYAR KARTI HOON AUR AAP KO KITNA MISS KAR RAHI HOON…. Aap ne jo khat likha tha new year card ke saath uss mein mujhe ek bahot bada umeed dikhaayi diya… aap ne uss mein likha tha ke aap mujhse, mere papa se phir haath mange aoge phir uske baad apne parents ke saath aoge mujhe dekhne tab mangni tey hogi….. par main ne tab bhi ek bahot badi ghalati kar diya tha abhi…. Main ne mummy ko wo sab bata diya tha… mujhe mummy ko nahin batana chahiye tha, tab wo mujhe nahin rokti mera munh nahin dabaati, main achanak uss din aap ke saamne aajati aur papa ke saamne kehti ke haan mujhe aap Manzoor ho to papa kabhi inkaar nahin karta…..

Aap ne kayi baar uss khat mein kaha tha mujhe ke aap ko mera saath chahiye, mujhe wahan maujood hona chahiye, mujhko bhi baat karna chahite apne papa se, mujhe kehna chahiye ke haan main aap se pyar karti hoon…. Abhi MAIN NE WOHI NAHIN KIYA ABHI…..

Baaki main aap ko bata chuki hoon ke uss roz kia hua tha main kyun nahin nikal paayi thi……

Jab aap ko nikala gaya tha ghar se phir kia kiya tha main ne wo bata chuki hoon aap ko…..

Tab realise hua ke kho diya main ne aap ko, tab pata chala aur ehsaas hua aap ka pyar kitna keemti tha, tab samajh mein aya kia khoya hai main ne aur faisla kiya ke sabko sabak dekar rahungi, aur jo taakat mujh mein tab nahin thi jab aap yahan the wo taaqat tab aayi mujh mein inn sab ke saamna karne ki.

Main ek jwala ban chuki thi, mujhe rokne ko tab kissi mein himmat nahin thi, nah maa nah baap nah Mehboob nah Manoj. Main ne manoj ko kayi thapad mara tha yeh nahin bataya tha aap ko. Tabhi se uss se baat karna bandh kiya tha aur 5 saal baad usske shadi ke din uss se baad karna dobara shuru kiya tha wo bhi kabhi kabhi.

Aap ki dairy padh kar pata chala uss roz, 5th January ko ussi bus stop par aap ne apne tute hue dil se kaha tha ke kutte ki maut naseeb nah ho jaye ussko ussi jagah aur exactly wohi hua tha usske saath ussi jagah mara tha wo.

Maa aur Mehboob ko kia sazaa mili thi wo aap ko zubaani bataungi jab diary lene aoge tab.

Ek maze ki baat bata doon aap ko ke Amit aane wala tha mere nani, mama aur mamiyon ke saath mujhe dekhne April mein ussi saal jiss saal mein aap ko ghar sen ikala gaya tha…. sirf 3 mahine guzre the mere bawaal machaane ke baad aur sab darr rahe the mujhko batana ke wo aane wala hai…. Ek din pehle ek mama aya mujhko samjhane ke ussko receive kar liya jaaye… mujhe aap ka badla lena tha ghar walon se to main ne mama se kaha thik hai aane do Amit ko.

Wo aya bhi to kiss din Abhi? Aap ke birthday ke din aya wo mujhe dekhne aur haath maange uss se shaadi ke liye. 12th April tha, main aap ki yaad mein doobi thi jab nani, mama, aur do mamiyan aye hamare ghar, ussi jagah jahan se aap ko nikala gaya tha. sab ghar par the kyunke wo ane wala tha. papa wapas nahin gaye the tab tak ussi ke liye.

Abhi ussko main ne wo sunaya, wo haal kiya, aise aise galiyan diye ussko, bilkool jo aap ke saath kiya tha Manoj ne, Manoj ke saamne ussi tarah dhitkaar kar nikala unn sabko main ne ghar se….. nani aur mama mamiyan ko bhi sunaya aur kaha ke khabardaar phir kabhi mere liye kissi ko bhi iss dwar par laya to kutte ki tarah maar ke nikalungi…… Amit aisa gaya ke aaj tak usske baare mein khabar nahin mili,aur uss din ke baad main aaj tak nani ke ghar nahin gayi, marr bhi gayi wo bhi aur unn mein se ek mama bhi aur ek mami bhi…..

Here you go Abhi jo kehna tha keh diya aap ko, ab samajh mein nahin ata kia kehne ko bhooli hoon…. Jo miss kiya aap ko bataane ko wo aap puch lena jab miloge to bata dungi….

Mujhe pata hai wo din wapas nahin aane wale, weh pal nahin laut kar aane wale, buss aap dobara mile isske liye apni taqdeer ka shuriya ada karti hoon, yeh sab kehna tha aap se keh diya dil ka ek bojh halka hua, aap ko jo kehna tha, jo likha tha aap ne unn dinon wo mujh tak pahunchana tha wo aap ne bhi kar diya aap ka bhi bojh halka hua hoga.

Ab araam se mar sakungi marne ka time aega to, saare shikwe gile door hue umeed hai aap ko aur koyi shikaayat nahin rahega ab.baaki jo bhi kiya aap ke saath unn sab ke liye maafi maangti hoon, aap ke sacha pyar ko thukraya usski sazaa bhugat chuki hoon aur bhugat rahi bhi hoon, agar aap ne kahin mujhko bhi bad duah diye ho to wapas le lena please mujh par rehem karna Abhi bahot seh chuki hon aur nahin seh paungi.

Thank you very much for coming in my life and teaching me what is TRUE LOVE. I LEARNED THAT FROM YOU ONLY ABHI. AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING THOSE TWO AND A HALF MONTHS YOU WORKED HERE TO BE MEMORABLE FOR ME WHICH I WILL CHERISH ALL MY LIFE. WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE DAYS. I STILL REMEMBER EACH AND EVERY MOMENT AS YOU HAVE WRITTEN IN YOUR DIARIES…. I COPIED ALMOST ALL THOSE MOMENTS BACK IN A NEW COPYBOOK FROM YOUR DIARY TO KEEP FOR MYSELF. I LOVED YOU LATE BUT DID LOVE YOU VERY MUCH ABHI. MUCH LATER I REALISED HOW MUCH I HAD ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I KNOW ITS TOO LATE NOW. YOU LOVED ME FROM YOUR SOUL, YOU ONCE WROTE OUR SOULS WERE CONNECTED, YOU WERE RIGHT BUT I WAS WRONG NOT TO RECOGNISE MY OWN SOULT AT THE RIGHT TIME.

Signed:

Ruhi Nunhuck.

To be continued….
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Update 73 Replies Of Ruhi 2

Mehboob aur mummy ne mujhko bahot sunaya uss raat ko…. Din mein aap se mili aur jitna khush thi utna hi royi uss raat ko mummy ke aane ke baad. Mehboob aur mummy ne milkar mujhko samjhaya ke mujhko ab aap se door rehna chahiye aur Amit ke saath shaadi karke chale jaana chahiye….

Ab aaguey….

Ruhi ne llikhna Jaari rakha….

“Abhi magar ek baat thi jo aap ko unn dinon bilkool samajh mein nahin aya tha, wo yeh ke Mehboob mujhko istemaal kar raha tha aap se apne bus ke kaam niklawaane ke liye.

Yaad hai jiss din aap aur Saeed mein ladaayi hui thi, to Mehboob ne hi mujhe aap ko ek taraf lejaane ko kaha tha aap ko shant karne ke liye? That day was our first kiss day. Main aap ko ghar ke piche wale kone mein legayi thi….. Ussi din ko jab aap ghar wapas chale gaye the to Mehbob aya tha hamare yahan aur maa ke samne uss ne mujhe aap se meethi meethi baat karne ko, aap ko apne pyar mein uljhaane ko kaha tha, maa se bhi ussne kaha mujhko aap ke karib jaane dene ke liye, maa bhi mili hui thi Mehboob ke saath aap ko baandhne rakhne ke liye meri muhabat mein, donon ko pata chal chuka tha ke aap ko mujh se pyar ho gaya hai, Saeed ne shayad mehbob se keh diya tha ke aap aksar absent rehte ho, Mondays ho kaam par nahin aate ho to Mehboob ne kaha tha ke usska kaam delay hoga agar aap absent rahe to, kyunke aap sabse fast kaam karte the, Saeed se bhi ziada kaam karte the aap, to Mehboob ko aap ki zaroorat thi to ussne mujhse help maanga tha ke main aap ko lubhaoon, ke aap se baat karun ke main aap ko rijhaun taake aap har roz kaam par aaye!......... Magar Abhi main weisa kuch karna nahin chaahti thi, buss aap se batein karti thi, aap ke karib aati thi aur jiss din pehli bar aap ne mujhse kaha tha ke aap ke jaane ke waqt main kitchen ke chaukath par rahun uss din ko main ne Mehboob se keh diya tha ke aap ne weisa kaha hai, to wo khush hua tha aur uss ne bhi mujhko wohi karne ko kaha, ussne kaha dekho wo jaate hue tumko mudh kar dekhega, aashik hai to khush kardo, yahan khade rehne se tumhara kia jaata hai….

Abhi aap ko lubhaate lubhaate main khud aap se pyar kar baithi thi, aap mein kuch tha jo yahan kissi mein nahin tha, main Mehboob ke liye aap ko nahin rokti thi, main aap ko apne khud ke liye rokne lagi thi, jiss raat ko aap ko rehne ke liye kaha tha wo meri apni marzi thi, wo main chahti thi halaan ke Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap hamare ghar ruke hue ho aur aap samajh rahe the ke ussko nahin pata tha, ussko aur Rahima donon ko pata tha ke aap uss raat ko hamare yahan ruke ho….

Aap ko yeh bhi nahin pata ke Manoj ghussa hua tha aap ke rukne se jab aap nahane chale gaye the… aur ussi waqt Mehboob ne Manoj ko samjhaya tha ke Aap ko kuch nah kahein yeh uss ke kehne se meri maa ne aap ko rukne ko kaha…. Assal mein main ne aap ko roka tha uss raat ko. Dusre din Mehboob aur manoj mein behez hui thi iss baat ko lekar, manoj Mehboob se oonchi awaaz mein baat kiya tha aur ussko kaha tha ke agar aap ko ghar par rokna hai to wo aap ko apne ghar men rokein hamare yahan nahin.

Abhi aap ne yeh likha hai apne diary mein


{“I am waiting for that day when Ruhi will be here on this bed together with me and I will make her read all this. She will then read and know what I was going through the days I worked in her yard. Those were the most beautiful days of my life which I will never forget. I met love, I met the one I was waiting for, I met my soul mate in that yard. And I am grateful to God and my job. If I was not doing this job I would never have gone there, would have never known her, would have never met her….”}

To answer this Abhi I have to say that I have been the most unfortunate person to have lost you and your true love. You loved me so dearly with all your heart, you longed for me, you wanted me, but my love was fake in the beginning, I was playing with you for the sake of Mehboob, I was retaining you, but when I started liking you and wanted to be with you it seemed to be late, still I did try but they were stronger than me; my mother and Mehboob, they were the ones pulling the string, I was a mere puppet! …. You met love, you met your soul mate you have written but I did not deserve your true love Abhi, because YOUR love was sincere and TRUE whereas mine was fake… that is why the God whom you thanked, did not allow that to happen because the God knew I was fake and did not deserve your love!

Mere papa:

Aap ne pucha tha uss din jab papa ka phone aya tha ke wo kaisa inssaan hai. Main ne aap ko bataya tha ke wo makhan hai…. Sach mein wo weisa hi hai… uss ghar mein papa patni hai aur maa pati hai…..

Mere papa ek aisa insaan hai jo bachpan se jhuka raha hai… bahut khamosh, usski awaaz tak thik se sunaayi nahin dete…. Meri dadi ne bataya tha mujhe ke papa to itna Sharmila tha ke shaadi bhi nahin karna chahta tha…. he was too shy a peron.

Baad mein dada dadi ne usski shaadi karwa diye to maa mil gayi ussko aur jald hi maa ko pata chal gaya ke wo kaisa insaan hai so she started dominating papa and she had always been the head of the family not papa… papa was always too cool, silent, never raised his voice and mummy took advantage of his silence to dominate him….. papa was a person who could never take a decision, so his wife always decided and she ruled over him all her life. He is a very nice person indeed, but too cool and silent for a woman like my mother. My mother should never have been his wife.

Abhi jab maa nani ke yahan se wo news lekar aayi ke Amit 4 mahine baad ane wala hai mujh se shaadi karke mujhe apne saath lejaane ke liye, to sach kahun to mujhe wo chaka chaund, foreign desh, France, Paris, plane se safar karna, amir desh mein rehna yeh sab of course bahot assar kiya tha mujh par… aap ke aane se pehle main ussi sapne mein jine lagi thi ke mujhe France jana hai, koyi Amit hai jo mujhe shaadi karke le jaega apne saath. Mujhe laga tha kudrat ne mere liye wohi decide kiya hai, issi liye mujhse wo ghalati hui thi teenage mein kyunke mujhe uss ghalati ko yahan chorr kar chale jana hai….

Shweta:

Aap se ek baat kahun….. jaise jaise Shweta badi hoti gayi mujhe uss se nafrat hone lagi….. main uss se door rehne lagi thi, iss liye ke usski vajah se mere future mein baadha padne lage the.. mujhe koyi proposal nahin aate the, mujhe kissi adher aadmi se shaadi karni padti sirf Shweta ki existence ki vajah se…. baby thi tab uss se lagao tha, jab wo 2 saal ki hui to main uss se bilkool door hone lagi… Shweta se main ne jaan bujh kar cut off kar liya tha, wo aati to thi magar ziada tar meri maa aur Manoj ya Mahesh ke saath rehti thi, bahot kum mere saath kyunke ussko pata chal chuka tha main ussko passand nahin karti….. Shweta ko mujhse koyi sneh ya pyar nahin mila tha kyunke main uss se nafrat jo karne lagi thi aur wo Shweta ko dikhne laga tha…. kabhi kabhi to wo school vacation mein 2 hafton ke liye rehne aati thi aur unn do hafton mein ek din bhi main ne ussko gale nahin lagaya… do hafton mein ek ya do din uss se baat kiye main ne…. sirf jab aap yahan the tab main uss ke saath thoda khelti thi taake aap ko koyi shak nah ho!! varna Shweta se mai hamesha door rahi…… usski ek vajah aur thi, ke main desh chorr kar door jaane wali thi to uss se bichadne par mujhe dukh nah ho iss liye bhi door rahi thi uss se….. shweta ko bachpan se pata tha ke main ussko passand nahin karti thi…. Yeh wo jaanti thi.

Aur jab Shweta 18 ki hui aur ussko pata chala ke ussko janam dene wali maa main hoon to ussne mujhe wo sab yaad dilaya ke main kiss tarah uss se door rehti aur uss se nafrat karti thi… Shweta ek alag hi bachi thi, ussko bachpan ke saare baat yaad hein aaj bhi… ussko aap bhi yaad ho bahot achi tarah, wo kewal unn dinon 6/7 ki thi magar ussko sab bilkool saaf yaad hai… Shweta ki brain ajeeb hai usski intelligence fast kaam karti hai ussko sab kuch yaad rehta hai…. Wo 3 saal ki thi to kia hua tha ussko saaf yaad hai aur bata deti hai… mere sheher wale chaha heyraan tha ek din ussne bataya tha ke shweta ko wo kissi ke ghar legaya tha kissi kaam se jab Shweta 3 saal ki thi, uss aadmi ke ghar mein ek jhumar tha aur ek wall clock jo bajta tha… Shweta jab 12 saal ki thi to ek din uss wall clock aur jhumar ke baare mein puch rahi thhi mere chacha se aur uss aadmi ka hulya bilkool clear describe kiya tha uss ne….. Shweta ko bachpan se adult wale feelings hote the, ussko sab kuch 100% pata chalta tha ke kia ho raha hai……

Pata hai aap ko? Jiss din aap mere chachi ke ghar mujhe dhundte hue aaye the to Shweta wahin thi nah… aap ke jaane ke baad Shweta mujhse naraaz hui thi aur mujhe gandi kaha tha uss ne… ek badi adult ki tarah danta tha mujhko Shweta ne. main dang reh gayi thi. Mujhse kaha tha ke aap kaisa insaan ho, Abhi aap se itna pyar karta hai aur aap yahan andar baithi rahi ussko yahan se chiilla kar jawaab nahin de sakti thi? Wo ro raha tha aap ke liye aur aap ko kuch nahin hua? Aap ke feelings hi nahin hai, stone hearted ho aap. Kaash Abhi mujhse se pyar karta aur main aap ki jagah hota to ussko kabhi nahin jaane deta uss se zaroor shaadi karti main…… ek 6/7 saal ki ladki aise baatein keh sakti hai? Mujhe jhatka laga tha Shweta ki baat se uss roz…..

Aur jab ussko pata chal gaya ke main usski maa hoon, mujhse yahan jhagadne aayi thi tab bhi aap ko mention kiya tha uss ne…. kaha tha ke bhagwaan ne mujhe issi liye sazaa diya kyunke main ne aap ka dil dukhaya tha…..wo sab jo hua tha usske bachpan mein sab yaad tha ussko 18 saal ki hui tab bhi… aap ko bahot passand karti hai usski baton se laga tha mujhe tab bhi keh gayi thi ke aap usse milo to wo aap se shaadi kar legi…. Main ne ussko bataya ke aap shadi shuda ho already to wo maan nahin rahi thi keh rahi thi ke main jhoot bol rahi hoon… aur mujhse kaha ke ussi din se wo aap se pyar karne lagi thi jiss din aap ko mere liye rote dekha tha usske yahan.. aap se sach mein bahot pyar karti hai…. Kyun nah ho aap ho hi pyar ke kaabil… usko aap ka pyar dikh gaya tha Abhi mujhe nahin dikha tha kitni andhi thi main?! January 1987 mein jab wo aayi thi hamare yahan New year ke mauke par to aap ko dhund rahi thi, jab usskko pata chala tha ke aap ab yahan kabhi nahin aoge kaam khatam ho gaya to bahot royi thi, mujhse puchne aayi thi ke ab kaise wo aap se mil paegi? Aap kidhar rehte ho ussko aap ke yahan lejaane ko kaha tha mujhe!!! Mujhe bhi rula diya tha ussne aap ki yaad dila kar…. Main uss se kehne wali thi ke aap 4/5 ya 7th ko aane wale the, magar shukar hai ke nahin kaha kyunke agar wo hoti aur usske saamne Manoj ne aap ko weise nikala hota to kia guzarti uss par?

Magar ussko baad mein sab pata chal hi gaya aakhir…. Kuch mahine baad wo mujhse bahot naraaz hui thi ke kyun main ne aap ko nahin roka tha jab manoj ne aap ko ghar se nikala tha. pata hai Shweta ne kia kaha tha Abhi? Ussne kaha tha ke agar wo Ruhi hoti to ghar se turant bhaag kar aap ke piche jaati aur iss ghar ko chorr kar hamesha ke liye aap ke sath chali jaati…. Uss umar mein Shweta ka wo kehna tha aap ke liye!!! Wo bahot hi intelligent thi. Ek adult wali brain thi usske paas bachpan se hi. Sach pucho to mere dil mein aap ke liye ziada pyar Shweta ne jagaayi thi Abhi…. Ek baat kahuna ap se? jab 18 ki hone ke baad Shweta aap ke liye ro kar mujhse keh rahi thi ke wo aap se shadi karegi to mere dimaagh mein yeh baat ayi tha ke agar aap ne shaadi nahin kiya hota to main aap ko Shweta se shadi karne ko kehti… aap sirf 15 saal uss se bade ho, handsome to ho hi wo 18 ki thi 20 ki hoti tab aap 35 ke hote to ziada farak dikhta hi nahin, kyunke wo aap ko itna chahti thi main ne aap ka Rishta Shweta se bhi soch liya tha….. main jo nahin kar paayi thi, jo kami main ne chorra tha aap ki life mein wo kami apni beti se puri karwati main aap ke liye….. aap bhi ussko bahot passand karte the nah Abhi? Hmmm? Mujhe yaad hai, aap ne kaha tha wo bilkool meri tarah dikhti thi aap ko, aur ek baat kahun? Wo sach mein meri tarah hi hai…. Magar mujhse hazaar guna ziada intelligent, honshiyaar hai, daring hai, aap ki aur usski khub banti… aap ko uss se zaroor milna chahiye, mujhe yakeen hai ke uss se milkar aap bahot khush honge aur wo to uchal padegi…

Main kia keh rahi thi aur kia kehne lagi….. shweta yaad agayi bich mein ….. haan to uss din ke baad mummy aur Mehboob ne ab mujhe aap se doorie rakhne ko kaha kyunke Amit ane wala tha…. issi liye uss din ke baad main aap se distance banaane lagi thi magar ussi din aap ko mujhe apna love letter bhi dena tha jiss ne mujhe pighla diya tha aur main kashmakash mein pad gayi thi ke ab main kia karun!!!

Jiss din shaam ko main Mahesh, Farzina aur ek cousin ke saath baith kar aap ko suna rahi thi ke aap kia samajhte ho ke main aap se shaadi karungi, wo sab aap ko discourage karne ke liye tha, aap ko khud se door karne ke liye tha, aap ke dil mein mere liye nafrat paida karne ke liye tha magar aap ka pyar mazbut tha aur aap mujhse phir bhi aur bhi ziada pyar karte gaye, aap ka pyar ghatta nahin badhta gayaa mere liye aur main bebuss lachaar ulajhti gayi ke kia karun….. Aap aur Amit mein se mujhe ek ko chunna tha main samajh nahin paa rahi thi ke kia karun…. Mummy aur Mehboob ka kehna tha ke aap mujhse nafrat karoge jab aap ko pata chalega ke main ek bachi ki maa hoon…. Tabhi main ne decide kiya ke aap ko ab batana hoga…. Magar sirf itna bata paayi ke I am not a virgin aur aap ne to keh hi diya ke chaahe main ek bachchi ki maa hoon tab bhi aap mujhse shaadi karne ke liye tayaar ho….

Wo kehne se pehle main ne maa aur Mehboob se shart lagaayi thi ke aap mujhse phir bhi nafrat nahin karoge, aur uss roz maa ke saamne jab khidki ke paas aap rone ke karib the aur main aap se ziada rone lagi thi, aur aap ne mummy se piche ka darwaza kholne ko kaha tha, to main ne khola tha…. kia aap ko yaad hai uss roz uss se pehle Mehboob aur Rahima ne aap se kia kaha tha?

Rahima ne kaha tha ke aap hamare yahan rehne wale ho aur Mehboob ne kaha tha ke achchi baat hai subha ko jaldi kaam shuru kar doge? Yaad hai Abhi? Ussi din; din mein meri shart lagi thi mummy aur Mehboob se ke aap mujhse nafrat nahin karoge sab jaanne ke baad bhi…. Aur issi liye Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap se mujhe wo sab kehna hai shart ke anusaar mujhe pata lagana hai ke agar aap ko mere baare mein pata chala to aap kia karoge….

Aur uss raat ko main ne aap ko apne ghar roka tha yeh jaane ke baad ke aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karoge chahe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hui…. Mujhe wo kehne ki zaroorat hi nahin padi, aap ne wo keh bhi diya phir bhi main ne aap se stupidly pucha tha ke what if I am not a virgin…. Mujhe yehi kehna tha kyunke main ne wohi puchne ko plan kiya tha….. uss din aap ne mera dil jeet liya tha aur main shart bhi jeet gayi thi…. Mummy tabhi disappoint ho gayi thi issi liye aap ko ghar par rehne diya tha…. jab aap nahane gaye the to meri uss se baat hui thi Manoj se baat hone ke baad. Main ne mummy se kaha tha ke main shart jeet gayi aur Abhi mujhse phir bhi shaadi karne ke liye tayyaar hai chahhe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hoon tab bhi suna aap ne!..... uss raat ko to mummy ne kuch nahin kaha tha uss raat wo aap ke favour mein thi magar dusre din Mehboob aur ussne phir baat kiye the aur weh donon Amit ke favour mein the.

Abhi uss raat ko main aap se humbistar hona chahti thi…. Pata hai kyun? Iss liye ke aap uss din mujhse wo karna chahte the jiss din lunch karne aaye the tab main ne aap ko mana kiya tha iss liye uss raat ko aap ko compensate karna chahti thi….. jab aap ne mujhe baahon mein bharke kiss kiya tha to meri rooh kaamp gayi thi….. main ne teenage mein jo sex kiya tha tab kuch sexual feeling kuch bhi nahin hua tha, magar uss raat aap ke saath real sexual feeling kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, arousal kia hota hai, envy aur desire kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, usski gehraayi se ehsaas hui thi aur usski zaroorat bhi feel hui thi… aap ne itni badi baat keh diye the ke aap ko apna tan, mann sab dene ka mann kar raha tha mujhe, uss raat ko real love aur sexual pleasure feel karne ko man kar raha tha mera, aap ko chorrne ko bilkool mann nahin kar raha tha, mann kar raha tha ke raat bhar aap mere saath sote. Mere baahon mein rehte raat bhar…. Magar uss raat ko aap ajeeb the, uss raat ko aap wo nahin chahte the jo main chaahti thi….. Abhi agar uss raat ko aap ne mere saath sex kar liya hota to main ussi raat ko decide kar liya tha kabhi bhi Amit ko accept nahin karti, main uss raat ko tan aur mann se aap ki ho jaati….

Magar dusre din ko sab gadbad hone laga tha Abhi…. Main to aap ke liye rehna chahti thi magar mummy aur Mehboob bilkool nahin chahte the… weh donon mujhse tab kehne lage the ke aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karenge ke bachi wali ladki ke saath apne bete ki shaadi karaayen…. Aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karte ye sab keh keh kar unn donon ne mere dimaagh chaat liye the ke main bhi tang aagayi thi aur Amit ko priority dene lagi aur aap se dobara doorie rakhne lagi thi….

Issi liye aap ko mere response controversial lage honge ke main ne aap se ek baar kaha tha ke haan Amit hai phir kaha tha ke sab jhoot hai, meri virginity ki vajah se main jhoot bol rahi thi aur phir wapas kaha tha ke haan Amit hai…..

Aur phir mera jana hua ta Nani ke ghar…. Dar assal, nani, maasi aur mama logon ne uss roz mummy se kaha tha mujhe lekar wahan aane ke liye. Aur Abhi jab main wahan gayi thi to mera itna brainwashing kiya gaya tha ke kia bataun… uff…. Mujhe almost paagal bana diya tha sab ne wahan…. Amit ki itni taarif karte the sab ke jaise wo koyi raja maharajah hai… usski sister aur mother ko bulaya gaya tha mujhse milne ke liye, mujhko hausla dilaane ke liye ke Amit mere lite perfect choice hai…. Mujhko Amit ki photis dikhaaye gaye the, France mein Eifel tower ke paas ke usski tasveerein aur Paris mein pata nahin kiss kiss jagah mein usski li hui pics dikhaaye gaye the…. Mujhko jaise force kiya jaa raha tha ke main ussi ko chose karun aap ko nahin…. Waha sabko pata chal chuka tha ke aap mujhko chahte ho aur main duvidha mein hoon ke Amit ko select karun ya aap ko…..

Aur Nani aur mama ne mujhse aur mummy se kayi baar kaha ke wahan par jitney bhi log wo kaam karte hein jo aap karte ho most of the time sab ke sab bekaar rehte hein, unn ke paas kaam nahin hota, to sab kehte ke aap bhi weisa hi rahoge shaadi ke baad aur mera bura haal hoga aap ke saath.. mere 3 mama hein wahan aur 2 maasi… sabke sab mujhe convince kiye ke aap ko drop karun, aap se pyar nah karun aur Amit ko select karun….

Abhi sab bade the, mere apne the, main kia karti? Badon ko sunna padta hai nah…. main nahin kehti ke main ne argue nahin kiya, bahot argue kiya sabse kaha ke aap mujhse tab bhi shaadi karne ko tayyar ho halaan ke meri ek beti hai, aap mujhse sach mein pyar karte ho main khud gawah hoon yeh sab kaha main ne unn sabse…. Maa ne bhi kaha sab se ke aap dhit ho aap mujhko pagalon ki tarah pyar karte ho…. mummy kabhi kabhi aap ka side le rahi thi keh rahi thi ke kaise bhi ho aap to saamne ho, aap dikh rahe ho aur saaf dikhta hai ke aap kitna pyar karte ho mujhse… magar mama logon ne mummy ko danta yeh kehte hue ke apni khud ki beti ko kunwe mein dhakelna chahti ho?

Mujhko wahan se convince karke bheja gaya tha ke main aap se door ho jaun…. Issi liye nani ke ghar se wapas ane ke baad main aap se aur bhi door ho gayi thi….. magar jis din aayi thi ussi din aap ko main ne pehli baar I LOVE YOU kaha tha….wo sirf iss liye ke mujhe pata tha ab wo aap ko kabhi nahin keh paungi, kyunke mujhko to Amit ke saath jana hoga iss liye socha ek baar to keh doon…..

Phir usske baad har roz aap se thoda thoda door hoti gayi mai aap ko ghar ke andar se chhup chhup kar dekhti thi, bahot dukh hota tha aap ki haalat dekh kar, magar aap seeti bajaate, mujhe bulaate, main andar roti dil pat patthar rakh kar roti, kabhi aa bhi jaati thi, magar mummy dantti, Mehboob mujhko mote mote aankhon se dekhti, wapaas andar jaane ko ishara karta wo…. Main ghut ghut ke rehti thi ghar ke andar…..

To be continued immediately in the next post

Jhakaass, gajab ka update hai bhai.
I am speechless sach mein.
Ruhi ne to bahut kuch bata diya.
Bahut dukh jhela hai bechari ne yaar!!
 

shambhu

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Update 74 Replieis Of Ruhi 3

Aur papa aya… ussi raat ko sab phir nani ke ghar gaye the yaad hai nah? phir wohi baat… wahan iss liye gaye the ke papa se wo log ab kahe ke mujhe aap se door rakhe aap ki proposal ko wo accept nah kare… papa to thehre yes man wo kia kaarta jo kuch ussko bolne ko kaha gaya wohi kaha ussne….

Aur aap ki kaam ki last day aane wala tha.. to nani ke yahan sabne mummy aur papa se kaha ke mujhko wahan se hatta diya jaaye taake last day ko main wahan rahun hi nahin aur aap kuch keh nah sake kissi se…. mujhko to pata tha ke aap papa se mera haath mangne wale ho, magar nani ke ghar yeh bhi pata chal gaya tha ke papa aap ko refuse karega kyunke nani ke ghar se ussko yehi order mila…..

To uss din ko main jaane wali thi issi liye farzina se khabar bheja tha aap ke paas ke main jaane wali hoon apni behen ke saath…. Mujhe pata tha mere jaane se pehle aap zaroor baat karne aoge mujhse… aur jab main kanghi kar rahi thi to aap ko khidki se issi liye dekh rahi thi jaane ke liye ke aap ko pata chala bhi ke nahin…. Aur aap aaye the khidki ke paas jaise main expect kar rahi thi…..

Uss roz main bahot ajeeb thi nah? yehi likha hai aap ne apni diary mein… padha main ne….. haan main thi bahot strange… apne dil par yun samajh lijiye ke main ne ek pahaad rakha hua tha aap se uss tarah se behave karne ke liye…. Ghar par mujhko maa, papa, didi, Mehboob, mere behnoy sab mujh par chadh rahe the ke main bilkool nah rowun aur aap se bold pesh aaun, yeh dikhaun ke aap se bilkool pyar nahin karti…. Magar sabko, didi aur bro in law ko bhi pata tha ke main aap se kitna pyar karne lagi thi… main bahot royi thi uss din jaane se pehle… didi se puchna…. Main itni royi thi ke mere dum ghutne lage the, main saans nahin le paa rahi thi yahan tak ke brother in law ne kaha tha ke meri aur aap ki shaadi kar diya jaaye…

Jab aap khidki se baat kar rahe the, to ek aadmi tha jiska dil ro raha tha aap ko dekh kar wo meri didi ka husband tha…. wo aap ke pyar ko samajhta tha.. sab wahan milkar aap ko discourage karne ke liye aaye hue the…. Jab aap ne papa ko bulwaya to ussne kaha ke wo mujhe lekar apne sath lejaane wale hein mujhko pata tha ke aap ko bilkool bhi yakeen nahin tha aap ko pata tha ke wo jhoot tha, mujhe sab pata tha, phir bhi mujhko wohi bolna pada tha kyunke papa wohi kehne wala tha aap se.. aur jab aap ne kaha tha ke aap mera intezaar akroge aur didi ne pucha ke kab tak wait karoge to aap ne kaha tha zindagi bhar mujhe itna zor se rone ka mann kiya tha uss waqt ke samajh mein nahin aya tha ke kia karun….. tab papa ne aap se kaha tha ke Amit ko zubaan de chuke hein matlab aap ko kissi kimat par yeh kehna tha ke NAHIN -NO. NAHIN HO SAKTA AAP KI SHAADI RUHI SE….. yehi kehna aur batana tha aap ko…. AAP KA DIL TODNA THA, AAP KE DIL PAR EK KHANJAR CHALAANA THA, AAP KE DIL SE KHOON BAHANA THA…AUR SAARE ILZAAM MUJHKO APNE UPAR LENA THA…. AAP KE DIL KE TUKDE MAIN NE KIYE, AAP KO DHOKA MAIN NE DIYA, AAP SE DAGHA MEIN NE KIYA…SAB MUJHKO APNE UPAR LEKAR WAHAN SE JAANA THA AUR WAPAS TAB ANA THA JAB AAP YAHAN HONGE HI NAHIN…..AAP SE MAAFI MAANGNE KA BHI ADHIKAAR NAHIN THA MERE PAAS…. Samajhlo ke mere kaandhe par bandook rakh kar aap ke dil par seinron goliyan chalaya gaya tha aur mujhe sab dekhte hue hanssna tha…. yehi kiya gaya tha aap ke saath uss din Abhi aur haan main sab dekhti rahi unn sab ka saath deti rahi main bhi……

Iss sab ka gehra ehsaas mujhe tab hua jiss din aap Shweta ke ghar ro rahe the meri chachi se sab kehte hue….. main khamoshi se ro rahi thi aap ko sunte hue…. Phir bhi main ne aap ko nahin roka chachi ka khayal karte hue ke wo aap ke saamne jhooti nah kehlaaye….

Aur haan uss roz jab main jaa rahi thi aur aap bus ke piche ke darwaaze se kud kar mujhko baahon mein bhar ke kiss karne aaye the uss ek pal ko main bhool gayi thi ke main main hoon…. Main ro rahi thi aap ki haalat dekh kar bus mein…. Mujhe aap ko chorr kar jaane ko bilkool bhi mann nahi tha, mujhe pata tha ke uss din ke baad uss aangan mein aap phir kabhi nahin dikhoge… mujhe yakeen tha ke uss raat ko aap ne kissi bhi time ko kaam end kiya mujhse zaroor miloge, mujhe uss waqt ka intezaar tha, magar main khud aap ko chorr kar jaa rahi thi…. To jis waqt aap ne mujhko baahon mein thaama main bilkool pighal gayi aur sab kuch bhool kar aap ke kiss ko respond kiya, goli maar diya tha sabko main ne uss ek pal ko Abhi kyunke ek last kiss aap ko karna banta tha…. aap ko yaad hai maa ko main ne kaise jawaab diya tha ke haan shooting chal rahi hai film ki….. I did not care at all at that moment… mujh mein ek ajib si shakti aayi thi jiss pal ko aap ne mujhko baahon mein liya tha sabke saamne open mein…. Aap ki daring ki daat deri hoon Abhi. You are a TRUE MAN!.... magar jab main jaane lagi thi aap ko tut kar niche baith kar rote hue dekh kar mera kaleja fatt raha tha Abhi, mujhko turant laut kar wapas aane ka mann kar raha tha, didi ne mera haath pakar kar khiincha tha mujhe chalne ke liye….. aur main chali gayi thi Abhi aap ko ussi haal mein chorr kar…..

Wahan se didi ke ghar jaane tak 22 kms hein main unn 22 kms tak roti gayi…. Roti rahi raat bhar aap ko yaad karte hue…. Kab nendh aayi pata hi nahin chala…..

Phir aayi wo din jab aap meri chachi ke ghar aaye aur main ghar wapas aayi thi 29th ya 30th ko… aap ka new year card mila tha jiss mein aap ne kaha ha ke aap 3, 4 ya 5th ko aoge…. Mujhe ek sukoon sa feel hua tha….. aap ko bhool nahin paa rahi thi.. mera aangan suna tha, aap ki seeti sunne ko kaan taras rahe the main baar baar kitchen se uss jagah dekh rahi thi jahan buss hua karta tha, jiss jiss jagah aap dikhaayi dete the main unn jagahon par dekhti rehti iss umeed se ke aap ek baar dikh jao mujhe…. Mere aangan mein jitna Abhi ka naam goonjhte hue sunaayi deta tha ab unta hi sannata hua karta tha…. kuch bhi acha nahin lagta tha… main washing stone par kapde dhoti to aap feel hote the lagta tha aap achanak piche se ajaoge, aap ki aahat ka ehsaas hota tha, kitab padhti khidki se tek lagaaye to aap nazar aate the baahar… kabhi kabhi lagta meri aankhen mujhko dkhoka de rahe hein, aap ko aisa feel karti ke aap ke saanson ka bhi ehsaas hone lagta mujhe…. Abhi TAB MUJHE EHSAAS HUA KE MAIN AAP SE KITNA PYAR KARTI HOON AUR AAP KO KITNA MISS KAR RAHI HOON…. Aap ne jo khat likha tha new year card ke saath uss mein mujhe ek bahot bada umeed dikhaayi diya… aap ne uss mein likha tha ke aap mujhse, mere papa se phir haath mange aoge phir uske baad apne parents ke saath aoge mujhe dekhne tab mangni tey hogi….. par main ne tab bhi ek bahot badi ghalati kar diya tha abhi…. Main ne mummy ko wo sab bata diya tha… mujhe mummy ko nahin batana chahiye tha, tab wo mujhe nahin rokti mera munh nahin dabaati, main achanak uss din aap ke saamne aajati aur papa ke saamne kehti ke haan mujhe aap Manzoor ho to papa kabhi inkaar nahin karta…..

Aap ne kayi baar uss khat mein kaha tha mujhe ke aap ko mera saath chahiye, mujhe wahan maujood hona chahiye, mujhko bhi baat karna chahite apne papa se, mujhe kehna chahiye ke haan main aap se pyar karti hoon…. Abhi MAIN NE WOHI NAHIN KIYA ABHI…..

Baaki main aap ko bata chuki hoon ke uss roz kia hua tha main kyun nahin nikal paayi thi……

Jab aap ko nikala gaya tha ghar se phir kia kiya tha main ne wo bata chuki hoon aap ko…..

Tab realise hua ke kho diya main ne aap ko, tab pata chala aur ehsaas hua aap ka pyar kitna keemti tha, tab samajh mein aya kia khoya hai main ne aur faisla kiya ke sabko sabak dekar rahungi, aur jo taakat mujh mein tab nahin thi jab aap yahan the wo taaqat tab aayi mujh mein inn sab ke saamna karne ki.

Main ek jwala ban chuki thi, mujhe rokne ko tab kissi mein himmat nahin thi, nah maa nah baap nah Mehboob nah Manoj. Main ne manoj ko kayi thapad mara tha yeh nahin bataya tha aap ko. Tabhi se uss se baat karna bandh kiya tha aur 5 saal baad usske shadi ke din uss se baad karna dobara shuru kiya tha wo bhi kabhi kabhi.

Aap ki dairy padh kar pata chala uss roz, 5th January ko ussi bus stop par aap ne apne tute hue dil se kaha tha ke kutte ki maut naseeb nah ho jaye ussko ussi jagah aur exactly wohi hua tha usske saath ussi jagah mara tha wo.

Maa aur Mehboob ko kia sazaa mili thi wo aap ko zubaani bataungi jab diary lene aoge tab.

Ek maze ki baat bata doon aap ko ke Amit aane wala tha mere nani, mama aur mamiyon ke saath mujhe dekhne April mein ussi saal jiss saal mein aap ko ghar sen ikala gaya tha…. sirf 3 mahine guzre the mere bawaal machaane ke baad aur sab darr rahe the mujhko batana ke wo aane wala hai…. Ek din pehle ek mama aya mujhko samjhane ke ussko receive kar liya jaaye… mujhe aap ka badla lena tha ghar walon se to main ne mama se kaha thik hai aane do Amit ko.

Wo aya bhi to kiss din Abhi? Aap ke birthday ke din aya wo mujhe dekhne aur haath maange uss se shaadi ke liye. 12th April tha, main aap ki yaad mein doobi thi jab nani, mama, aur do mamiyan aye hamare ghar, ussi jagah jahan se aap ko nikala gaya tha. sab ghar par the kyunke wo ane wala tha. papa wapas nahin gaye the tab tak ussi ke liye.

Abhi ussko main ne wo sunaya, wo haal kiya, aise aise galiyan diye ussko, bilkool jo aap ke saath kiya tha Manoj ne, Manoj ke saamne ussi tarah dhitkaar kar nikala unn sabko main ne ghar se….. nani aur mama mamiyan ko bhi sunaya aur kaha ke khabardaar phir kabhi mere liye kissi ko bhi iss dwar par laya to kutte ki tarah maar ke nikalungi…… Amit aisa gaya ke aaj tak usske baare mein khabar nahin mili,aur uss din ke baad main aaj tak nani ke ghar nahin gayi, marr bhi gayi wo bhi aur unn mein se ek mama bhi aur ek mami bhi…..

Here you go Abhi jo kehna tha keh diya aap ko, ab samajh mein nahin ata kia kehne ko bhooli hoon…. Jo miss kiya aap ko bataane ko wo aap puch lena jab miloge to bata dungi….

Mujhe pata hai wo din wapas nahin aane wale, weh pal nahin laut kar aane wale, buss aap dobara mile isske liye apni taqdeer ka shuriya ada karti hoon, yeh sab kehna tha aap se keh diya dil ka ek bojh halka hua, aap ko jo kehna tha, jo likha tha aap ne unn dinon wo mujh tak pahunchana tha wo aap ne bhi kar diya aap ka bhi bojh halka hua hoga.

Ab araam se mar sakungi marne ka time aega to, saare shikwe gile door hue umeed hai aap ko aur koyi shikaayat nahin rahega ab.baaki jo bhi kiya aap ke saath unn sab ke liye maafi maangti hoon, aap ke sacha pyar ko thukraya usski sazaa bhugat chuki hoon aur bhugat rahi bhi hoon, agar aap ne kahin mujhko bhi bad duah diye ho to wapas le lena please mujh par rehem karna Abhi bahot seh chuki hon aur nahin seh paungi.

Thank you very much for coming in my life and teaching me what is TRUE LOVE. I LEARNED THAT FROM YOU ONLY ABHI. AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING THOSE TWO AND A HALF MONTHS YOU WORKED HERE TO BE MEMORABLE FOR ME WHICH I WILL CHERISH ALL MY LIFE. WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE DAYS. I STILL REMEMBER EACH AND EVERY MOMENT AS YOU HAVE WRITTEN IN YOUR DIARIES…. I COPIED ALMOST ALL THOSE MOMENTS BACK IN A NEW COPYBOOK FROM YOUR DIARY TO KEEP FOR MYSELF. I LOVED YOU LATE BUT DID LOVE YOU VERY MUCH ABHI. MUCH LATER I REALISED HOW MUCH I HAD ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I KNOW ITS TOO LATE NOW. YOU LOVED ME FROM YOUR SOUL, YOU ONCE WROTE OUR SOULS WERE CONNECTED, YOU WERE RIGHT BUT I WAS WRONG NOT TO RECOGNISE MY OWN SOULT AT THE RIGHT TIME.

Signed:

Ruhi Nunhuck.

To be continued….
(6505 words from both updates)
Casi bhai itna bada super duper mega update likhne ke liye bahut dhayawad aap ka. Yaar itna kaise likh lete ho aap :faint:
Anyway padhne mein to bada maja aya hamein. Khaas kar hum jitna expect kar rahe the Ruhi ke taraf se jaanne ke liye uss se bahut jiada pata chal gaya.
Thanks very much bhai.
 

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Update 73 Replies Of Ruhi 2

Mehboob aur mummy ne mujhko bahot sunaya uss raat ko…. Din mein aap se mili aur jitna khush thi utna hi royi uss raat ko mummy ke aane ke baad. Mehboob aur mummy ne milkar mujhko samjhaya ke mujhko ab aap se door rehna chahiye aur Amit ke saath shaadi karke chale jaana chahiye….

Ab aaguey….

Ruhi ne llikhna Jaari rakha….

“Abhi magar ek baat thi jo aap ko unn dinon bilkool samajh mein nahin aya tha, wo yeh ke Mehboob mujhko istemaal kar raha tha aap se apne bus ke kaam niklawaane ke liye.

Yaad hai jiss din aap aur Saeed mein ladaayi hui thi, to Mehboob ne hi mujhe aap ko ek taraf lejaane ko kaha tha aap ko shant karne ke liye? That day was our first kiss day. Main aap ko ghar ke piche wale kone mein legayi thi….. Ussi din ko jab aap ghar wapas chale gaye the to Mehbob aya tha hamare yahan aur maa ke samne uss ne mujhe aap se meethi meethi baat karne ko, aap ko apne pyar mein uljhaane ko kaha tha, maa se bhi ussne kaha mujhko aap ke karib jaane dene ke liye, maa bhi mili hui thi Mehboob ke saath aap ko baandhne rakhne ke liye meri muhabat mein, donon ko pata chal chuka tha ke aap ko mujh se pyar ho gaya hai, Saeed ne shayad mehbob se keh diya tha ke aap aksar absent rehte ho, Mondays ho kaam par nahin aate ho to Mehboob ne kaha tha ke usska kaam delay hoga agar aap absent rahe to, kyunke aap sabse fast kaam karte the, Saeed se bhi ziada kaam karte the aap, to Mehboob ko aap ki zaroorat thi to ussne mujhse help maanga tha ke main aap ko lubhaoon, ke aap se baat karun ke main aap ko rijhaun taake aap har roz kaam par aaye!......... Magar Abhi main weisa kuch karna nahin chaahti thi, buss aap se batein karti thi, aap ke karib aati thi aur jiss din pehli bar aap ne mujhse kaha tha ke aap ke jaane ke waqt main kitchen ke chaukath par rahun uss din ko main ne Mehboob se keh diya tha ke aap ne weisa kaha hai, to wo khush hua tha aur uss ne bhi mujhko wohi karne ko kaha, ussne kaha dekho wo jaate hue tumko mudh kar dekhega, aashik hai to khush kardo, yahan khade rehne se tumhara kia jaata hai….

Abhi aap ko lubhaate lubhaate main khud aap se pyar kar baithi thi, aap mein kuch tha jo yahan kissi mein nahin tha, main Mehboob ke liye aap ko nahin rokti thi, main aap ko apne khud ke liye rokne lagi thi, jiss raat ko aap ko rehne ke liye kaha tha wo meri apni marzi thi, wo main chahti thi halaan ke Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap hamare ghar ruke hue ho aur aap samajh rahe the ke ussko nahin pata tha, ussko aur Rahima donon ko pata tha ke aap uss raat ko hamare yahan ruke ho….

Aap ko yeh bhi nahin pata ke Manoj ghussa hua tha aap ke rukne se jab aap nahane chale gaye the… aur ussi waqt Mehboob ne Manoj ko samjhaya tha ke Aap ko kuch nah kahein yeh uss ke kehne se meri maa ne aap ko rukne ko kaha…. Assal mein main ne aap ko roka tha uss raat ko. Dusre din Mehboob aur manoj mein behez hui thi iss baat ko lekar, manoj Mehboob se oonchi awaaz mein baat kiya tha aur ussko kaha tha ke agar aap ko ghar par rokna hai to wo aap ko apne ghar men rokein hamare yahan nahin.

Abhi aap ne yeh likha hai apne diary mein


{“I am waiting for that day when Ruhi will be here on this bed together with me and I will make her read all this. She will then read and know what I was going through the days I worked in her yard. Those were the most beautiful days of my life which I will never forget. I met love, I met the one I was waiting for, I met my soul mate in that yard. And I am grateful to God and my job. If I was not doing this job I would never have gone there, would have never known her, would have never met her….”}

To answer this Abhi I have to say that I have been the most unfortunate person to have lost you and your true love. You loved me so dearly with all your heart, you longed for me, you wanted me, but my love was fake in the beginning, I was playing with you for the sake of Mehboob, I was retaining you, but when I started liking you and wanted to be with you it seemed to be late, still I did try but they were stronger than me; my mother and Mehboob, they were the ones pulling the string, I was a mere puppet! …. You met love, you met your soul mate you have written but I did not deserve your true love Abhi, because YOUR love was sincere and TRUE whereas mine was fake… that is why the God whom you thanked, did not allow that to happen because the God knew I was fake and did not deserve your love!

Mere papa:

Aap ne pucha tha uss din jab papa ka phone aya tha ke wo kaisa inssaan hai. Main ne aap ko bataya tha ke wo makhan hai…. Sach mein wo weisa hi hai… uss ghar mein papa patni hai aur maa pati hai…..

Mere papa ek aisa insaan hai jo bachpan se jhuka raha hai… bahut khamosh, usski awaaz tak thik se sunaayi nahin dete…. Meri dadi ne bataya tha mujhe ke papa to itna Sharmila tha ke shaadi bhi nahin karna chahta tha…. he was too shy a peron.

Baad mein dada dadi ne usski shaadi karwa diye to maa mil gayi ussko aur jald hi maa ko pata chal gaya ke wo kaisa insaan hai so she started dominating papa and she had always been the head of the family not papa… papa was always too cool, silent, never raised his voice and mummy took advantage of his silence to dominate him….. papa was a person who could never take a decision, so his wife always decided and she ruled over him all her life. He is a very nice person indeed, but too cool and silent for a woman like my mother. My mother should never have been his wife.

Abhi jab maa nani ke yahan se wo news lekar aayi ke Amit 4 mahine baad ane wala hai mujh se shaadi karke mujhe apne saath lejaane ke liye, to sach kahun to mujhe wo chaka chaund, foreign desh, France, Paris, plane se safar karna, amir desh mein rehna yeh sab of course bahot assar kiya tha mujh par… aap ke aane se pehle main ussi sapne mein jine lagi thi ke mujhe France jana hai, koyi Amit hai jo mujhe shaadi karke le jaega apne saath. Mujhe laga tha kudrat ne mere liye wohi decide kiya hai, issi liye mujhse wo ghalati hui thi teenage mein kyunke mujhe uss ghalati ko yahan chorr kar chale jana hai….

Shweta:

Aap se ek baat kahun….. jaise jaise Shweta badi hoti gayi mujhe uss se nafrat hone lagi….. main uss se door rehne lagi thi, iss liye ke usski vajah se mere future mein baadha padne lage the.. mujhe koyi proposal nahin aate the, mujhe kissi adher aadmi se shaadi karni padti sirf Shweta ki existence ki vajah se…. baby thi tab uss se lagao tha, jab wo 2 saal ki hui to main uss se bilkool door hone lagi… Shweta se main ne jaan bujh kar cut off kar liya tha, wo aati to thi magar ziada tar meri maa aur Manoj ya Mahesh ke saath rehti thi, bahot kum mere saath kyunke ussko pata chal chuka tha main ussko passand nahin karti….. Shweta ko mujhse koyi sneh ya pyar nahin mila tha kyunke main uss se nafrat jo karne lagi thi aur wo Shweta ko dikhne laga tha…. kabhi kabhi to wo school vacation mein 2 hafton ke liye rehne aati thi aur unn do hafton mein ek din bhi main ne ussko gale nahin lagaya… do hafton mein ek ya do din uss se baat kiye main ne…. sirf jab aap yahan the tab main uss ke saath thoda khelti thi taake aap ko koyi shak nah ho!! varna Shweta se mai hamesha door rahi…… usski ek vajah aur thi, ke main desh chorr kar door jaane wali thi to uss se bichadne par mujhe dukh nah ho iss liye bhi door rahi thi uss se….. shweta ko bachpan se pata tha ke main ussko passand nahin karti thi…. Yeh wo jaanti thi.

Aur jab Shweta 18 ki hui aur ussko pata chala ke ussko janam dene wali maa main hoon to ussne mujhe wo sab yaad dilaya ke main kiss tarah uss se door rehti aur uss se nafrat karti thi… Shweta ek alag hi bachi thi, ussko bachpan ke saare baat yaad hein aaj bhi… ussko aap bhi yaad ho bahot achi tarah, wo kewal unn dinon 6/7 ki thi magar ussko sab bilkool saaf yaad hai… Shweta ki brain ajeeb hai usski intelligence fast kaam karti hai ussko sab kuch yaad rehta hai…. Wo 3 saal ki thi to kia hua tha ussko saaf yaad hai aur bata deti hai… mere sheher wale chaha heyraan tha ek din ussne bataya tha ke shweta ko wo kissi ke ghar legaya tha kissi kaam se jab Shweta 3 saal ki thi, uss aadmi ke ghar mein ek jhumar tha aur ek wall clock jo bajta tha… Shweta jab 12 saal ki thi to ek din uss wall clock aur jhumar ke baare mein puch rahi thhi mere chacha se aur uss aadmi ka hulya bilkool clear describe kiya tha uss ne….. Shweta ko bachpan se adult wale feelings hote the, ussko sab kuch 100% pata chalta tha ke kia ho raha hai……

Pata hai aap ko? Jiss din aap mere chachi ke ghar mujhe dhundte hue aaye the to Shweta wahin thi nah… aap ke jaane ke baad Shweta mujhse naraaz hui thi aur mujhe gandi kaha tha uss ne… ek badi adult ki tarah danta tha mujhko Shweta ne. main dang reh gayi thi. Mujhse kaha tha ke aap kaisa insaan ho, Abhi aap se itna pyar karta hai aur aap yahan andar baithi rahi ussko yahan se chiilla kar jawaab nahin de sakti thi? Wo ro raha tha aap ke liye aur aap ko kuch nahin hua? Aap ke feelings hi nahin hai, stone hearted ho aap. Kaash Abhi mujhse se pyar karta aur main aap ki jagah hota to ussko kabhi nahin jaane deta uss se zaroor shaadi karti main…… ek 6/7 saal ki ladki aise baatein keh sakti hai? Mujhe jhatka laga tha Shweta ki baat se uss roz…..

Aur jab ussko pata chal gaya ke main usski maa hoon, mujhse yahan jhagadne aayi thi tab bhi aap ko mention kiya tha uss ne…. kaha tha ke bhagwaan ne mujhe issi liye sazaa diya kyunke main ne aap ka dil dukhaya tha…..wo sab jo hua tha usske bachpan mein sab yaad tha ussko 18 saal ki hui tab bhi… aap ko bahot passand karti hai usski baton se laga tha mujhe tab bhi keh gayi thi ke aap usse milo to wo aap se shaadi kar legi…. Main ne ussko bataya ke aap shadi shuda ho already to wo maan nahin rahi thi keh rahi thi ke main jhoot bol rahi hoon… aur mujhse kaha ke ussi din se wo aap se pyar karne lagi thi jiss din aap ko mere liye rote dekha tha usske yahan.. aap se sach mein bahot pyar karti hai…. Kyun nah ho aap ho hi pyar ke kaabil… usko aap ka pyar dikh gaya tha Abhi mujhe nahin dikha tha kitni andhi thi main?! January 1987 mein jab wo aayi thi hamare yahan New year ke mauke par to aap ko dhund rahi thi, jab usskko pata chala tha ke aap ab yahan kabhi nahin aoge kaam khatam ho gaya to bahot royi thi, mujhse puchne aayi thi ke ab kaise wo aap se mil paegi? Aap kidhar rehte ho ussko aap ke yahan lejaane ko kaha tha mujhe!!! Mujhe bhi rula diya tha ussne aap ki yaad dila kar…. Main uss se kehne wali thi ke aap 4/5 ya 7th ko aane wale the, magar shukar hai ke nahin kaha kyunke agar wo hoti aur usske saamne Manoj ne aap ko weise nikala hota to kia guzarti uss par?

Magar ussko baad mein sab pata chal hi gaya aakhir…. Kuch mahine baad wo mujhse bahot naraaz hui thi ke kyun main ne aap ko nahin roka tha jab manoj ne aap ko ghar se nikala tha. pata hai Shweta ne kia kaha tha Abhi? Ussne kaha tha ke agar wo Ruhi hoti to ghar se turant bhaag kar aap ke piche jaati aur iss ghar ko chorr kar hamesha ke liye aap ke sath chali jaati…. Uss umar mein Shweta ka wo kehna tha aap ke liye!!! Wo bahot hi intelligent thi. Ek adult wali brain thi usske paas bachpan se hi. Sach pucho to mere dil mein aap ke liye ziada pyar Shweta ne jagaayi thi Abhi…. Ek baat kahuna ap se? jab 18 ki hone ke baad Shweta aap ke liye ro kar mujhse keh rahi thi ke wo aap se shadi karegi to mere dimaagh mein yeh baat ayi tha ke agar aap ne shaadi nahin kiya hota to main aap ko Shweta se shadi karne ko kehti… aap sirf 15 saal uss se bade ho, handsome to ho hi wo 18 ki thi 20 ki hoti tab aap 35 ke hote to ziada farak dikhta hi nahin, kyunke wo aap ko itna chahti thi main ne aap ka Rishta Shweta se bhi soch liya tha….. main jo nahin kar paayi thi, jo kami main ne chorra tha aap ki life mein wo kami apni beti se puri karwati main aap ke liye….. aap bhi ussko bahot passand karte the nah Abhi? Hmmm? Mujhe yaad hai, aap ne kaha tha wo bilkool meri tarah dikhti thi aap ko, aur ek baat kahun? Wo sach mein meri tarah hi hai…. Magar mujhse hazaar guna ziada intelligent, honshiyaar hai, daring hai, aap ki aur usski khub banti… aap ko uss se zaroor milna chahiye, mujhe yakeen hai ke uss se milkar aap bahot khush honge aur wo to uchal padegi…

Main kia keh rahi thi aur kia kehne lagi….. shweta yaad agayi bich mein ….. haan to uss din ke baad mummy aur Mehboob ne ab mujhe aap se doorie rakhne ko kaha kyunke Amit ane wala tha…. issi liye uss din ke baad main aap se distance banaane lagi thi magar ussi din aap ko mujhe apna love letter bhi dena tha jiss ne mujhe pighla diya tha aur main kashmakash mein pad gayi thi ke ab main kia karun!!!

Jiss din shaam ko main Mahesh, Farzina aur ek cousin ke saath baith kar aap ko suna rahi thi ke aap kia samajhte ho ke main aap se shaadi karungi, wo sab aap ko discourage karne ke liye tha, aap ko khud se door karne ke liye tha, aap ke dil mein mere liye nafrat paida karne ke liye tha magar aap ka pyar mazbut tha aur aap mujhse phir bhi aur bhi ziada pyar karte gaye, aap ka pyar ghatta nahin badhta gayaa mere liye aur main bebuss lachaar ulajhti gayi ke kia karun….. Aap aur Amit mein se mujhe ek ko chunna tha main samajh nahin paa rahi thi ke kia karun…. Mummy aur Mehboob ka kehna tha ke aap mujhse nafrat karoge jab aap ko pata chalega ke main ek bachi ki maa hoon…. Tabhi main ne decide kiya ke aap ko ab batana hoga…. Magar sirf itna bata paayi ke I am not a virgin aur aap ne to keh hi diya ke chaahe main ek bachchi ki maa hoon tab bhi aap mujhse shaadi karne ke liye tayaar ho….

Wo kehne se pehle main ne maa aur Mehboob se shart lagaayi thi ke aap mujhse phir bhi nafrat nahin karoge, aur uss roz maa ke saamne jab khidki ke paas aap rone ke karib the aur main aap se ziada rone lagi thi, aur aap ne mummy se piche ka darwaza kholne ko kaha tha, to main ne khola tha…. kia aap ko yaad hai uss roz uss se pehle Mehboob aur Rahima ne aap se kia kaha tha?

Rahima ne kaha tha ke aap hamare yahan rehne wale ho aur Mehboob ne kaha tha ke achchi baat hai subha ko jaldi kaam shuru kar doge? Yaad hai Abhi? Ussi din; din mein meri shart lagi thi mummy aur Mehboob se ke aap mujhse nafrat nahin karoge sab jaanne ke baad bhi…. Aur issi liye Mehboob ko pata tha ke aap se mujhe wo sab kehna hai shart ke anusaar mujhe pata lagana hai ke agar aap ko mere baare mein pata chala to aap kia karoge….

Aur uss raat ko main ne aap ko apne ghar roka tha yeh jaane ke baad ke aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karoge chahe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hui…. Mujhe wo kehne ki zaroorat hi nahin padi, aap ne wo keh bhi diya phir bhi main ne aap se stupidly pucha tha ke what if I am not a virgin…. Mujhe yehi kehna tha kyunke main ne wohi puchne ko plan kiya tha….. uss din aap ne mera dil jeet liya tha aur main shart bhi jeet gayi thi…. Mummy tabhi disappoint ho gayi thi issi liye aap ko ghar par rehne diya tha…. jab aap nahane gaye the to meri uss se baat hui thi Manoj se baat hone ke baad. Main ne mummy se kaha tha ke main shart jeet gayi aur Abhi mujhse phir bhi shaadi karne ke liye tayyaar hai chahhe main ek bachchi ki maa bhi hoon tab bhi suna aap ne!..... uss raat ko to mummy ne kuch nahin kaha tha uss raat wo aap ke favour mein thi magar dusre din Mehboob aur ussne phir baat kiye the aur weh donon Amit ke favour mein the.

Abhi uss raat ko main aap se humbistar hona chahti thi…. Pata hai kyun? Iss liye ke aap uss din mujhse wo karna chahte the jiss din lunch karne aaye the tab main ne aap ko mana kiya tha iss liye uss raat ko aap ko compensate karna chahti thi….. jab aap ne mujhe baahon mein bharke kiss kiya tha to meri rooh kaamp gayi thi….. main ne teenage mein jo sex kiya tha tab kuch sexual feeling kuch bhi nahin hua tha, magar uss raat aap ke saath real sexual feeling kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, arousal kia hota hai, envy aur desire kia hota hai tab pata chala tha, usski gehraayi se ehsaas hui thi aur usski zaroorat bhi feel hui thi… aap ne itni badi baat keh diye the ke aap ko apna tan, mann sab dene ka mann kar raha tha mujhe, uss raat ko real love aur sexual pleasure feel karne ko man kar raha tha mera, aap ko chorrne ko bilkool mann nahin kar raha tha, mann kar raha tha ke raat bhar aap mere saath sote. Mere baahon mein rehte raat bhar…. Magar uss raat ko aap ajeeb the, uss raat ko aap wo nahin chahte the jo main chaahti thi….. Abhi agar uss raat ko aap ne mere saath sex kar liya hota to main ussi raat ko decide kar liya tha kabhi bhi Amit ko accept nahin karti, main uss raat ko tan aur mann se aap ki ho jaati….

Magar dusre din ko sab gadbad hone laga tha Abhi…. Main to aap ke liye rehna chahti thi magar mummy aur Mehboob bilkool nahin chahte the… weh donon mujhse tab kehne lage the ke aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karenge ke bachi wali ladki ke saath apne bete ki shaadi karaayen…. Aap ke parents kabhi nahin accept karte ye sab keh keh kar unn donon ne mere dimaagh chaat liye the ke main bhi tang aagayi thi aur Amit ko priority dene lagi aur aap se dobara doorie rakhne lagi thi….

Issi liye aap ko mere response controversial lage honge ke main ne aap se ek baar kaha tha ke haan Amit hai phir kaha tha ke sab jhoot hai, meri virginity ki vajah se main jhoot bol rahi thi aur phir wapas kaha tha ke haan Amit hai…..

Aur phir mera jana hua ta Nani ke ghar…. Dar assal, nani, maasi aur mama logon ne uss roz mummy se kaha tha mujhe lekar wahan aane ke liye. Aur Abhi jab main wahan gayi thi to mera itna brainwashing kiya gaya tha ke kia bataun… uff…. Mujhe almost paagal bana diya tha sab ne wahan…. Amit ki itni taarif karte the sab ke jaise wo koyi raja maharajah hai… usski sister aur mother ko bulaya gaya tha mujhse milne ke liye, mujhko hausla dilaane ke liye ke Amit mere lite perfect choice hai…. Mujhko Amit ki photis dikhaaye gaye the, France mein Eifel tower ke paas ke usski tasveerein aur Paris mein pata nahin kiss kiss jagah mein usski li hui pics dikhaaye gaye the…. Mujhko jaise force kiya jaa raha tha ke main ussi ko chose karun aap ko nahin…. Waha sabko pata chal chuka tha ke aap mujhko chahte ho aur main duvidha mein hoon ke Amit ko select karun ya aap ko…..

Aur Nani aur mama ne mujhse aur mummy se kayi baar kaha ke wahan par jitney bhi log wo kaam karte hein jo aap karte ho most of the time sab ke sab bekaar rehte hein, unn ke paas kaam nahin hota, to sab kehte ke aap bhi weisa hi rahoge shaadi ke baad aur mera bura haal hoga aap ke saath.. mere 3 mama hein wahan aur 2 maasi… sabke sab mujhe convince kiye ke aap ko drop karun, aap se pyar nah karun aur Amit ko select karun….

Abhi sab bade the, mere apne the, main kia karti? Badon ko sunna padta hai nah…. main nahin kehti ke main ne argue nahin kiya, bahot argue kiya sabse kaha ke aap mujhse tab bhi shaadi karne ko tayyar ho halaan ke meri ek beti hai, aap mujhse sach mein pyar karte ho main khud gawah hoon yeh sab kaha main ne unn sabse…. Maa ne bhi kaha sab se ke aap dhit ho aap mujhko pagalon ki tarah pyar karte ho…. mummy kabhi kabhi aap ka side le rahi thi keh rahi thi ke kaise bhi ho aap to saamne ho, aap dikh rahe ho aur saaf dikhta hai ke aap kitna pyar karte ho mujhse… magar mama logon ne mummy ko danta yeh kehte hue ke apni khud ki beti ko kunwe mein dhakelna chahti ho?

Mujhko wahan se convince karke bheja gaya tha ke main aap se door ho jaun…. Issi liye nani ke ghar se wapas ane ke baad main aap se aur bhi door ho gayi thi….. magar jis din aayi thi ussi din aap ko main ne pehli baar I LOVE YOU kaha tha….wo sirf iss liye ke mujhe pata tha ab wo aap ko kabhi nahin keh paungi, kyunke mujhko to Amit ke saath jana hoga iss liye socha ek baar to keh doon…..

Phir usske baad har roz aap se thoda thoda door hoti gayi mai aap ko ghar ke andar se chhup chhup kar dekhti thi, bahot dukh hota tha aap ki haalat dekh kar, magar aap seeti bajaate, mujhe bulaate, main andar roti dil pat patthar rakh kar roti, kabhi aa bhi jaati thi, magar mummy dantti, Mehboob mujhko mote mote aankhon se dekhti, wapaas andar jaane ko ishara karta wo…. Main ghut ghut ke rehti thi ghar ke andar…..

To be continued immediately in the next post


amazing update bro,
Very very well written.
this is a marvellous job done by you. hats off.
1. Mehboob was sort of using Abhi to get his work done and she was also using Ruhi to lure Abhi by seducing him....
2. Shweta: so Ruhi said it Shweta was very intelligent and had the capacity of remembering things since her childhood,
yes this is true there are some kids who have that special power of remembering tigs when they were three years old....
I have a family member who is like that.... he is unique.... and Shweta belongs to that kind....
And sad to learn that Ruhi had developed a sort of hatred for Shweta as she was sort of a disturbance for her being a bachelor mother, but I can understand Ruhi and that awkward position.
And Ruhi was being used by her mother and Mehboob she really was like a puppet controlled by them
Well wonderfully written update bro really appreciated it.
will reply on the other one now
 

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Aur papa aya… ussi raat ko sab phir nani ke ghar gaye the yaad hai nah? phir wohi baat… wahan iss liye gaye the ke papa se wo log ab kahe ke mujhe aap se door rakhe aap ki proposal ko wo accept nah kare… papa to thehre yes man wo kia kaarta jo kuch ussko bolne ko kaha gaya wohi kaha ussne….

Aur aap ki kaam ki last day aane wala tha.. to nani ke yahan sabne mummy aur papa se kaha ke mujhko wahan se hatta diya jaaye taake last day ko main wahan rahun hi nahin aur aap kuch keh nah sake kissi se…. mujhko to pata tha ke aap papa se mera haath mangne wale ho, magar nani ke ghar yeh bhi pata chal gaya tha ke papa aap ko refuse karega kyunke nani ke ghar se ussko yehi order mila…..

To uss din ko main jaane wali thi issi liye farzina se khabar bheja tha aap ke paas ke main jaane wali hoon apni behen ke saath…. Mujhe pata tha mere jaane se pehle aap zaroor baat karne aoge mujhse… aur jab main kanghi kar rahi thi to aap ko khidki se issi liye dekh rahi thi jaane ke liye ke aap ko pata chala bhi ke nahin…. Aur aap aaye the khidki ke paas jaise main expect kar rahi thi…..

Uss roz main bahot ajeeb thi nah? yehi likha hai aap ne apni diary mein… padha main ne….. haan main thi bahot strange… apne dil par yun samajh lijiye ke main ne ek pahaad rakha hua tha aap se uss tarah se behave karne ke liye…. Ghar par mujhko maa, papa, didi, Mehboob, mere behnoy sab mujh par chadh rahe the ke main bilkool nah rowun aur aap se bold pesh aaun, yeh dikhaun ke aap se bilkool pyar nahin karti…. Magar sabko, didi aur bro in law ko bhi pata tha ke main aap se kitna pyar karne lagi thi… main bahot royi thi uss din jaane se pehle… didi se puchna…. Main itni royi thi ke mere dum ghutne lage the, main saans nahin le paa rahi thi yahan tak ke brother in law ne kaha tha ke meri aur aap ki shaadi kar diya jaaye…

Jab aap khidki se baat kar rahe the, to ek aadmi tha jiska dil ro raha tha aap ko dekh kar wo meri didi ka husband tha…. wo aap ke pyar ko samajhta tha.. sab wahan milkar aap ko discourage karne ke liye aaye hue the…. Jab aap ne papa ko bulwaya to ussne kaha ke wo mujhe lekar apne sath lejaane wale hein mujhko pata tha ke aap ko bilkool bhi yakeen nahin tha aap ko pata tha ke wo jhoot tha, mujhe sab pata tha, phir bhi mujhko wohi bolna pada tha kyunke papa wohi kehne wala tha aap se.. aur jab aap ne kaha tha ke aap mera intezaar akroge aur didi ne pucha ke kab tak wait karoge to aap ne kaha tha zindagi bhar mujhe itna zor se rone ka mann kiya tha uss waqt ke samajh mein nahin aya tha ke kia karun….. tab papa ne aap se kaha tha ke Amit ko zubaan de chuke hein matlab aap ko kissi kimat par yeh kehna tha ke NAHIN -NO. NAHIN HO SAKTA AAP KI SHAADI RUHI SE….. yehi kehna aur batana tha aap ko…. AAP KA DIL TODNA THA, AAP KE DIL PAR EK KHANJAR CHALAANA THA, AAP KE DIL SE KHOON BAHANA THA…AUR SAARE ILZAAM MUJHKO APNE UPAR LENA THA…. AAP KE DIL KE TUKDE MAIN NE KIYE, AAP KO DHOKA MAIN NE DIYA, AAP SE DAGHA MEIN NE KIYA…SAB MUJHKO APNE UPAR LEKAR WAHAN SE JAANA THA AUR WAPAS TAB ANA THA JAB AAP YAHAN HONGE HI NAHIN…..AAP SE MAAFI MAANGNE KA BHI ADHIKAAR NAHIN THA MERE PAAS…. Samajhlo ke mere kaandhe par bandook rakh kar aap ke dil par seinron goliyan chalaya gaya tha aur mujhe sab dekhte hue hanssna tha…. yehi kiya gaya tha aap ke saath uss din Abhi aur haan main sab dekhti rahi unn sab ka saath deti rahi main bhi……

Iss sab ka gehra ehsaas mujhe tab hua jiss din aap Shweta ke ghar ro rahe the meri chachi se sab kehte hue….. main khamoshi se ro rahi thi aap ko sunte hue…. Phir bhi main ne aap ko nahin roka chachi ka khayal karte hue ke wo aap ke saamne jhooti nah kehlaaye….

Aur haan uss roz jab main jaa rahi thi aur aap bus ke piche ke darwaaze se kud kar mujhko baahon mein bhar ke kiss karne aaye the uss ek pal ko main bhool gayi thi ke main main hoon…. Main ro rahi thi aap ki haalat dekh kar bus mein…. Mujhe aap ko chorr kar jaane ko bilkool bhi mann nahi tha, mujhe pata tha ke uss din ke baad uss aangan mein aap phir kabhi nahin dikhoge… mujhe yakeen tha ke uss raat ko aap ne kissi bhi time ko kaam end kiya mujhse zaroor miloge, mujhe uss waqt ka intezaar tha, magar main khud aap ko chorr kar jaa rahi thi…. To jis waqt aap ne mujhko baahon mein thaama main bilkool pighal gayi aur sab kuch bhool kar aap ke kiss ko respond kiya, goli maar diya tha sabko main ne uss ek pal ko Abhi kyunke ek last kiss aap ko karna banta tha…. aap ko yaad hai maa ko main ne kaise jawaab diya tha ke haan shooting chal rahi hai film ki….. I did not care at all at that moment… mujh mein ek ajib si shakti aayi thi jiss pal ko aap ne mujhko baahon mein liya tha sabke saamne open mein…. Aap ki daring ki daat deri hoon Abhi. You are a TRUE MAN!.... magar jab main jaane lagi thi aap ko tut kar niche baith kar rote hue dekh kar mera kaleja fatt raha tha Abhi, mujhko turant laut kar wapas aane ka mann kar raha tha, didi ne mera haath pakar kar khiincha tha mujhe chalne ke liye….. aur main chali gayi thi Abhi aap ko ussi haal mein chorr kar…..

Wahan se didi ke ghar jaane tak 22 kms hein main unn 22 kms tak roti gayi…. Roti rahi raat bhar aap ko yaad karte hue…. Kab nendh aayi pata hi nahin chala…..

Phir aayi wo din jab aap meri chachi ke ghar aaye aur main ghar wapas aayi thi 29th ya 30th ko… aap ka new year card mila tha jiss mein aap ne kaha ha ke aap 3, 4 ya 5th ko aoge…. Mujhe ek sukoon sa feel hua tha….. aap ko bhool nahin paa rahi thi.. mera aangan suna tha, aap ki seeti sunne ko kaan taras rahe the main baar baar kitchen se uss jagah dekh rahi thi jahan buss hua karta tha, jiss jiss jagah aap dikhaayi dete the main unn jagahon par dekhti rehti iss umeed se ke aap ek baar dikh jao mujhe…. Mere aangan mein jitna Abhi ka naam goonjhte hue sunaayi deta tha ab unta hi sannata hua karta tha…. kuch bhi acha nahin lagta tha… main washing stone par kapde dhoti to aap feel hote the lagta tha aap achanak piche se ajaoge, aap ki aahat ka ehsaas hota tha, kitab padhti khidki se tek lagaaye to aap nazar aate the baahar… kabhi kabhi lagta meri aankhen mujhko dkhoka de rahe hein, aap ko aisa feel karti ke aap ke saanson ka bhi ehsaas hone lagta mujhe…. Abhi TAB MUJHE EHSAAS HUA KE MAIN AAP SE KITNA PYAR KARTI HOON AUR AAP KO KITNA MISS KAR RAHI HOON…. Aap ne jo khat likha tha new year card ke saath uss mein mujhe ek bahot bada umeed dikhaayi diya… aap ne uss mein likha tha ke aap mujhse, mere papa se phir haath mange aoge phir uske baad apne parents ke saath aoge mujhe dekhne tab mangni tey hogi….. par main ne tab bhi ek bahot badi ghalati kar diya tha abhi…. Main ne mummy ko wo sab bata diya tha… mujhe mummy ko nahin batana chahiye tha, tab wo mujhe nahin rokti mera munh nahin dabaati, main achanak uss din aap ke saamne aajati aur papa ke saamne kehti ke haan mujhe aap Manzoor ho to papa kabhi inkaar nahin karta…..

Aap ne kayi baar uss khat mein kaha tha mujhe ke aap ko mera saath chahiye, mujhe wahan maujood hona chahiye, mujhko bhi baat karna chahite apne papa se, mujhe kehna chahiye ke haan main aap se pyar karti hoon…. Abhi MAIN NE WOHI NAHIN KIYA ABHI…..

Baaki main aap ko bata chuki hoon ke uss roz kia hua tha main kyun nahin nikal paayi thi……

Jab aap ko nikala gaya tha ghar se phir kia kiya tha main ne wo bata chuki hoon aap ko…..

Tab realise hua ke kho diya main ne aap ko, tab pata chala aur ehsaas hua aap ka pyar kitna keemti tha, tab samajh mein aya kia khoya hai main ne aur faisla kiya ke sabko sabak dekar rahungi, aur jo taakat mujh mein tab nahin thi jab aap yahan the wo taaqat tab aayi mujh mein inn sab ke saamna karne ki.

Main ek jwala ban chuki thi, mujhe rokne ko tab kissi mein himmat nahin thi, nah maa nah baap nah Mehboob nah Manoj. Main ne manoj ko kayi thapad mara tha yeh nahin bataya tha aap ko. Tabhi se uss se baat karna bandh kiya tha aur 5 saal baad usske shadi ke din uss se baad karna dobara shuru kiya tha wo bhi kabhi kabhi.

Aap ki dairy padh kar pata chala uss roz, 5th January ko ussi bus stop par aap ne apne tute hue dil se kaha tha ke kutte ki maut naseeb nah ho jaye ussko ussi jagah aur exactly wohi hua tha usske saath ussi jagah mara tha wo.

Maa aur Mehboob ko kia sazaa mili thi wo aap ko zubaani bataungi jab diary lene aoge tab.

Ek maze ki baat bata doon aap ko ke Amit aane wala tha mere nani, mama aur mamiyon ke saath mujhe dekhne April mein ussi saal jiss saal mein aap ko ghar sen ikala gaya tha…. sirf 3 mahine guzre the mere bawaal machaane ke baad aur sab darr rahe the mujhko batana ke wo aane wala hai…. Ek din pehle ek mama aya mujhko samjhane ke ussko receive kar liya jaaye… mujhe aap ka badla lena tha ghar walon se to main ne mama se kaha thik hai aane do Amit ko.

Wo aya bhi to kiss din Abhi? Aap ke birthday ke din aya wo mujhe dekhne aur haath maange uss se shaadi ke liye. 12th April tha, main aap ki yaad mein doobi thi jab nani, mama, aur do mamiyan aye hamare ghar, ussi jagah jahan se aap ko nikala gaya tha. sab ghar par the kyunke wo ane wala tha. papa wapas nahin gaye the tab tak ussi ke liye.

Abhi ussko main ne wo sunaya, wo haal kiya, aise aise galiyan diye ussko, bilkool jo aap ke saath kiya tha Manoj ne, Manoj ke saamne ussi tarah dhitkaar kar nikala unn sabko main ne ghar se….. nani aur mama mamiyan ko bhi sunaya aur kaha ke khabardaar phir kabhi mere liye kissi ko bhi iss dwar par laya to kutte ki tarah maar ke nikalungi…… Amit aisa gaya ke aaj tak usske baare mein khabar nahin mili,aur uss din ke baad main aaj tak nani ke ghar nahin gayi, marr bhi gayi wo bhi aur unn mein se ek mama bhi aur ek mami bhi…..

Here you go Abhi jo kehna tha keh diya aap ko, ab samajh mein nahin ata kia kehne ko bhooli hoon…. Jo miss kiya aap ko bataane ko wo aap puch lena jab miloge to bata dungi….

Mujhe pata hai wo din wapas nahin aane wale, weh pal nahin laut kar aane wale, buss aap dobara mile isske liye apni taqdeer ka shuriya ada karti hoon, yeh sab kehna tha aap se keh diya dil ka ek bojh halka hua, aap ko jo kehna tha, jo likha tha aap ne unn dinon wo mujh tak pahunchana tha wo aap ne bhi kar diya aap ka bhi bojh halka hua hoga.

Ab araam se mar sakungi marne ka time aega to, saare shikwe gile door hue umeed hai aap ko aur koyi shikaayat nahin rahega ab.baaki jo bhi kiya aap ke saath unn sab ke liye maafi maangti hoon, aap ke sacha pyar ko thukraya usski sazaa bhugat chuki hoon aur bhugat rahi bhi hoon, agar aap ne kahin mujhko bhi bad duah diye ho to wapas le lena please mujh par rehem karna Abhi bahot seh chuki hon aur nahin seh paungi.

Thank you very much for coming in my life and teaching me what is TRUE LOVE. I LEARNED THAT FROM YOU ONLY ABHI. AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING THOSE TWO AND A HALF MONTHS YOU WORKED HERE TO BE MEMORABLE FOR ME WHICH I WILL CHERISH ALL MY LIFE. WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE DAYS. I STILL REMEMBER EACH AND EVERY MOMENT AS YOU HAVE WRITTEN IN YOUR DIARIES…. I COPIED ALMOST ALL THOSE MOMENTS BACK IN A NEW COPYBOOK FROM YOUR DIARY TO KEEP FOR MYSELF. I LOVED YOU LATE BUT DID LOVE YOU VERY MUCH ABHI. MUCH LATER I REALISED HOW MUCH I HAD ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I KNOW ITS TOO LATE NOW. YOU LOVED ME FROM YOUR SOUL, YOU ONCE WROTE OUR SOULS WERE CONNECTED, YOU WERE RIGHT BUT I WAS WRONG NOT TO RECOGNISE MY OWN SOULT AT THE RIGHT TIME.

Signed:

Ruhi Nunhuck.

To be continued….
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